Tuesday, February 10, 2009

NEW

I HAD A DREAM THAT I WAS HAPPY... EVERYTHING WRONG THAT HAD HAPPENED RECENTLY NEVER HAPPENED....


I STILL HAD MY BEST FRIEND, I STILL HAD FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE SOMEONE WHO CARED ABOUT ME.



I WASN'T THE BEST BY POPULAR DEMAND BUT MY WORK SPOKE FOR ITSELF.


BOTH OF YOU WERE STILL GONE BUT AT LEAST I HAD SOMEWHERE THAT I COULD GO AND SIT AND TALK TO BOTH OF YOU.... AND NOT JUST TO THE NOTHINGNESS.


ALL OF MY SCARS WERE GONE, MY BODY FAT GONE, AND MY INNER AND OUTER BEAUTY MATCHED.


I WAS OKAY BEING SICK CUZ I HAD NO EXPECTATION OR HOPE OF BEING WELL AND WHOLE... NOT JUST THIS SHATTERED HOPE.



IN MY DREAMS I WALKED THROUGH A CROWD AND PEOPLE COULD HEAR ME AND SEE ME. THEY COULD REACH OUT AND MEET MY TOUCH.... I THINK THAT WAS THE HARDEST REALITY TO WAKE UP TO.... CUZ NONE OF IT WAS TRUE.



THEN LAST NIGHT AS I SLEPT I SAW MYSELF CURLED IN A BALL ASLEEP. I WAS TOSSING AND TURNING. I SAW SOMEONE LOOKING THROUGH THE WINDOW AND SHOUTING AND LAUGHING AS HE LOOKED AT ME SLEEP SO UNCOMFORTABLY. THEN I WATCHED AS HE PASSED THROUGH THE WINDOW AS A DARK GHOST AND WENT TO TOUCH MY HEAD AND HEART.


AT THAT MOMENT A WHITE BEING THAT I COULD ONLY DESCRIBE AS AN ANGEL WHO APPEARED AS A BLURR BESIDE MY BED AND SHIELDED ME FROM THE DARK FIGURE.

"YOU HAVE NO PLACE HERE, HE HAS HEARD HER CRYS EVEN IN HER SLEEP AND YOU CAN TORMENT HER NO LONGER," SAID THE ANGEL.


JUST AS THE LAST SYLLABLE LEFT HIS LIPS A HOST OF ANGELS SURROUNDED THE DARK FIGURE COVERING EVERY EMPTY SPACE IN MY ROOM AND OUTSIDE THE WALLS. QUICKLY THE DARK FIGURE FLED SEEING THAT HE WAS DEFEATED.


"PEACE HE HAS SENT US TO PROTECT YOU AND TO TEND TO YOU WHILE YOU MEND AND HEAL. YOUR CRY'S WERE NOT UNNOTICED... YOUR DREAM WAS NOT MERELY A DREAM BUT A GLIMPSE OF THE TRUTH YOU ARE ALONE NO LONGER FOR HE IS WITH YOU AS FAMILY, FRIEND, AND SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT YOU MORE THAN THE GRAINS OF SAND IN ALL THE EARTH. YOUR WORK DOESN'T SPEAK OF YOURSELF BUT OF THE EXCELLENCE HE HAS CREATED IN YOU. THO MANY PEOPLE HAVE LEFT YOU HE GIVES YOU THIS PROMISE TO NEVER LEAVE YOU AND TO SIT WITH YOU ALWAYS, STAND WITH YOU ALWAYS, AND GO WITH YOU ALWAYS. HE HAS MADE YOU BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE HE MADE YOU IN HIS IMAGE BOTH INWARDLY AND OUTWARDLY AND TODAY YOUR SCARS WILL BE REMOVED, OLD WOUNDS HEALED, AND YOUR IMAGE NO LONGER DISTORTED. HE HAS HEALED NOT JUST WHAT ALES YOUR BODY BUT WHAT HAS ALED YOUR MIND, HEART, AND SOUL THAT YOU MAY BE WHOLE AND EXPECTANT ONLY OF CONTINUING TO REST IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, MUTED, INVISIBLE, OR TRANSPARENT BUT A GREAT AND STRONG TOWER OF LIGHT AND REFUGE."


AT THAT MOMENT I SAW MY BODY START TO CALM. THE LIGHTED FIGURE WHO SPOKE TO ME TOUCHED ME AND PEALED A SCALING FROM MY EYES, A PLUG FROM MY EARS, AND BROKE THE SEAL OVER MY MOUTH. THEN HE TOUCHED MY MIND AND A GREAT SPARK LEPT FROM HIS HAND AND BROUGHT LIFE AND RESTORATION TO THE DEAD, DAMAGED, AND WEAK PARTS OF MY MIND.



THE HOST OF ANGELS IN MY ROOM BEGAN TO REJOICE AND PRAISE. THEY BEGAN TO WORSHIP. THE ANGELS OUTSIDE MY ROOM STANDING GUARD BEGAN TO DANCE AND WORSHIP.


THEN I FELT SOMETHING ELSE ENTER THE ROOM THAT MADE ME REJOICE AND PRAISE WITH THE HOST OF ANGELS. HIS SPIRIT HAD COME INTO THE ROOM AND BEGAN TO COVER MY WHOLE BODY. AS I BREATHED IN AND OUT IT BEGAN TO FILL ME INSIDE. THEN A BLAZING MAN PARTED THE HOST AND AS HE DID THEY FELL TO THEIR FACES .


THE BLAZING FIGURE MADE HIS WAY TO MY BED WHERE I NOW CALMLY LAID AND SPOKE.


"BE TOTALLY HEALED."


AT THAT MOMENT MY BODY BECAME HOT LIKE IT WAS BEING BURNED IN A FIRE. BUT I SAW NO BURN MARKS ON ME, INSTEAD I SAW SMALL PIECES OF DARKNESS, AND BONDAGES BREAKING OFF ME AND THEN BEING CONSUMED BY THE FIRE. I SAW IMPURITIES LEAVING ME LIKE A FEVER BEING SWEATED OUT. I SAW MYSELF SCREAM AND CRINGE, CUZ THOUGH IT WAS HELPING ME IT STILL HURT MY BODY.


THEN THE BLAZING FIGURE POURED WATER INTO MY MOUTH. AND I COULD FEEL MY BODY READY TO PURGE ITSELF OF THE IMPURITIES IN ME AS THE WATER HEALED MY ORGANS AND RAN THROUGH MY VEINS BRINGING LIFE BACK TO ME. THEN IT ALL CAME UP EVERY HURT THAT HAD PLAGUED MY BODY, ALL THE SICKNESS, ALL THE HURT THAT HAD FESTERED IN MY BONES AND IT TOO WAS CONSUMED BY THE FIRE... BUT THE WATER REMAINED.


THEN THE BLAZING FIGURE CALLED FOR ME TO BE COVERED IN THE BLOOD SO THAT I COULD BE PRESENTED TO HIM.


"GET UP AND PRESENT YOURSELF A NEW CREATION, WITH A NEW MIND, CLEANSED BODY, AND A READY HEART."


AS I GOT UP I FOUND MYSELF AT A GREAT THRONE IN HIS PRESENCE.


"I SEE NO WRONG, NO EVIL, NO BLEMISH ON THIS GIRL. I SEE A WILLING HEART AND THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB MAKING HER RIGHTEOUS. COME THAT I MAY TOUCH YOUR HEART AND DWELL THERE UNTIL YOUR PURPOSE IS COMPLETE."


AS I MOVED CLOSER TO THE THRONE I FELT SOMETHING TOUCH MY HEART AND BEGIN TO REPAIR THE CRACKS AND BREAKS IN IT, REPLACE THE PARTS THAT WHERE MISSING AND FILL THE VOIDS I FELT LIKE COULDN'T BE FILLED. AND THAT PART THAT HAD FOUGHT AND LONGED TO GET TO THE VERY MOMENT I WAS AT GAINED STRENGTH AND BEAMED TO DRIVE AWAY ANY DARKNESS LEFT.


"YOUR FAITH AND HEART HAVE GIVEN YOU NEW LIFE AND WHOLENESS NOW PUT ON NEW GARMENTS AND REJOICE FOR A FEAST HAS BEEN PREPARED TO WELCOME YOU HOME DAUGHTER."


THEN I WAS DRESSED IN GARMENTS OF PRAISE AND GIVEN ARMOR TO JOIN THE FIGHT. MY HAIR WAS COMBED AND BODY PERFUMED AND GIVEN A CROWN FOR I NOW HAD A ROYAL INHERITANCE.


AT THE THE ANGELS DANCED AND PRAISED THAT MY SOUL HAD RETURNED HOME. AFTER THE FEAST I WAS CALLED BACK TO THE THROWN.


"RETURN AND TESTIFY TO THE GOODNESS, MERCY, LOVE, AND GREATNESS THAT IS FOR ALL WHO CHOOSE LIFE. YOU STILL HAVE A PURPOSE AND DESTINY TO LIVE OUT. DO NOT BE FAINT OF HEART, TIRE OF DOING WHAT IS RIGHTEOUS, OR BECOME PRIDEFUL. REMEMBER THAT I AM WITH YOU AND HAVE GIVEN YOU LIFE SO THAT YOU CAN BE COMPLETE AND AFFECT THE LIVES OF TO OTHERS. DO NOT BE SWAYED BY THE ATTACKS OF THE ENEMY BUT TAKE SOLACE IN YOUR ARMOR AND THE HOST OF ANGELS I AM GIVING YOU CHARGE OF AND TAKE UP YOUR SWORD AND STAND AND FIGHT. BE KIND, PATIENT, MERCIFUL, LOVING, UNDERSTANDING, SLOW TO SPEAK, AND ALWAYS LISTENING FOR MY VOICE AND WATCHNG FOR MY MIRACLES.


I HAVE GIVEN YOU VISION THAT YOU MAY LEAD, DISCERNMENT THAT YOU MAY NOT BE DECEIVED, KNOWLEDGE THAT YOU MAY SPEAK MY WORD AND TO THE THINGS THAT PLAGUE MY PEOPLE. HEAL THOSE WHO NEED TO BE HEALED AND PROPHECY TO THOSE WHO I SAY PROPHECY TO. TAKE YOUR STAND AGAINST THE FIERY ARROWS AND ATTACKS THAT MOST WOULD RUN FROM BECAUSE YOUR HEART IS NOT JUST FOR THOSE THAT ARE EASILY BROUGHT INTO THE LIGHT BUT THOSE WHO LIKE YOU WERE TORMENTED AT THE THOUGHT THERE WAS NO LIGHT FOR THEM.


HOLD YOURSELF RIGHTEOUS, TRUTHFUL, AND ACCOUNTABLE THAT NO FAULT MAY BE SEEN OR QUESTIONS RAISED. NO THAT YOU ARE COVERED BY THE BLOOD AT ALL TIMES. CONTINUOUSLY REPENT AND SEEK MY FACE THAT YOU MAY KNOW MY THOUGHTS, WAYS, AND DIRECTION. LOOK NOT AT ANYTHING AROUND YOU BUT ONLY AT WHAT I SHOW YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT I HAVE TOLD YOU.

I LOVE YOU AND CHERISH YOU DEEPLY GO IN PEACE TO BE AN AMBASSADOR TO THOSE WHO NEVER THOUGHT THEY COULD BE LOVED."


WHEN I AWOKE I HAD NO MORE PAIN, NO MORE LONGING FROM HURT, NO MORE CONFUSION. ALL THAT WAS THERE WAS YOUR LOVE, PEACE, AND TRUTH.


AND SO I GOT UP FROM WHAT THE ENEMY HAD MEANT TO BE MY GRAVE A NEW CREATION TO DO THE PURPOSE THAT YOU GAVE ME AND FULFILL THE DESTINY YOU PUT IN ME.

4 comments:

Amber ♥. said...

that was deep.

Milly said...

I like this post, it gets deep

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

wow some dream and i cant see u scares or body fat jones

Anjl Marie said...

THANK YOU THANK YOU