Thursday, February 26, 2009

OMG!!!! FUCKIN PHISHERS

SO APPARENTLY MY MYSPACE GOT HACKED INTO LIKE 10 MINUTES AGO AND I CANT GET INTO THE SITE NOW TO FIX IT GRRR LIKE FOR REALZ ITS ANNOYING AS HELL



ok shout outs to ahkbar for fixing my page

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

SOL FOOD 02:24:09

LIFE IS JUST TOOOOOOO SHORT... SET SOME GOALS FUFILL THEM AND JUST LIVE THROUGHT THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE SHITTY

Monday, February 23, 2009

The effect of a bomb car

It sucks to admit but a bomb car has that mmmmmmm effect on women me especially. I love dope boy rides and cars that go fast..... Bad boy cars that make u wanna be bad and step on that wild side. Seriously being with Africa made me realize how much I really do love cars


(hey Africa's bike was the main reason I stopped to even say anything to him when I met him hahahahahahahaha)

But I think I have a new goal, I want a classic Shelby, a Caprice or Box, a bike, a great everyday car, a luxury car for nights out, a Jeep for off riasing and location shoot, a G Wagon, and my Maserati just because.

Africa

So I'm out with this guy I'm going to call Africa and so far it's going pretty good. Which is interesting considering the fact that in not super crazy abut darker skinned guys.

(Oh for those I you who are wondering Bear and I are stil officially together. Right now we are in the middel of a disagreement and yeah... Honestly idk about him right now. The other day I got some information about him that really hurt me and made me sad. But I digressed from my current evenig activities)

Africa is pretty cool tho I have to admit. He has a moorcycle, a classic dope boy car thatbus just straight sexy (actually he is in the same car club by Him used to be apart of) an he is just cute. Actually check rat he is down right dark chocolate fine. Even tho be was born on Africa he was raised in the South and I have to admit he combination makes for a very sexy mix.

Oh shot he hella just turned off the lights an commented on the fact that I'm blogging so I'll finish this later.

Naked: Me Time

So I'm sitting here in re movies by myself about to watch a double feature "Madea Goes to Jail" and "Confessions of a Shopaholic". Yeah I probably could have gotten some body to go with me or take me foe that matter but I needed his time by myself to think about eat was important to me.


Some of you my have seen the blogs that I had up before that talked about all the crap that I was going through with people an situations in my life.... That combined with being out at Fix really made me just need some reflecting time.


Don't get me wrong I'm glad that i've has all these changes because they have forced me go grow but it's the force part that important having a hard part with. And considering that I've been being forced to be by myself I figured I might as well be by myself for a bit.


I'm excited actually cuz these are two movies that I really wanted to see but wanted to be able to enjoy enjoy and I'm sure that I I had ant with people I wouldn't have. So we shall see.

Right now I'm just trying to stay in a vein that's me and not me so hurt that I fall back into old habits or my ego. Despite all the crap I've managed to start possibly a sucessful relationship, to better at work, find out more about myself and those around me.

Hopefully one of these movies will show me something that will make me want to keep going and make me feel better.

Fix 02:20:09

I can't even begin to tell y'all how good it felt to be back at Fix with my Star-Dom fam. Matter of fact shout-outs to the whole Star-Dom fam.


Once again I just want say that Fix is the place to be on Friday night. In my adventures away I've gotten to go to a lot of different places but the one thing that they all lack is music consistancy. This includes Belo who despite all the concerts and their capacity that is 3-4 times Faces still cannont produce consistant music flow.


One thing that I always here from people when they leave Fix is that they loved that they could dance all night. Fix does something with one room and set of turntables that Belo can't do with 3, mesh three DJ's styles as one without them losing their individuality.

DJ Kali has a very underground style... He knows how to take the new trax you want to hear but don't and make them club bangers. The trax that people think that people in SD wouldn't know about Kali knows how to play on a mix with current an classic joints that makes u want to go download them when you go home.

DJ Mack is great for keeping consistant flow. I've never been in the club where he hasn't seamlessly transitioned into the mix done his thing and provided a great platform for Dj Birdy Bird to come in on. He brings that extra added consistancy to the club that only a veteran could bring. During his set he brings flava showcasing dancehall, west coast hits an east coast swagg.

Roundin out the night is the ever controversial but undoubtably solid DJ Birdy Bird. Comments he has said in the past has put him in Hell's Kitchen but his mixing proves that he doesn't just handle and survive it but uses it to make his craft better. His mix style is high energy and almost combative putting beats and trax together to challenge someone to be more creative. Dirty south with old school west coast to down south to step music then swagg or old school. It all pops off eel in ways where you wouldn't have thought to put songs together the way that he does. Personally I think by best set is his freakeum set at the end of night that is slow, sexy, and still satisfies your club energy.


With all that being said about these differnt DJs you would think you would hear tons of repeat or sack songs and yet you don't. That's my point about Fix, they don't bore you you don't want to leave because the music has you thinking about where you coulda spent ure money. Every night from DJ to DJ there is nothing but consistancy and high energy.


Again shout outs to the fam it was good to be back and let's keep gettin it in.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Omg!!!!!!!

So I just killed at my model casting!!!! They really like me and a scheduled a meeting with me tomorrow to look at possible work.


I feel truely blessed to have done soo well considering it's ben awhile since I last went on a casting.

Thanks to my boys who showed me love and supported tonight too hugs


PS
So had one of the high time chargers kneckbreaking off my fit too

Friday, February 20, 2009

A. STYLE: MONOCHROME

SOOO TONIGHT YOUR GIRL WILL BE HITTING THE CLUBS IN SD TO DO SOME PHOTOS, CHILL, BE SCENE AND DO THIS MODELING AUDITION...


FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS WHERE I NEED TO HAVE A FOR VERSATILE STYLE I CHOSE TO GO TO MY SIGNATURE BLACK OPAQUE LEGGINGS (KEEPS YOU WARM AND MAKES YOUR LEGS LOOK LONG WHILE STILL SEXY AS HECK) AND A CUTE TULIP DRESSIN A LIGHT GREY.


THE DRESS IS SUPPER BANGIN YALL ITS A TULIP BOTTOM SO IT GIVES ME A BIT MORE CURVES. THERES A WAIST BAND THATS SET HIGH SO MY LEGS ARE GOING TO BE HELLA LONG TONIGHT. DROPPY FRONT AND SLEVELESS SO I CAN SHOW OFF MY ARMS.


ACCESSORIES FOR THE NIGHT ARE MY NEW ANGEL WING NECKLACE (BLACK CHAIN W/ PEARLS AND A SMALL CRYSTAL CHAIN), MY ZEBRA PRINT SHOES WITH RED ACCENT AND A WHITE WITH BLACK BAND FEDORA (HELL ALICA KEYS MOMENT HUH LOL). SO IM HELLA MONOCHROME TONIGHT USING SHADES OF BLACK, GREY, AND WHITE.



MY EYE MAKE UP IS CRAZY USING A GOLDEN BROWN HIGHLIGHT AND A BRONZE ON MY LID. MY INNER CREASE IS BLACK AND THE OUTER IS PURPLE WHICH ALSO IS ON MY OUTER LOWER LASH LINE. DARK TEAL IS THE TOP LASH LINE WITH A LIGHTER TEAL ON THE LOWER INNER. ROSY CHEECKS AND A RED LIP PLUS MASCARA COMPLETE MY LOOK AND HAVE ME LOOKING SMOKY HOT WITH AN ANJLIK TWIST.



PICS UP LATER TONIGHTCATCH YOU LATER

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Random Thought

So I have been watching Sex & the City and thinking about a phone conversation and space conversation I had earlier today.


So after not hearing from Bear (who yes I have been dating for a month now exclusivley) over V-day due to his phone issues. I heard from him today via non other than myspace. Which made me very happy...... Until it made me miss him. A lot of today was actually spent with me waiting to hear from him (lame I know) and wondering how we were going to make this work.


I feel like he is my Mr. Big.


Then later on I heard from Talk.... Who I think didn't just tell me that he still had feelings for me and wanted to be with me but that he loved me....

Yea that's wat I did and said.... My jaw dropped and I gasped "WHAT!!!"

It didn't make any sense at all we were done I had walked away he knew the worst aspect of me and wants to be with me... Possibly loves me

It makes me wonder was he really all talk and have I made a mistake in giving myself to Bear


Or is Talk just my Russian?

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Life

So it's been a few weeks since everything blew up in my face and I lost pretty much all of my good friends.... And I have to admit that I'm doing fairly well considering everything.


And that scares me

Letters From the Sol: I Miss U

Dear,

I'm laying here in my bed..... Which should be our bed alone and sad. Ure not here and with u so far away from me it's making me weak, making me doubt

Has someone else stolen ure heart away from me??? Or have u just forgotten me????


I would give anything for your touch ure kiss ure voice right now to ease my mind......

I'm just hoping that my faithfulness won't produce a chip in my heart.


"It's been too long and I'm lost without you what am I gonna do I've been needing you wanting you, wonderin if you're the same and who's been with you...."


I miss u

Always,

Anjl Marie

Sol food 02:18:09

Sometimes the best thing for u is to spend a day in bed just being lazy and catching up on rest

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

BEFORE THE HYPE: P!NK "THERE YOU GO"

"so you say you wanna talk, I don'tsay you wanna change, I won'tyeah it's like that you had your chance, won't take you backnow what? what you think about that? now when I say I'm through, I'm through so basically I'm through with youwhat cha wanna say? had to have it your way, had to play games"

"don't you wish that things were simple like that, oh"

BEFORE THE HYPE: MARGARITA MONDAYS

SO I GOTTA SHOUT OUT MY FORMER HOME GIRL bunny FOR ALL THE FUN MARGARITA MONDAYS THAT WE USED TO HAVE AT HER PLACE IN HIGH SCHOOL... LOL



SERIOUSLY THEY USED TO BE CRAZY (AS YOU CAN SEE ONE THAT WENT HELLA LATE ENDED WITH BODY SHOTS). BUT THOSE WERE THE DAYS WEN IF YOU WEREN'T AN N.S. YOU DIDN'T MATTER AND BEFORE ANYTHING THERE WAS A TRIAL... BUT OH WELL....

MARGARITA MONDAYS WERE JUST A GREAT GIRLS DAY TO CATCH UP, CHILL, LAUGH, AND WHATEVER

I HEART: MY SON!!!!

OK SO I DON'T SAY THIS ENOUGH.... I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HEART MY SON CHRIS PARKER AKA PHENOM!!!


NO LAMES HE'S NOT MY LITERAL SON BUT HE MIGHT AS WELL BE LOL.... NAH IM ALWAYS SOOOOO PROUD OF HIM BECAUSE HE DOES HIS BEST KEEPS RESPECT HIGH AND JUST LOVES HIS MOM (BOTH OF US TO DEATH)!!!


I LOVE YOU SON!!!!

SHOE CRUSH: STEVE MADDEN

BLOCKBT2 $59.95


SALLINA $119.95

SOL FOOD 02:17:09

SO A MAN THINKITH SO HE HIS

Monday, February 16, 2009

ADDICTED: KOBE ON THE COVER OF COMPLEX

SO IF BEING CO MVP OF THE ALLSTAR GAME ISN'T ENOUGH AND HAVING THE BEST RECORD IN THE NBA SO FAR THIS SEASON, AN OLYMPIC GOLD MEDAL, AND THE TITLE OF MVP MY HUSBAND (YES I SAID IT MY HUSBAND) IS ON THE COVER OF THE FEB/MARCH ISSUE OF complex... SO FUCKIN SEXY IM IN LOVE (ALL OVER AGAIN THAT IS)!!!

WEEKEN ROUND UP 02:12 - 02:15

ALRIGHT HERES MY WEEKEND ROUND UP.


THURSDAY AND FRIDAY I WAS AT HOME SICK AS A DOG SO I MISSED JIM JONES AND I MISSED FIX FRIDAYS BOTH OF WHICH I HEARD WERE HELLA CRACKIN AND ON POINT SO SHOUT OUTS TO FABRICALLI, IMPACT, AR MEDIA, AND STAR-DOM FOR HOLDIN DOWN THE SCENE THOSE NIGHTS.


SATURDAY I MADE AN APPEARANCE IN BELO WHICH WAS ALRIGHT.... I MEAN LOVE WAS IN THE AIR AND I WAS GETTING NONE SO I WASN'T TOO THRILLED TO BE IN THERE.... TOOO MANY PEOPLE THERE THAT I HADN'T SEEN IN FOREVER FOR ONE AND THEN THERE WERE JUST TOO MANY PEOPLE THAT I DDIN'T NEED TO SEE. PLUS THE MUSIC AS ALWAYS WASN'T SOOO CONSISTANT BUT NEH IM ALMOST OVER THAT ASPECT OF BELO. THEY HAD SOME GREAT DRINK SPECIALS THO.


SUNDAY I WAS AT THE WIZ KHALIFIA CONCERT WITH KIDD ENT, SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE, 3 STYLE GLOBAL AND KIETO AT SUBMISSION. DON'T ASK ME WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE INSIDE CUZ I HAVE NO CLUE HONESTLY ( I WAS WORKING A DOOR THE WHOLE NIGHT). BUT WIZ IS MADDDD CHILL AND I WOULD PARTY WITH HIM AND CHEVY ANYTIME. SOO MADD SHOUT OUTS TO THEM FOR BE SO CHILL AND NOT WAK. AND WIZ WE STILL HERE NOT AROUND THE CORNER, CHEVY MANNNNNNNN I CAN GET YOU SOME (INSIDER LMAO). AND NIKKIO YOU KNOW SHORT PEOPLE!!!


THIS WEEK A LOT IS GOING ON IN SD SO CATCH ME FIRST AND FOREMOST @ THE GAME CONCERT AND AFTER PARTY @ hob AND decos THURSDAY, THEN FRIDAY FIX I'LL BE THERE IN FULL EFFECT, SATURDAY I'LL BE CLUB HOPPING SO JUST CATCH ME, THEN SUNDAY I'LL BE AT ANTHOLOGY FOR OSCAR NIGHT AMERICA.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

NBA Allstar game first half

Ok so I just news to say it's good to be blogging and way better to blog about than one of my first loves basketball. No I didn't make it to the allstar game in Phoenix but I'm watching it now (having a fit).


First and foremost the west needsvri get it together and play like they mean it! They should be killing the east and they aren't.


The drop Ptesident Obama did for NBA Cares was too awesome. I love that he is down to earth and true to his roots (and a ball player himself). So in honor of it I will be coaching kids this season again and trying to move my schedule so that I can play red league again.


And right now Jogn Legend and Jaques are gettin it!!!!! But Duncan cab u set a good screen and Paul play defense.


Before I go madd congrats to Bill Russel. And A.I. Babe I love the new look. Oh and Kobe I love u always congrats on the special ring from the Olympic Gold Win!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

NEW

I HAD A DREAM THAT I WAS HAPPY... EVERYTHING WRONG THAT HAD HAPPENED RECENTLY NEVER HAPPENED....


I STILL HAD MY BEST FRIEND, I STILL HAD FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE SOMEONE WHO CARED ABOUT ME.



I WASN'T THE BEST BY POPULAR DEMAND BUT MY WORK SPOKE FOR ITSELF.


BOTH OF YOU WERE STILL GONE BUT AT LEAST I HAD SOMEWHERE THAT I COULD GO AND SIT AND TALK TO BOTH OF YOU.... AND NOT JUST TO THE NOTHINGNESS.


ALL OF MY SCARS WERE GONE, MY BODY FAT GONE, AND MY INNER AND OUTER BEAUTY MATCHED.


I WAS OKAY BEING SICK CUZ I HAD NO EXPECTATION OR HOPE OF BEING WELL AND WHOLE... NOT JUST THIS SHATTERED HOPE.



IN MY DREAMS I WALKED THROUGH A CROWD AND PEOPLE COULD HEAR ME AND SEE ME. THEY COULD REACH OUT AND MEET MY TOUCH.... I THINK THAT WAS THE HARDEST REALITY TO WAKE UP TO.... CUZ NONE OF IT WAS TRUE.



THEN LAST NIGHT AS I SLEPT I SAW MYSELF CURLED IN A BALL ASLEEP. I WAS TOSSING AND TURNING. I SAW SOMEONE LOOKING THROUGH THE WINDOW AND SHOUTING AND LAUGHING AS HE LOOKED AT ME SLEEP SO UNCOMFORTABLY. THEN I WATCHED AS HE PASSED THROUGH THE WINDOW AS A DARK GHOST AND WENT TO TOUCH MY HEAD AND HEART.


AT THAT MOMENT A WHITE BEING THAT I COULD ONLY DESCRIBE AS AN ANGEL WHO APPEARED AS A BLURR BESIDE MY BED AND SHIELDED ME FROM THE DARK FIGURE.

"YOU HAVE NO PLACE HERE, HE HAS HEARD HER CRYS EVEN IN HER SLEEP AND YOU CAN TORMENT HER NO LONGER," SAID THE ANGEL.


JUST AS THE LAST SYLLABLE LEFT HIS LIPS A HOST OF ANGELS SURROUNDED THE DARK FIGURE COVERING EVERY EMPTY SPACE IN MY ROOM AND OUTSIDE THE WALLS. QUICKLY THE DARK FIGURE FLED SEEING THAT HE WAS DEFEATED.


"PEACE HE HAS SENT US TO PROTECT YOU AND TO TEND TO YOU WHILE YOU MEND AND HEAL. YOUR CRY'S WERE NOT UNNOTICED... YOUR DREAM WAS NOT MERELY A DREAM BUT A GLIMPSE OF THE TRUTH YOU ARE ALONE NO LONGER FOR HE IS WITH YOU AS FAMILY, FRIEND, AND SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT YOU MORE THAN THE GRAINS OF SAND IN ALL THE EARTH. YOUR WORK DOESN'T SPEAK OF YOURSELF BUT OF THE EXCELLENCE HE HAS CREATED IN YOU. THO MANY PEOPLE HAVE LEFT YOU HE GIVES YOU THIS PROMISE TO NEVER LEAVE YOU AND TO SIT WITH YOU ALWAYS, STAND WITH YOU ALWAYS, AND GO WITH YOU ALWAYS. HE HAS MADE YOU BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE HE MADE YOU IN HIS IMAGE BOTH INWARDLY AND OUTWARDLY AND TODAY YOUR SCARS WILL BE REMOVED, OLD WOUNDS HEALED, AND YOUR IMAGE NO LONGER DISTORTED. HE HAS HEALED NOT JUST WHAT ALES YOUR BODY BUT WHAT HAS ALED YOUR MIND, HEART, AND SOUL THAT YOU MAY BE WHOLE AND EXPECTANT ONLY OF CONTINUING TO REST IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, MUTED, INVISIBLE, OR TRANSPARENT BUT A GREAT AND STRONG TOWER OF LIGHT AND REFUGE."


AT THAT MOMENT I SAW MY BODY START TO CALM. THE LIGHTED FIGURE WHO SPOKE TO ME TOUCHED ME AND PEALED A SCALING FROM MY EYES, A PLUG FROM MY EARS, AND BROKE THE SEAL OVER MY MOUTH. THEN HE TOUCHED MY MIND AND A GREAT SPARK LEPT FROM HIS HAND AND BROUGHT LIFE AND RESTORATION TO THE DEAD, DAMAGED, AND WEAK PARTS OF MY MIND.



THE HOST OF ANGELS IN MY ROOM BEGAN TO REJOICE AND PRAISE. THEY BEGAN TO WORSHIP. THE ANGELS OUTSIDE MY ROOM STANDING GUARD BEGAN TO DANCE AND WORSHIP.


THEN I FELT SOMETHING ELSE ENTER THE ROOM THAT MADE ME REJOICE AND PRAISE WITH THE HOST OF ANGELS. HIS SPIRIT HAD COME INTO THE ROOM AND BEGAN TO COVER MY WHOLE BODY. AS I BREATHED IN AND OUT IT BEGAN TO FILL ME INSIDE. THEN A BLAZING MAN PARTED THE HOST AND AS HE DID THEY FELL TO THEIR FACES .


THE BLAZING FIGURE MADE HIS WAY TO MY BED WHERE I NOW CALMLY LAID AND SPOKE.


"BE TOTALLY HEALED."


AT THAT MOMENT MY BODY BECAME HOT LIKE IT WAS BEING BURNED IN A FIRE. BUT I SAW NO BURN MARKS ON ME, INSTEAD I SAW SMALL PIECES OF DARKNESS, AND BONDAGES BREAKING OFF ME AND THEN BEING CONSUMED BY THE FIRE. I SAW IMPURITIES LEAVING ME LIKE A FEVER BEING SWEATED OUT. I SAW MYSELF SCREAM AND CRINGE, CUZ THOUGH IT WAS HELPING ME IT STILL HURT MY BODY.


THEN THE BLAZING FIGURE POURED WATER INTO MY MOUTH. AND I COULD FEEL MY BODY READY TO PURGE ITSELF OF THE IMPURITIES IN ME AS THE WATER HEALED MY ORGANS AND RAN THROUGH MY VEINS BRINGING LIFE BACK TO ME. THEN IT ALL CAME UP EVERY HURT THAT HAD PLAGUED MY BODY, ALL THE SICKNESS, ALL THE HURT THAT HAD FESTERED IN MY BONES AND IT TOO WAS CONSUMED BY THE FIRE... BUT THE WATER REMAINED.


THEN THE BLAZING FIGURE CALLED FOR ME TO BE COVERED IN THE BLOOD SO THAT I COULD BE PRESENTED TO HIM.


"GET UP AND PRESENT YOURSELF A NEW CREATION, WITH A NEW MIND, CLEANSED BODY, AND A READY HEART."


AS I GOT UP I FOUND MYSELF AT A GREAT THRONE IN HIS PRESENCE.


"I SEE NO WRONG, NO EVIL, NO BLEMISH ON THIS GIRL. I SEE A WILLING HEART AND THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB MAKING HER RIGHTEOUS. COME THAT I MAY TOUCH YOUR HEART AND DWELL THERE UNTIL YOUR PURPOSE IS COMPLETE."


AS I MOVED CLOSER TO THE THRONE I FELT SOMETHING TOUCH MY HEART AND BEGIN TO REPAIR THE CRACKS AND BREAKS IN IT, REPLACE THE PARTS THAT WHERE MISSING AND FILL THE VOIDS I FELT LIKE COULDN'T BE FILLED. AND THAT PART THAT HAD FOUGHT AND LONGED TO GET TO THE VERY MOMENT I WAS AT GAINED STRENGTH AND BEAMED TO DRIVE AWAY ANY DARKNESS LEFT.


"YOUR FAITH AND HEART HAVE GIVEN YOU NEW LIFE AND WHOLENESS NOW PUT ON NEW GARMENTS AND REJOICE FOR A FEAST HAS BEEN PREPARED TO WELCOME YOU HOME DAUGHTER."


THEN I WAS DRESSED IN GARMENTS OF PRAISE AND GIVEN ARMOR TO JOIN THE FIGHT. MY HAIR WAS COMBED AND BODY PERFUMED AND GIVEN A CROWN FOR I NOW HAD A ROYAL INHERITANCE.


AT THE THE ANGELS DANCED AND PRAISED THAT MY SOUL HAD RETURNED HOME. AFTER THE FEAST I WAS CALLED BACK TO THE THROWN.


"RETURN AND TESTIFY TO THE GOODNESS, MERCY, LOVE, AND GREATNESS THAT IS FOR ALL WHO CHOOSE LIFE. YOU STILL HAVE A PURPOSE AND DESTINY TO LIVE OUT. DO NOT BE FAINT OF HEART, TIRE OF DOING WHAT IS RIGHTEOUS, OR BECOME PRIDEFUL. REMEMBER THAT I AM WITH YOU AND HAVE GIVEN YOU LIFE SO THAT YOU CAN BE COMPLETE AND AFFECT THE LIVES OF TO OTHERS. DO NOT BE SWAYED BY THE ATTACKS OF THE ENEMY BUT TAKE SOLACE IN YOUR ARMOR AND THE HOST OF ANGELS I AM GIVING YOU CHARGE OF AND TAKE UP YOUR SWORD AND STAND AND FIGHT. BE KIND, PATIENT, MERCIFUL, LOVING, UNDERSTANDING, SLOW TO SPEAK, AND ALWAYS LISTENING FOR MY VOICE AND WATCHNG FOR MY MIRACLES.


I HAVE GIVEN YOU VISION THAT YOU MAY LEAD, DISCERNMENT THAT YOU MAY NOT BE DECEIVED, KNOWLEDGE THAT YOU MAY SPEAK MY WORD AND TO THE THINGS THAT PLAGUE MY PEOPLE. HEAL THOSE WHO NEED TO BE HEALED AND PROPHECY TO THOSE WHO I SAY PROPHECY TO. TAKE YOUR STAND AGAINST THE FIERY ARROWS AND ATTACKS THAT MOST WOULD RUN FROM BECAUSE YOUR HEART IS NOT JUST FOR THOSE THAT ARE EASILY BROUGHT INTO THE LIGHT BUT THOSE WHO LIKE YOU WERE TORMENTED AT THE THOUGHT THERE WAS NO LIGHT FOR THEM.


HOLD YOURSELF RIGHTEOUS, TRUTHFUL, AND ACCOUNTABLE THAT NO FAULT MAY BE SEEN OR QUESTIONS RAISED. NO THAT YOU ARE COVERED BY THE BLOOD AT ALL TIMES. CONTINUOUSLY REPENT AND SEEK MY FACE THAT YOU MAY KNOW MY THOUGHTS, WAYS, AND DIRECTION. LOOK NOT AT ANYTHING AROUND YOU BUT ONLY AT WHAT I SHOW YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT I HAVE TOLD YOU.

I LOVE YOU AND CHERISH YOU DEEPLY GO IN PEACE TO BE AN AMBASSADOR TO THOSE WHO NEVER THOUGHT THEY COULD BE LOVED."


WHEN I AWOKE I HAD NO MORE PAIN, NO MORE LONGING FROM HURT, NO MORE CONFUSION. ALL THAT WAS THERE WAS YOUR LOVE, PEACE, AND TRUTH.


AND SO I GOT UP FROM WHAT THE ENEMY HAD MEANT TO BE MY GRAVE A NEW CREATION TO DO THE PURPOSE THAT YOU GAVE ME AND FULFILL THE DESTINY YOU PUT IN ME.

Monday, February 2, 2009