IT AMAZES ME HOW NOW THAT IVE TAKEN THIS FUCK YOU TOO ATTITUDE WITH GUYS HOW EASY IT IS TO GET OVER THEM AND NOT EVEN PROCESS THEM AT ALL.
SO LETS CALL THIS GUY.... dreamer..... HE HAD BEEN TRYING TO TALK TO ME FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS... AND REAL TALK DUDE HAD A GREAT MOUTH PIECE ON HIM. BUT I KEPT THE GUARD UP, TOLD HIM THAT IT SOUNDS GOOD BUT I'LL SEE WHAT HOW TRUE TO FORM HE REALLY IS (WHICH OF COURSE HE INSISTED THAT HE WAS)
IF YOU REMEMBER new prospect I HAVE A REALLY BIG PET PIEVE WITH PEOPLE WHO CANCEL FOR NO REASON.... ITS JUST RUDE AND IRRITATING. dreamer WAS SUPPOSSED TO COME OVER THURSDAY.... THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN.... I STAYED IN FRIDAY AND HE MYSTERIOUSLY ENDED UP DRUNK BY 10 PM AND 3 HOURS AFTER THAT CALL WAS PISSED WHEN I SAID THAT HE COULD JUST STAY AT HOME AND NOT BOTHER TO COME BY (WHICH I EVEN RENIGGED AFTER HE SAID HE WAS "JUS GETTING OFF THE FREEWAY AND STILL NEVER SHOWED). SATURDAY HE WAS IN TEMECULA AND WAS SUPPOSSED TO BE BACK @ 930 CALLED AT 3AM TO TELL ME HIS SISTER WAS IN AN ACCIDENT (WHICH WASN'T A LIE) AND HE WAS AT THE HOSPITAL... BUT WE COULD GO TO THE ZOO SUNDAY (WHICH NEVER HAPPENED).
IT JUST WAS HILLARIOUS. SO OF COURSE SUNDAY I NEEDED A BREAK FROM MY ROOM AND WENT TO MY MOMS.... AND OF COURSE I SIGN ON TO MY AIM AND HE WAS ONLINE... BIG SURPRISE RIGHT. THIS IS AFTER HEARING THAT HE'S NOT WHERE EVER HE WAS ANYMORE AND IF HE CAME BACK HE'LL BE TOLD TO CALL ME.
SERIOUSLY I JUST KEPT MY RESPONSES SHORT SIMPLE AND QUAINT. dreamer IS THE WORST TYPE OF LIEING SON OF A SHIT FACED OTTER. HE'S THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO PRIDES HIMSELF ON BEING SUCH A GREAT MAN BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY ISN'T EVEN WORTH THE BREATH IT TAKES TO SAY HELLO ON THE PHONE.
IT REALLY DID JUST MAKE ME LAUGH.... CUZ THERE WAS NO HURT OR DISAPPOINTMENT.... IT WAS JUST FUNNY THAT HE REALLY TRIED TO COME AT ME LIKE THAT AND WASTE MY TIME.
I GUESS THE CLEANSE I WENT ON A FEW WEEKS AGO REALLY DID HELP.
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Monday, December 8, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
THE SILVER LINING OF REJECTION
SOOOO YESTERDAY I GOT TO SPEND SOMETIME WITH new prospect, WHICH WAS COOL. BUT SEXUALLY FRUSTRATING.... ORIGINALLY HE WAS SUPPOSSED TO COME BACK BY BY BUT OF COURSE BECAUSE HE IS THE ULTIMATE FLUKE IT DIDN'T HAPPEN.
SO ME BEING LAME OLE ME I DECIDED TO TEXT HIM BEING CUTE.
A: I WANT YOU
NP: WHY?
A: CUZ I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE SILLY
NP: WHY? WAT MAKES YOU WANT ME?
A: CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF I LIKE THE IDEA OF BEING WITH YOU.
NP: WELL I DON'T THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA.
A: UMM WOW
A: OK... I GUESS. IM SORRY I WASTED YOUR TIME
CONFUSED AND BEWILDERED I LAID IN MY BED THEN CURLED INTO A BALL. WHAT HAD JUST HAPPENED? MORE IMPORTANTLY WHAT THE HECK LED TO ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I CERTAINLY DIDN'T KNOW. A PART OF ME WAS ACTUALLY SAD AT THIS POINT BECAUSE I THE KID WAS ACTUALLY STARTING TO GROW ON ME....
AS I BEGAN TO BEAT MYSELF UP OVER THIS WHOLE CONFUSING INCIDENT I BEGAN TO GET CALMER AND CALMER AND MADDER AND MADDER.
WHAT WAS SOO WRONG WITH ME?
WHY DOES STUFF JUST NOT WORK AT ALL?
MAYBE I NEED TO TAKE A BREAK.... YEAH ITS TIME TO TAKE A BREAK.... IS TIME TO MAKE A CLEAN BREAK.
SO A SINGLE TEXT MESSAGE WAS SENT TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
A: I CAN'T TALK TOYOU ANYMORE
ABOUT 13 PEOPLE IN MY PHONE GOT THAT MESSAGE. ANOTHER TWO GOT MORE PERSONALIZED VERSIONS:
A: I CAN'T PRETEND ANYMORE... THIS THING WITH US ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE -medlor
A: YOU AND I WILL NEVER BE BACK TOGETHER.... I KNOW YOU DON'T LOVE ME.- idiot
SOME PEOPLE DIDN'T EVEN GET THE BENEFIT OF A TEXT MESSAGE THEY JUST GOT DELETED FROM MY PHONE COMPLETELY.... INCLUDING lust, idiot, AND YES, him.
him WAS PARTICULARILY DIFFECULT TO DELETE BUT I DID IT, BOTH NUMBERS IN FACT. YES I SENT A MEMO OUT ABOUT IT BUT THE FACT OF THE MATTER WAS IT WAS TIME FOR him TO COME BACK ON HIS OWN WITHOUT ME. AS LONG AS HIS NUMBER WAS THERE IT WAS A CRUTCH, IT WAS TEMPTAION. IF I TRULY WAS DONE AND OVER him LIKE I SAID THAT I WAS THEN I NEEDED TO JUST BE DONE AND OVER WITH HIM. IF I MEAN SOMETHING TO him HE WILL CONTACT ME.
AS FOR THE OTHER NUMBERS... lust NEEDED TO GO BECUASE WE JUST ARE GOING NO WHERE BUT GETTING ATTACHED AND IRRITABLE OFF NOTHING. idiot JUST NEEDED TO END HONESTLY
THE ONLY OTHER THING THAT THIS WHOLE REJECTION THAT new prospect DID WAS GIVE ME THE GUTS TO TELL secret HOW I FELT AND THAT I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM.... IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE ANYSENSE FOR ME TO TALK TO HIM FOR NO REASON AND FOR NO PURPOSE.... MOREOVER IT DOESN'T MAKE ANYSENSE FOR ME TO HAVE A BUNCH OF GUYS THAT I DON'T LIKE AROUND ME AND NOT TO TELL THE ONE THAT I ACTUALLY LIKE THAT I DO.
SO BY THE END OF ALL OF THESE MESSAGES A LOT OF PEOPLE HADN'T REPLIED TO ME.... SOME WONDERED WHY WE WEREN'T GOING TO BE TALKING ANYMORE (I JUST NEED SPACE AND MORE IMPORTANTLY SOME PEOPLE ARE THERE FOR THE WRONG REASONS) medlor FOUGHT IT BUT IN THE END WHO KNOWS... WITH secret I HAVE NO IDEA... BUT ONE THING I DO KNOW
RIGHT NOW A MAN IS THE LAST THING THAT I NEEDED TO WORRY ABOUT NOW
SO ME BEING LAME OLE ME I DECIDED TO TEXT HIM BEING CUTE.
A: I WANT YOU
NP: WHY?
A: CUZ I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE SILLY
NP: WHY? WAT MAKES YOU WANT ME?
A: CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF I LIKE THE IDEA OF BEING WITH YOU.
NP: WELL I DON'T THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA.
A: UMM WOW
A: OK... I GUESS. IM SORRY I WASTED YOUR TIME
CONFUSED AND BEWILDERED I LAID IN MY BED THEN CURLED INTO A BALL. WHAT HAD JUST HAPPENED? MORE IMPORTANTLY WHAT THE HECK LED TO ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I CERTAINLY DIDN'T KNOW. A PART OF ME WAS ACTUALLY SAD AT THIS POINT BECAUSE I THE KID WAS ACTUALLY STARTING TO GROW ON ME....
AS I BEGAN TO BEAT MYSELF UP OVER THIS WHOLE CONFUSING INCIDENT I BEGAN TO GET CALMER AND CALMER AND MADDER AND MADDER.
WHAT WAS SOO WRONG WITH ME?
WHY DOES STUFF JUST NOT WORK AT ALL?
MAYBE I NEED TO TAKE A BREAK.... YEAH ITS TIME TO TAKE A BREAK.... IS TIME TO MAKE A CLEAN BREAK.
SO A SINGLE TEXT MESSAGE WAS SENT TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
A: I CAN'T TALK TOYOU ANYMORE
ABOUT 13 PEOPLE IN MY PHONE GOT THAT MESSAGE. ANOTHER TWO GOT MORE PERSONALIZED VERSIONS:
A: I CAN'T PRETEND ANYMORE... THIS THING WITH US ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE -medlor
A: YOU AND I WILL NEVER BE BACK TOGETHER.... I KNOW YOU DON'T LOVE ME.- idiot
SOME PEOPLE DIDN'T EVEN GET THE BENEFIT OF A TEXT MESSAGE THEY JUST GOT DELETED FROM MY PHONE COMPLETELY.... INCLUDING lust, idiot, AND YES, him.
him WAS PARTICULARILY DIFFECULT TO DELETE BUT I DID IT, BOTH NUMBERS IN FACT. YES I SENT A MEMO OUT ABOUT IT BUT THE FACT OF THE MATTER WAS IT WAS TIME FOR him TO COME BACK ON HIS OWN WITHOUT ME. AS LONG AS HIS NUMBER WAS THERE IT WAS A CRUTCH, IT WAS TEMPTAION. IF I TRULY WAS DONE AND OVER him LIKE I SAID THAT I WAS THEN I NEEDED TO JUST BE DONE AND OVER WITH HIM. IF I MEAN SOMETHING TO him HE WILL CONTACT ME.
AS FOR THE OTHER NUMBERS... lust NEEDED TO GO BECUASE WE JUST ARE GOING NO WHERE BUT GETTING ATTACHED AND IRRITABLE OFF NOTHING. idiot JUST NEEDED TO END HONESTLY
THE ONLY OTHER THING THAT THIS WHOLE REJECTION THAT new prospect DID WAS GIVE ME THE GUTS TO TELL secret HOW I FELT AND THAT I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM.... IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE ANYSENSE FOR ME TO TALK TO HIM FOR NO REASON AND FOR NO PURPOSE.... MOREOVER IT DOESN'T MAKE ANYSENSE FOR ME TO HAVE A BUNCH OF GUYS THAT I DON'T LIKE AROUND ME AND NOT TO TELL THE ONE THAT I ACTUALLY LIKE THAT I DO.
SO BY THE END OF ALL OF THESE MESSAGES A LOT OF PEOPLE HADN'T REPLIED TO ME.... SOME WONDERED WHY WE WEREN'T GOING TO BE TALKING ANYMORE (I JUST NEED SPACE AND MORE IMPORTANTLY SOME PEOPLE ARE THERE FOR THE WRONG REASONS) medlor FOUGHT IT BUT IN THE END WHO KNOWS... WITH secret I HAVE NO IDEA... BUT ONE THING I DO KNOW
RIGHT NOW A MAN IS THE LAST THING THAT I NEEDED TO WORRY ABOUT NOW
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHT 15
OK SO MY FIRST BLOG FOR TODAY WAS GOING TO BE ABOUT EITHER THE AUTO BAIL OUTS OR HILLARY BEING A SECRETARY OF STATE CANNIDATE..... BUT THEN NO....
SO HERE'S THE DISH...
I DON'T DEMAND A LOT IN THE RELATIONSHIP DEPARTMENT... IM FAIRLY UNDERSTANDING OF A LOT OF SHIT BUT........ THIS NEW PROSPECT HAS OFFICIALLY COME TO THE END OF MY TOLERANCE.
IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE BOLD ENOUGH TO DUBB YOURSELF AS MY BOYFRIEND OR MAIN GUY THEN YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO BE AROUND TO HOLD THE SPOT DOWN. OTHERWISE I CAN AND WILL BECOME DISTRACTED.
IM NOT SAYING THAT IM A PLAYER OR A CHEATER.... IM SAYING THAT IN THE EARLY STAGES OF A RELATIONSHIP EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT I AM EASILY BORED AND SET OFF BY A PERSON I PREVIOUSLY WAS SUPER INTO AND AT THE END OF THE DAY THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST THEM UNLESS THE ARE AROUND AND DOIN THERE JOB ON A REGULAR....
SO HERE'S THE DISH...
I DON'T DEMAND A LOT IN THE RELATIONSHIP DEPARTMENT... IM FAIRLY UNDERSTANDING OF A LOT OF SHIT BUT........ THIS NEW PROSPECT HAS OFFICIALLY COME TO THE END OF MY TOLERANCE.
IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE BOLD ENOUGH TO DUBB YOURSELF AS MY BOYFRIEND OR MAIN GUY THEN YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO BE AROUND TO HOLD THE SPOT DOWN. OTHERWISE I CAN AND WILL BECOME DISTRACTED.
IM NOT SAYING THAT IM A PLAYER OR A CHEATER.... IM SAYING THAT IN THE EARLY STAGES OF A RELATIONSHIP EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT I AM EASILY BORED AND SET OFF BY A PERSON I PREVIOUSLY WAS SUPER INTO AND AT THE END OF THE DAY THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST THEM UNLESS THE ARE AROUND AND DOIN THERE JOB ON A REGULAR....
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