Letters From the Sol: Seen

Dear,

I never wanted to be seen until I as for the first time... But the girl in the reflection isn't me she's someone else....

I never wanted go back to being invisible till you stopped seeing me... But why does this reflection still look back at me?

I should be fading into the background but I'm still front and center... I never believed I was special but I let you convince me....

Now its all lies even when it's a the truth... The only truth is I'm only special to me... And to everyone else I'm just some person

I don't need to ask if you can hear me cuz I've simply stopped crying out... Don't need Superman cuz I'm no Louis Lane... No need to come in bo one needs to be saved

I'm just content to sit here and who knows... Maybe thats the best of being seen.
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Random Thought 47

Look if you can't man up and say that you're not into me can you please trade your dick in for a vagina? Thanks
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SHOE CRUSH: CREATIVE REACTION

CREATIVE REACTION: DICOCO PURPLE

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$150

RANDOM THOUGHT 46

I KNOW cassie IS MAD AS HELLL THAT SHE GOT THE LEAD IN THE "CRAWL" VIDEO AND ALL THAT EMOTION CHRIS WAS GIVING WAWS ABOUT RIHANNA AND NOT HER.

HAHAHHAA

SOL FOOD: 11:25:09

AS THE LADY GAGA SONG SAYS "JUST DANCE"

RANDOM THOUGHT 45

OK SO I'M WATCHING "CRYING OUT FOR ME" BY mario AND IM SORRY WHY THE FUCK IS DUDE ABOUT TO CRASH HIS CAR SO THAT HE CAN GET THE GURL??? IF HE IS THAT CRAZY IM SORRRY BO YOU NEED TO LET HER GO AND JUST COME BE WITH ME mario... MY HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR YOU TOO BUT I DONT HAVE CRAZIES LIKE THAT

RANDOM THOUGHT 44

WHAT HAPPENED TO MR. TALL DARK AND HANDSOME??? UGGHHHH CAN I GET SOME HEIGHT PLEASE!!!!

SOL FOOD 11:24:09

WHEN WE MAKE THE DESCION TO FLY ITS NEVER EASY BUT WE CANNOT LET THE CHALLENGE OR NEH SAYERS KEEP US FROM TAKING OFF

BEFORE THE HYPE: BC b4 AD A4E

THERE ARE JUST CERTAIN PEOPLE I WISH I WAS STILL JUST AS CLOSE WITH AS I WAS BEFORE....

I KNOW cb I DON'T ALWAYS SAY IT BUT IT SUCKS THAT WE HAVE GROWN AS APART AS WE HAVE OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS.... CUZ WE ALWAYS SAID IT WAS britt and cara before any dilema always and forever....

NO MATTER WHAT YOU'RE STILL MY OTHER HALF AND I STILL LOVE YOU. AND BEFORE THE HYPE YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS THERE AND LOVED ME FOR ME, STOOD BY ME, AND FOUGHT WITH ME.

CO-FOUNDER AND ORIGINAL MEMBER OF THE NOT SO INNOCENT GIRLS.... MY OTHER HALF I LOVE YOU AND IT WILL STILL AND ALWAYS BE...

BRITTANY AND CARA BEFORE ANY DILEMA ALWAYS AND FOREVER

I HEART: MARIO

ALRIGHT SOOOO I'VE BEEN QUOTING THE LYRICS TO MY FAVORITE SONG BY mario "BREAK UP" FOREVER!!!! IT'S BEEN MY VID OF THE WEEK FOREVER BECAUSE I CAN NEVER TRUELY GET ENOUGH OF THE SONG....

SOOO ITS ABOUT DAMN TIME THAT I DID AN iHEART ON HIM...

HE HAS REALLY GREAT BALLADS AND SLOW SONGS AND I LOVE HOW HE HAS EVOLVED AND GROWN UP SINCE HE STEPPED ON TO THE SCENE. MORE OVER I LOVE THE TAT ON HIS BACK!!!

FOLLOW HIM ON TWITTER: http://twitter.com/mariosoultruth

FAVORITE LYRICS:

"You might be from the hoodBut to me girl you're a model,Everything that I-I-I ever seen in a model,If you're leaving baby, don't leave me till tomorrowTonight we gon' get a little tipsy, with a bottle.You gonna get me up'I'm take 'em downI'm gonna change my waysWe gon' work it outGirl I wouldn't be the same if you was with somebody elseGirl it wouldn't be the same if I was with somebody else" -FROM "BREAK UP" (SEAN GARETT'S VERSE)

"I don't wanna confuse things (no)But I just can't keep lying to myselfWhen you're holding me (when you're holding me)I can feel your pain oh baby let me be your dreamI'm the answer come see me (see me)And u don't have to cry no more (u don't have to cry)"- FROM " CRYING OUT FOR ME"

"Wow, we could play the music loud whenever nobody's aroundCause if the sound, it starts to wake up the neighbors We gonna have to turn it down, down,down, downI'm about to have a real eruptionThere's gonna be no interruptionsBaby come push my buttonsIll show you all my functionsPress play and let me startFast forward to your favorite partAfter we done hit rewind we'll go back to the top"- FROM "MUSIC FOR LOVE"

"Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame Don't even know what you're worth " - FROM "LET ME LOVE YOU"

"Dont get me wrongI aint been alot But I been enough to knowWere the spot isN girl i promise i can get you there in minutesWe can stay there as long as you want untill your finished"- FROM "DIRECTIONS"

ADDCITED: NUVO

YOU CAN CALL ME AN ALCHY IF YOU WANT BUT I REALLY AM IN LOVE WITH nuvo! ITS A FLAVORED VODKA BASICALLY IN A BEAUTIFUL BOTTLE AND ITS PINK! I'VE SEEN IT IN THE "BLAME IT VIDEO" AND IN MY FAVORITE VIDEO.. "BREAK UP" BUT I'VE HAD IT A FEW TIMES AND ADORE IT.





ONLY GET THE SMALL ONES CUZ THATS ALL I NEED BUT IT STILL IS REALLY GOOD!

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: WORTH

DEAR,

"I CAN HEAR YOUR HEART, CRYING OUT..." BUT I JUST DON'T THINK THAT ITS FOR ME. SEE YOURE SOOO BEYOND YOURSELF THAT I DON'T THINK YOU RECOGNIZE YOURSELF... SO RATIONAL YET A COMPLETE PSYCHOTIC BREAK COME TO LIFE.


I'M GLAD IT ENED UP BEING NOTHING... CUZ YOURE SOMETHINGS WOULD ONLY TURN INTO BAD THINGS FOR ME. YOU'RE INCAPABLE OF GIVING WHAT SOMEONE NEEDS AND ONLY CAPAPBALE OF PSEUDO-ORGANIC AFFECTION. SO SAD TO WATCH SOMETHING SO GREAT BE SO TARNISHED AND GO UNPOLISHED.



I HOPE THAT YOU CAN REALIZE YOUR WORTH BEFORE YOU'RE TRUELY WORTHLESS. AND YOU CAN KNOW WHAT ITY MEANS TO BE A REAL FRIEND AND FIND A REAL MATE.


ALWAYS

A. Style Green With Envy

So this is what I wore the other night to Thirsty Thursdays...inspired by my inner rocker chick

Green plunge neck mini dress with bejeweled bra. And black leggings bronze snake print peep toe pumps and a mohawk complimented the look.
*letAli $erA nero*
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VH1'S TOUGH LOVE SEASON 2

SOOO I WANT TO GO ON THIS SHOW... CUZ LORD KNOWS I PROBABLY NEED IT LOL JK





BUT SERIOUSLY I LOVE vh1's tough love ITS IN ITS SECOND SEASON RIGHT NOW AND THE GIRLS ARE JUST AS GOOD IF NOT BETTER THANT THE LAST SEASON... ESPECIALLY WITH THE RETURN OF TAYLOR!





FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T WATCH THE SHOW THE BASICS IS A REAL MATCH MAKER TEACHING GIRLS HOW TO FIND AND ACCEPT A REAL MATCH DESPITE THEIR VARIOUS PROBLEMS THAT NORMALY MAKE REALTIONSHIPS BLOW UP IN THEIR FACES.





EVERY WEEK THERE IS A CONCEPT AND A CHALLENGE WHERE THERE IS A PERSON WHO DOES THE BEST (AND GETS TO HAVE A ONE:ON:ONE WITH A POSSIBLE MATCH) AND SOME ONE WHO DOES THE WORST (WHO ENDS UP IN THE HOT SEAT).. THE ULTIMATE GOAL TO MATCH THE GIRLS UP WITH PEOPLE THAT THEY WOULD HAVE HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS WITH. AND ONCE THEY DO THEY CAN LEAVE THE BOOT CAMP.



I LOVE IT!!! ITS CUTE AND FUCKIN HILLARIOUS.

I HEART: ZACH M WRIGHT

OK SOOOO IM SORRY YOU CAN CALL DUDE AS ARROGANT AS YOU WANT BUT zach FROM i want to work for diddy 2. WAS THE SMARTEST AND SEXIEST OF ALL THE CONTESTANTS...

I LOVED HIS STEELO SOOOOOOO MUCH BECAUSE HE WAS NEVER WRONG AND YOU WERE ALWAYS BENEATH HIM. BUT IVE BEEN CHECKIN UP ON HIM AND AS A FILM MAKER HE ACTUALLY IS PRETTY COOL. CHECK HIM OUT ON HIS WEBSITE

http://zmwright.com/

AND I LIKE HIM SOOO MUCH HE IS THE NEW REIGNING NECK BREAKER!!!

DREAM DEFERED NO MORE

SOOO AFTER MUCH THOUGHT AND EVENMORE THOUGHT I HAVE DECIDED THAT 2010 IS GOING TO BE MY LAST YEAR AS A CALI CHIK..... :( YUP SAD I KNOW BUT ITS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE.


IVE BEEN TRYING TO PINPOINT FOR AWHILE WHAT HAS BEEN MISSING IN MY LIFE AND WHAT HAS BEEN HINDERING ME FROM REALLY GROWING AND BEING HAPPY AND I THINK I FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT.


WHEN I FIRST GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL I WAS SOO EXCITED AT THE THOUGHT OF GOING TO A 4 YEAR SCHOOL THAT HAD MEANING TO MY FAMILY AND WHERE I COULD GROW AND LEARN MORE ABOUT MYSELF AND A NEW ENVIRONMENT. ITS BEEN ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I JUST LET SLIP TO THE BACKGROUND AND BECAME CONTENT TO JUST TO TAKE WHAT LIFE GAVE ME.


CONTRARY TO THE POPULAR BELIEF ABOUT ANJL I'M NOT DINGY.... IN FACT IM BEYOND KINDA SORTA INTELLIGENT, WHICH I HAVE BEEN HIDING BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WASN'T WHAT I SHOULD SHOW. BUT WHEN YOU DENY PART OF YOURSELF YOU REJECT YOURSELF AS A WHOLE.... THE SIDES OF ME THAT LOVE TO TRAVEL, LOVE CULTURE, AND THAT LONGED TO GET AWAY SO THAT I COULD REFLECT ON ME IN NEW WAYS IS JUST AS IMPORTANT AS THE PARTS THAT LOVE TO PROMOTE, PARTY, AND TAKE PICTURES.


I DON'T REGRET ANYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED IN THESE LAST YEARS BECAUSE THEY WERE NESSCARY SO THAT I COULD GROW. I FOUND WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE AND I FINALLY TOOK SOMETIME TO DEVOTE TO SOMETHING THAT WASN'T TOTALLY ACADEMIC CENTERED. I HAVE BECOME A WOMAN WHO ISN'T AFRAID TO BE A WOMAN... I'M NOT THE TIMID GIRL SCARED TO LET HERSELF BE SCENE AS SOMEONE OTHER THAN INTELLIGENT..... I HAVE regal, HAVE THE CONCEPT BEHIND shawtz, AND STILL THAT THIRST FOR THE INDUSTRY THAT EVERYONE SAID I COULDN'T BREAK INTO.


STILL RIGHT NOW I KNOW THAT CALI HAS TAKEN ME THIS FAR.... BUT I NEED TO GO LEARN AT A HIGHER LEVEL, AND IN AN ENVIRONMENT OUTSIDE OF MY COMFORT ZONE....


THE NEXT 2 MONTH WILL BE ALL ABOUT PLANNING.... AND THEN THE NEXT FEW EXECUTING... THEN I'LL WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS AND BE PREPPING FOR THE MOVE.... EVEN IF I DON'T GO STRAIGHT TO howard... I WILL BE MOVING TO dc JAN 2011....

I'LL KEEP YOU GUYS POSTED

ADDICTED: DUCATI SUPER BIKE 848

SOOO IVE BEEN CRAVING FOR A BIKE FOR THE LONGEST AND IVE BEE CHECKIN OUT DIFFERENT ONES... RIGHT NOW MY FAVORITE ARE THE ducati SUPER BIKE 848 ITS MIDDLE WEIGHT 369lbs 6 SPEEDS OF SEXY

MY ONLY COMPLAINT IS THE COLOR WHICH I WOULD HAVE PAINTED BLACK WITH MIDNIGHT BLACK ACCENTS AND CHROME. BUT WHO CARES

SOL FOOD 11:23:09

SECOND CHANCES ARE NEEDED SO THAT PEOPLE CAN REGAIN FAITH IN THEMSELVES

SOL FOOD 11:20:09

WHEN SOMEBODY ASKS IF YOU ARE TIRED JUST ADMIT IT AND SAY THAT YOU'RE TIRED!!!

RIHANNA NAMED GLAMOUR MAGAZINE'S WOMAN OF THE YEAR

SO rihanna HAS BEEN HONORED AS glamour magazine'S WOMAN OF THE YEAR...


I MEAN IDK WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THIS... FROM AN ACOMPLISHMENT STAND POINT SHE CHANGED THE WHOLE TIED OF HIP HOP NAD MAINSTREAM INDUSTRY STYLE. AND I UNDERSTAND THE WHOLE OVERCOMING THE DV THING WITH chris brown.... IDK THO....


I'M STILL WAITING TO SEE rihanna RETURN FROM ALL THIS... SHE HAS GONE TO SOME PRETTY DARK EXTREMES AND OSTRACIZED HERSELF A LOT (WHICH IS UNDERSTANDABLE) BUT IM STILL CONCERENED FOR HER AND REALLY WANT TO SEE THE TRUE BOUNCE BACK FROM ALL OF THIS.


ON A SIDE NOTE HER DRESS WAS BEAUTIFUL FOR HER... MADE HER LOOK VERY CURVY JUST NOT MY STYLE... BUT AGAIN VERY BEUATIFUL FOR HER.