Sol View: Diary of a Mad Black Man

Soooo I'm with snoopy (yeah I know more on that later) watching "Diary of a Mad Black Man"... And this movie is interesting.


The opening scene about whether a black man is weak because he doesn't stay with a drama filled black man was true.

The second about how men want a thug not a nice guy is true of girl who are immature. Also I'm mad at the woman who yelled at her child for asking for money for the ice cream truck and then told her daughte not to get a man like her brother and dad. That is totally inappropriate, no parent should disrespect the other parent to their child and diminsih their personality position and roll.

Angry Black Woman Syndrome is not a disorder till it's in the DSMiv it's not a disorder. Yes yhere are black women who are unjustly angry but just because a black woman shows her anger to a black or any other man should automatically earn her a title of Angry Black Woman.

To any black white or purple woman that has a man hitting them they need to get he'll and leave. Never allow a man to physically emotionally or verballly abuse you not just because it's wrong but because your setting yourself up to have a twisted view of men. It makes you afraid to take a good man for anything more than a friend or brouhrr figure. And ummmmm for the lame nehandrathals that are hitting women ummm you need to resolve your self confidence and manhood issues. Hitting a woman doesn't make you more o a man or prove your power... It shows how little respect you have for women and that the only way you can be in control or feel like you are a man is to be barbaric and destroy something that should be cherished.

neways.... Apparently I'm not eating and that's making snoopy mad... Soooooo I'm going to eat and finish more of this review afterwards but trust more is comming!!!!!





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Random Thought

Soo you don't have money to pay your cell phone bill but you have money to buy a wii??? Hmmm yeah we don't need to be together


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Letters From the Sol: Tears (Because I'm healing)

Dear,

It's amazing how eventually you get over your withdrawl and cravings and they don't affect you.

I've been detoxing from you for two weeks and it just doesn't hurt or get to me anymore. It's like I know it's there but it has no effect on me. The only sadness that I feel is because it had to come to this... I don't even want to hear the why and the excuses cuz they just don't matter.

Face it you were wrong and instead of fixing it you hung yourself....

And I'm not crying over you I'm crying because I'm healing

Always,

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Reflectionz: If It Isnt

I don't feel right anymore... I can truly say that it's not there anymore

The warm feeling is gone, so is the great sense of safety. Honestly right now all that's there is a question of did I do all this in vain?

Did I give myself to someone that really didn't want it. You say all the things that prove you aren't just saying things to me and look at what you do.....

But there are still questions that you avoid answering... The ones I need answered the most.


If this isn't real.... Then what is it? Do I even want to find out.


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RANDOM THOUGHT 44

WHAT HAPPENED TO MR. TALL DARK AND HANDSOME??? UGGHHHH CAN I GET SOME HEIGHT PLEASE!!!!

SOL FOOD 10:21:09

NIGGAS ARE LIKE BUSSES MISS ONE NEXT 15 ONE COMMIN

ADDICTED: MARIO "BREAK UP" FT GUCCIE MAN & SEAN GARRET

SO I HAD TO MAKE IT MY VIDEO OF THE WEEK CUZ snoopy DEDICATED THIS TO ME WHEN WE ENDED IT

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: UNTITLED (GOODBYE)

DEAR,

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I ACTUALLY SAID GOODBYE.... NOT GOODNITE... OR SEE YOU TOMORROW OR THE NEXT DAY, BUT GOODBYE.


IT FELT LIKE THE LAST BREATH OUT OF ME WENT WITH THAT WORD. I FELT THAT HOLE GROW IN MY CHEST AND EVERY FAUCETT IN MY EYES TURN ON.... HALF OF MY SCREAMED "NO DON'T DO IT!!!!!!" AND STILL PART SAID THIS IS FOR THE BEST.


I'VE NEVER SEEN YOU SO COLD, SO VOID, SO DISTANT... BEYOND MY REACH WOULD HAVE BEEN PUTTING IT NICELY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I HAD JUST HURT SOMEONE THAT I CARED ABOUT.


BUT I CAN'T ASK YOU TO PUT ME ABOVE PART OF YOU. I CANT ASK YOU TO LET MAKING ME HAPPY MAKE YOU MISERABLE... ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU STILL DON'T KNOW IF YOU REALLY WANT ME AT THE END OF THE DAY.



IM NOT CRYING TODAY LIKE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE.... BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DONT FEEL IT...



CRAZY HOW IM JUST SITTING HERE TAKING IT ALL IN.... BUT IN AN OD WAY IM OK... STILL I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE GONE I WANT YOU JUST HERE I WITH ME... BUT RIGHT NOW YOU CAN'T BE JUST HERE....



SO FOR NOW GOODBYE



AND HOPEFULLY THAT WILL TURN INTO A SEE YOU SOON, THEN MAYBE AN IM ON MY WAY TO YOU, AND MAYBE EVEN A KISS HELLO....

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: CHILL

DEAR,


SO WE JUST WERE SUPPOSSED TO CHILL? I DIN'T REALIZE THAT CHILL FOOLED EVERYONE ELSE INTO THINKING COUPLE.... HELL YOU FOOLED ME AND I BET FOOLED YOURSELF....



LOOK AT YOU FOR WHAT? SO I CAN CRY... SORRY I DON'T WANT TO.... IM TOO OLD TO BELIVE IN FAIRY TALES AND TRUST ME THERE IS NO SILVER LINING TO THIS.



CHILL WITH YOU IDK WHY I SHOULD... SO THAT IT CAN HURT MORE KNOWING HOW STUPID AS FUCK I AM.... OH IM SORRY I WAS PROBABLY JUST A GREAT FUCK... ON A LEVEL LIKE THE DRAKE SONG MAYBE BUT THEN AGAIN THAT DOESN'T MAKE A RELAY....


I CAN'T BELIEVE I FELL FOR THE OKIE DOKE LOOKED AT THE MONET AND SAW CLEAR PHOTOGRAPH....


REALLY THO SOO IT WAS ALL JUS CHILL??? YOU WANTING ME TO JUST TRUST YOU AND BE AROUND YOU.... YOU WANNA MAKE ME FEEL GOOD? FUCK FUCK FUCK MCFUCKLAND


ITS SAD THAT PART OF ME IS OK WITH ALL OF THIS... AFTER ALL YOUR JUST ANOTHER NAME TO ADD TO THE LIST..... JUST ANOTHER TEAR TO ADD TO MY WELL AND FURTHER PROOF THAT ALL I HAVE IS ME MYSELF AND MY HUSTLE...


IM LAUGHING RIGHT NOW TO CONCEAL IT ALL BUT DANG.... I GUESS I NEED TO STUDY WEBSTER'S MORE CUZ APPARTENTLY I DON'T KNOW MY DEFINITIONS...


BUT YOU WANTED TO STILL "CHILL" RIGHT??? SO I'M ASUMING THAT MEANS NO TOUCHING, KISSING, FUCKING, ANYTHING... RIGHT. I MEAN WE CAN DO THE ACTUAL DEFINITION OF CHILL...... SURE WE CAN SEE HOW THAT GOES I MEAN HOW CAN I BE MAD???


ITS NOT YOUR FAULT I DIDN'T KNOW THE DEFINITION... RATHER YOUR DEFINITION OF CHILL.

WHAT IM LOOKING FOR

OKAY IF YOU READ/ READ THE POST BELOW THIS ONE YOU CAN SEE THAT OBVIOUSLY MY SINCE OF WHAT I THINK IS GREAT IN A GUY IS OFF... WAY... OFF mute THOROUGHLY AND COMPLETELY DISTROYED MY PERSPECTIVE ON SAFETY AND SAFE PLACES (AS FAR AS GUYS GO)....


BUT HE MADE ME THINK.... WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT???


I MEAN SERISOU;Y WHAT IS IT HAT I REALLY WANT IN A MAN???


I WAS LISTEING TO THIS MESSAGE ON TAPE FROM CHURCH WHERE A WOMAN WAS TOLD TO RIGHT DOWN WHAT IT WAS THAT SHE WAS LOOKING FOR.... SOOOO??? SURE WHY NOT HERE GOES...

• TALL (I LOVE SOMEONE WHO IS TALLER THAN ME WITH HEELS ON)
• LIGHT TO MEDIUM SKINNED... MAYBE A TOUCH DARKER THAN ME (SORRY IM JUST NOT BIG ON MILK AND DARK CHOCOLATE MEN)
• A GREAT KISSER (PERSONALLY I KNOW AS AS I KISS SOMEONE IF IT WILL WORK)
• A FEW TATTOOS (NOTHING RIDICULOUS BUT GOD KNOWS I LOVE THEM)
• INTELLIGENT (I HATE STUPID PEOPLE)
• NATURALLY FUNNY (I NEED SOMEONE WHO CAN MAKE ME LAUGH)
• ATTENTIVE
• SUPPORTING (WITH MY LIFE STYLE I NEED SOMEONE I KNOW WILL BE THERE)
• TRUST WORTHY
• AN ACTIVE CHRISTIAN (NOT A SUPER RELIGOUS OR CHURCH PERSON BUT SOMEONE WHO PUTS INTO PRACTICE THE WORD OF GOD)
• LIKES BASKETBALL
• LIKES TO TRAVEL
• CAN COOK (SO WE CAN TRADE OF COOKING DUTIES)
• GOAL ORIENTED
• A PROFESSIONAL (MEANING THAT HE IS WORKING AND EXCELLING AT HIS JOB)
• WELL KEPT HAIR
• HAS GREAT BUT NOT FLAMBOYANT STYLE
• NOT AN ALCHOOLIC
• DOESN'T SMOKE WEED (OR ANYTHING ELSE FOR THAT MATTER)
• HAS GREAT CHOICE IN MUSIC
• DOESN'T HAVE A BUNCH OF BABY MAMA DRAMA
• RESPECTS, CHERISHES, AND TAKES CARE OF HIS MOM
• CAN SEND ME FLOWERS JUST BECAUSE
• HAS A GREAT BODY (NOT SUPER MUSCLAR BUT SOLID AND WELL TONED)
• CAN SING/ HAS A SOOTHING VOICE (I WANT TO BE RELAXED WHEN YOU TALK)
• HAS JUST ENOUGH ASS-HOLE IN HIM TO NOT BE A PUSH OVER
• CAN JUST UNDERSTAND ME EVEN WHEN IM NOT TALKING
• ISN'T EAGER TO HAVE SEX (SAY WHAT YOU WANT IVE LEARNED BY EXPERIENCE THAT MOST WHO ARE ARE JUST DUDDS)
• HAS HIS OWN PLACE
• LIKES DOGS
• CAN GIVE GOOD MASSAGES
• LIKES TO JUST WATCH MOVIES AT HOME SOME NIGHTS
• AWARE OF WHATS GOING ON IN THE WORLD
• HAS FUN WITH HIS GUY FRIENDS
• IS RESPECTED AND LIKED BY MY FAMILY
• ACTUALLY GETS ALONG WITH MY GIRLS

I'LL ADD MORE AS I THINK OF STUFF BUT YEAH.... IF YOU'RE HOLLIN AT ME AND YOU AREN'T FITTING THE CRITERIA DIP AND IF YOU ARE WELL... I WANNA HEAR FROM YOU

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: ..... HMMM (mute)

DEAR,

....... HMMMM IM HONESTLY SPEACHLESS RIGHT NOW....



SERIOUSLY, ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY, FOR SURE AND CERTAIN.... NO DOUBT IN MY MIND.


THAT CAME SO FAR FROM LEFT FEILD IT REALLY CAME FROM THE RIGHT.


YOU, I MEAN SERIOUSLY , YOU????? FALL FROM YOUR PEDISTOL??? TURN OUT TO BE JUST LIKE THE REST OF THESE djs AND LAMES??? DANG LIFE MUST BE SUPPER CRAZY AND MY SENSE OF THINGS MUST NEED TO BE RECALIBERATED A.S.A.P.


CUZ YOU'RE JUS WOW RIGHT NOW. I MEAN WOW..... I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT I AM THROUGHLY AND COMPLETLY QUESTIONING EVERY SINGLE MALE IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW OFF THIS...


I MEAN IF YOU CAN BE LIKE THIS THEN..... DANG THATS JUST.....


JUST.....


..... HMMMM



ALWAYS,

ANJL

Omg Africa

So I'm in the car with this nigga an real talk he is hella wow right now idk why I have him around or why I'm around him but at least he isn't Bear.

Letters from the Sol

Dear,

Time always repeats itself.... You see there is nothing under the sun..... The bad ones r still bad and the good ones always rott.


I've gotten to the point where I've stopped carrying faith and caring.


Why should I trust you? Why??? Everytime I've heard that phrase it means that your hurt will be worse than the one who didn't ask.... Everytime I've heard I'm different it's just been a new face. I'm not going to change always means just not right now....


Call me doubt but at what point r u supposeed to believe the thing that has always ended as a lie is the truth

Random thought

I do have a height requirement (5'11") but I do have a fineness requirement too. So of you're ugly please don't talk to me

Random Thought

So I have been watching Sex & the City and thinking about a phone conversation and space conversation I had earlier today.


So after not hearing from Bear (who yes I have been dating for a month now exclusivley) over V-day due to his phone issues. I heard from him today via non other than myspace. Which made me very happy...... Until it made me miss him. A lot of today was actually spent with me waiting to hear from him (lame I know) and wondering how we were going to make this work.


I feel like he is my Mr. Big.


Then later on I heard from Talk.... Who I think didn't just tell me that he still had feelings for me and wanted to be with me but that he loved me....

Yea that's wat I did and said.... My jaw dropped and I gasped "WHAT!!!"

It didn't make any sense at all we were done I had walked away he knew the worst aspect of me and wants to be with me... Possibly loves me

It makes me wonder was he really all talk and have I made a mistake in giving myself to Bear


Or is Talk just my Russian?

Letters From the Sol: I Miss U

Dear,

I'm laying here in my bed..... Which should be our bed alone and sad. Ure not here and with u so far away from me it's making me weak, making me doubt

Has someone else stolen ure heart away from me??? Or have u just forgotten me????


I would give anything for your touch ure kiss ure voice right now to ease my mind......

I'm just hoping that my faithfulness won't produce a chip in my heart.


"It's been too long and I'm lost without you what am I gonna do I've been needing you wanting you, wonderin if you're the same and who's been with you...."


I miss u

Always,

Anjl Marie

REFLECTIONZ: rookie

OMG SO RIGHT NOW IM LISTENING TO "BOTTLE POPPIN" (YUNG JOC AND GORRILLA ZOE) AND I JUST HAD THE WORLDS GREATEST FLASH BACK...


SOOOOOO A WHILE BACK I WAS WORKING IN AN AFTER PARTY AT A CLCUB AND MET rookie. HE WAS REALLY LEARY TO TELL ME WHAT HE DID BUT JUDGING FROM THE PEOPLE HE WAS CHILLEN WITH IN THE CLUB THAT NIGHT I KNEW HE WAS AN ATHLETE OR IN THE ENTOURAGE.... (TURNED OUT TO BE AN ATHLETE BY THE WAY)



ANYWAYS WHEN I WAS ON MY WAY TO MY CAR HE CAUGHT UP WITH ME AND GOT MY NUMBER. WE TEXTED AND TALKED FOR A FEW DAYS.... AND DECIDED THAT WE WOULD HANG OUT ONE DAY.


THAT DAY JUST HAPPENED TO BE THE ONE OF MY HOLY GRAIL DAYS... OPENING DAY OF THE LOS ANGELES LAKER SEASON.


NORMALLY I WOULD HAVE RESCHEDULED AND JUST CAUGHT UP WITH HIM LATER BUT HE OFFERED TO WATCH THE GAME WITH ME AT HIS HOUSE. TURNED OUT TO BE A PRETTY GOOD IDEA.... CONSIDERING HIS PLASMA 50 SOMETHING INCH FLAT SCREEN THAT WITH HD THAT WE WATCHED IT ON.


NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS IN HEAVEN....


WHY DID THE SONG REMIND ME OF HIM??? WELL WHEN I WATCH LAKER BASKETBALL I HATE PEOPLE WHO TALK OR WHO INTERUPT MY CONCENTRATION ESPECIALLY ON OPENING DAY.... WELL THIS IDIOT DECIDED TO DO THE FIRST FEW LINES OF GORRILLA ZOE'S PART RIGHT IN MY EAR AS I WAS WATCHING THE GAME...


THE LOOK THAT I SHOT HIM WAS DEATH TIMES ABOUT 70K AND HE JUST SCOTTED OVER AND LET ME GO BACK TO THE GAME...


(OH AND FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE WONDERING YES THERE WAS SOME MAKING OUT AND FONDLING THAT WENT ON DURRING HALF TIME AND AFTER THE GAME)


I LOST TOUCH WITH rookie (AT ONE POINT HE HAD A GIRL BUT SOME OF MY INSIDE SOURCES TOLD ME THAT HE ACTUALLY STARTED MESSING AROUND WITH THIS CHIK I USED TO KICK IT WITH) BUT HE WAS FAIRLY CUTE AND I HAVE TO ADMIT ONE SEXY ASS REFECTION TO END MY DAY AT WORK ON.

MISADVENTURES: WITH BOYS (CONNECTIONS)

SOOOOO



YEA..... I GOT BUSTED BIGGGG TIME





A COUPLE WEEKS AGO I WAS TALKING TO THIS GUYS WE'LL CALL HIM pluto. ORIGINALLY IT WAS SUPPOSSED TO BE JUST ABOUT A PHOTO SHOOT AND IT TURNED INTO US TALKING ABOUT EACH OTHER..... WHICH TURNED INTO ME FINDING OUT THAT HE HAD ALREADY HEARD ABOUT ME FROM ANOTHER GUY I TALKED TO (LETS JUST CALL HIM) scoundrel.





LONG STORY SHORT (I KNOW I KNOW YOU WANT THE FULL VERSION BUT SUFFICE TO SAY THAT WE HAD TO PLAY 21 QUESTIONS AND THE CONVERSATION LASTED TILL ABOUT 9AM WHICH HAD STARTED AROUND 4/5 AM) WE DECIDED TO BE FRIENDS AND SHOOT AND THINGS WERE COOL.





THEN A COUPLE OF DAYS LATER I GOT A MESSAGE FROM HIS FRIEND, (WHO I'M GONNA CALL) ironic ON THE SPACER. DIDN'T CATCH ME OFF GUARD AT FIRST BECAUSE I HAD TALKED TO HIM ON THE PHONE BEFORE ABOUT SHOOTING.



WE ACTUALLY HAD A PRETTY GOOD CONVERSATION TOO. HE MADE ME LAUGH AND WAS A SWEETIE. WE TALKED LATER THAT NIGHT ON THE PHONE AND I COULD INSTANTLY TELL THAT HE WAS FEELIN ME AND THAT HE WAS INTERESTED I TALKING TO ME OUTSIDE OF DOING BUISNESS (NOT SOMEHTING IM REALLY CRAZY ABOUT BUT...... HEY WHAT CAN I SAY I WAS INTRIGUED).



SO THE PAST WEEK OR SO WE HAVE BEEN TALKING A LOT. EITHER ONLINE OR ON THE PHONE... AND HONESTLY HE'S PROBABLY SWEETER AND BETTER THAN ALL THE OTHER KNUCKLEHEADS THAT I HAVE AROUND ME INCLUDING MY FRONT RUNNER (WHO I KNOW I HAVENT TALKED ABOUT) talk. HONESTLY HE ADORES ME AND REALLY DOES MAKE ME SMILE.


SO I KNOW ALL OF YOU ARE PROBABLY GOING WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU???? AFTER ALL OF THE COMPLAINING AND WHAT NOT U DO ABOUT GUYS AND YOU'RE NOT GOING AFTER HIM!!!!


HERE'S THE RUB.....

HE'S YOUNGER THAN I AM... AND GRANTED I USED TO DATE SOMEBODY 5-12 OLDER THAN I WAS 4 YEARS AGO I STILL DON'T QUITE FEEL RIGHT ABOUT IT AT TIMES..... LIKE I SHOULD JUST WAIT.


PLUS I'LL EVEN GO OUT AND ADMIT THAT I ACTUALLY FEEL KINDA LAME ABOUT IT.


BUT I DIGRESSED...


SO LAST NIGHT ironic AND I WERE TALKING ON THE PHONE FOR LIKE 5 HOURS BEING CUTE AND WHAT NOT..... AND I HEARD pluto TALKING ON THE PHONE WITH HIS SISTER (WHO HE EITHER WAS TALKING TO WHEN HE HAD AN INTERST IN ME OR RIGHT AFTER THE FACT.... EITHER WAY I THOUGHT THAT FACT ALONE WAS FUNNY AS HELL) AND THOUGHT THAT I SHOULD ASK pluto WHEN HE AND WHEN scoudrel WANTED TO DO THEIR PHOTOSHOOTS CUZ MY OPPENINGS FOR JAN AND FEB WERE STARTING TO FILL UP RAPIDLY.


I GOT AN ANSWER AND ironic AND I WENT RIGHT BACK TO OUR CONVERSATION. AND THINGS WERE FINE. WE FELL ASLEEP ON THE PHONE TOGETHER AND YEAH


SOOOOO THEN I GET INTO WORK AND THESE SET OF MESSAGES GO ON BETWEEN pluto AND I


p: watz poppin*** nd since when do u talk to my *&%*&%*&%??? (SORRY FOLKS GOTTA PROTECT IDENTITIES)

A: JUS CHILLEN AT WORK WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT????????

p: ohhh nd chea *&%*&%*&%*&%*&% he on my top nd u was on tha fone wt him asking him to ask me stuff about tha photo shoot nd haerd tha word babi???

A: ???? IDK

p: i was just checcing i didnt want to have to get on ur head about my *&% my grown women nd all my *&% r not even close to my age 3 years or more just so u knoe


SO YOU SEE HOW I FEILDED IT.... AND I FEEL BAD ABOUT NOT TALKIN ABOUT IT BUT WHAT WAS I SUPPOSSED TO SAY???? IDK

WHAT WOULD YOU GUYS DO?

TELL pluto

AND MORE IMPORTANTLY SHOULD I JUST WALK AWAY FROM ironic BECAUSE OF pluto's COMMENTS OR WALK AWAY CUZ I JUST NEED TO LEAVE HIM ALONE, OR DOES ANY OF THIS SHIT MATTER???

MISADVENTURES: IN DATING (oops)

SOO WEN I WAS AT MY MUSIC VIDEO SHOOT I RECIEVED A TEXT FROM opps A GUY I DATED ABOUT 18 MONTHS OR SO AGO. TELLING ME HOW PISSED OFF HE WAS AT THE FACT I HAD FLAKED AGAIN ON MEETING UP WITH HIM FRIDAY NIGHT. (RUNWAY OR BOY RUNWAY OR BOY UMMMMMM RUNWAY) I TOLD HIM THAT WE COULD MEET DOWNTOWN FOR DINNER WEN I WAS FINISHED WITH MY SHOOT.

SO OF COURSE I PICKED MY FAVORITE PLACE ASTI TO HEAD FOR DINNER. LUCKILY I BEAT HIM AND SNAGGED A GREAT TABLE OUTSIDE SO I COULD LOOK ACROSS THE STREET AND PEOPLE WATCHED WHILE I WAITED ( THIS DOUBLED AS A GREAT DISTRACTION FOR THE GAY AND BITCHASS PARTS OF DINNER).

**REALLY QUICKLY I JUST WANT TO TAKE THIS TO ONCE AGAIN COMMEND AND BRAGG ABOUT THE EXCELLENT SERVICE OF THIS PLACE!!!! NOT ONLY DID THE WHOLE STAFF MAKE SURE I WAS COMFORTABLE WHILE I WAITED THEY GAVE ME GREAT SERVICE THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT AND EVEN CAME IN TO RESCUE ME A COUPLE TIMES FROM SOME OF THE MANY LAME MOMENTS OF DINNER*** I LOVE THE WHOLE STAFF AT ASTI!!!****


SO JUST WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO ORDER AND SAY FUCK HIM, (opps WAS ALREADY LIKE 30 MINUTES LATE AND I WAS COLD AND HUNGRY) HE WALKED UP LOOKING NOT HOT BUT DECENT.... LIKE SOME GUY YOU COULD TAKE HOME AND MOM WOULD BE RELEAVED HE WASN'T A THUG OR SOMEHTING (PERSONALLY MY MOM WOULDA PROBABLY JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND SAID UGH OR SOMETHING). OFF TOP DUDE LOOKS AT THE MENU AND HIS EYES ALMOST CAME OUT

o: " SO YOU'RE BALLIN NOW"

A:" NOT EVEN"

AT THIS POINT IT WAS OBVIOUS THAT I WAS GOING TO BE PAYING FOR DINNER TONIGHT. WHICH WAS FINE BECAUSE I REALLY WASN'T THAT HUNGRY AFTER SEEING HIS FACE HONESTLY.

THE OWNER AND ABOUT THREE WAITERS CHECKED ON US THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. IT WAS QUITE FUNNY ACTUALLY... YOU COULD TELL THAT THEY DIDND'T APPROVE OF MY CHOICE IN COMPANY FOR THE EVENING.

opps AND I TALKED ABOUT HIS LITTLE BEDROOM MISHAP FROM BEFORE AND ABOUT THE VARIOUS CHANGES THAT WE BOTH HAD MADE IN OUR RESPECTIVE LIVES. IT AMAZED ME HOW POMPOUS HE WAS.... IT WAS DISGUSTING. HE WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW MUCH GOING ON A HUMANITARIN TRIP WITH THE NAVY CHANGED HIS OUTLOOK ON LIFE HELPING THOSE LESS FORTUNATE THAN HIMSELF BUT THEN HE JUST COMPLAINED ABOUT HOW HE PAID FOR THIS AND THAT AND HOW HE UPGRADED FROM A BENZ TO A BEAMER AND MIGHT GET A CHARGER JUST TO FUCK AROUND IN. IT WAS ALMOST AS IF IN HIS CONVERSATION HE JUST WANTED TO TALK ABOUT HIMSELF AND MAKE ME FEEL STUPID FOR NOT WANTING TO BE WITH HIM BEFORE.

BUT I COULD CARELESS I REALIZED ONCE AGAIN THAT THIS PERSON REALLY WAS AN opps IN MORE FORMS THAN ONE. SO I WAS RELIEVED TO GET THE CHECK AT THE END OF THE NIGHT (WHICH YES I ENDED UP PAYING FOR... UNBEKNOWEST TO HIM THAT MY FOOD HAD BEEN COMPED HAHAHAHAHA). WHILE I WAS WAITING FOR THE CHECK TO BE BROUGHT BACK I SAW ONE OF MY BOYS ACROSS THE STREET AT DECOS AND CALLED HIM TO SAY HI... HE CHASTISED ME FOR BEING RUDE AND THEN CAME TO GIVE ME A HUG ( THEN IN DECOS LATER ASKED WHY I WAS WITH A LAME LIKE THAT).

opps WANTED A KISS AND I TOLD HIM THAT HE COULD HAVE IT LATER TONIGHT WHEN WE MET UP AFTER OUR RESPECTIVE CLUB ADVENTURES... A GUARENTEE THAT HE WOULD BE ABLE TO SEE ME. HE SAID FINE AND OFFERED TO DRIVE ME HOME LATER THAT NIGHT SINCE HE NEEDED TO KNOW WHERE IT WAS ANYWAYS SO HE COULD PICK ME UP FOR THE CHARGER GAME THE NEXT DAY, I WAS COOL WITH THAT.


LATER THAT NIGHT HE GOT DRUNK AND MAD THAT I ANSWERED A CALL FROM secret, WHO I HAD SEEN LEAVING BELO (HE WAS MAKING SURE I GOT HOME SAFE CUZ HE HAD SEEN ME WALKING TO FIND THIS ASSWIPE BY MYSELF) WOULDN'T GO BACK TO HIS PLACE AND SLEEP (SO HE COULD TRY TO SLEEP WITH ME AGAIN) AND DECIDED HE WOULD LEAVE ME STRANDED DOWNTOWN.... THE PEOPLE AT MINUS ONE SAVED ME FROM HIM AND THEN I MET UP WITH MY ROOMATE AND WENT HOME...

NEEDLESS TO SAY I DIDN'T GO TO THE GAME.... AND NEEDLES TO SAY opps JUST MADE HIS 2ND AND 3RD STRIKE AND IS SOOOOOOO OUT LIKE A DESIGNER ON PROJECT RUNWAY.

RANDOM THOUGHT 15

OK SO MY FIRST BLOG FOR TODAY WAS GOING TO BE ABOUT EITHER THE AUTO BAIL OUTS OR HILLARY BEING A SECRETARY OF STATE CANNIDATE..... BUT THEN NO....
SO HERE'S THE DISH...


I DON'T DEMAND A LOT IN THE RELATIONSHIP DEPARTMENT... IM FAIRLY UNDERSTANDING OF A LOT OF SHIT BUT........ THIS NEW PROSPECT HAS OFFICIALLY COME TO THE END OF MY TOLERANCE.
IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE BOLD ENOUGH TO DUBB YOURSELF AS MY BOYFRIEND OR MAIN GUY THEN YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO BE AROUND TO HOLD THE SPOT DOWN. OTHERWISE I CAN AND WILL BECOME DISTRACTED.


IM NOT SAYING THAT IM A PLAYER OR A CHEATER.... IM SAYING THAT IN THE EARLY STAGES OF A RELATIONSHIP EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT I AM EASILY BORED AND SET OFF BY A PERSON I PREVIOUSLY WAS SUPER INTO AND AT THE END OF THE DAY THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST THEM UNLESS THE ARE AROUND AND DOIN THERE JOB ON A REGULAR....