LETTERS FROM THE SOL: FRUSTRATION

DEAR

I'M WRITING YOU HOPING THAT YOU'LL GIVE ME SOME SORTA STRENGTH.... I'M FEELIN SO MANY THINGS GO WRONG RIGHT NOW AND I'M NOT SEEING WHEN AND WHERE THEY ARE GOING TO BE GETTING BETTER.

LAST NIGHT I HAD TO MAKE A CALL AT MIDNIGHT CUZ THE PAIN HURT SO MUCH..... AND IT RETURNED AS SOON AS I HUNG UP THE PHONE. SO I JUST CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP AGAIN.

TRYNNA GET BETTER IS SOO HARD WHEN YOU'RE DOING IT FOR YOURSELF.... NOBODY UNDERSTANDS AND THEY JUST THINK THAT YOU'RE BEING LAME.

I BROKE AND WROTE him AND EXPLAINED MYSELF... NOT LIKE I HAD TO BUT I DID BECAUSE I NEEDED TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT NOT TALKING TO HIM. THE FUNNY THING IS THAT SEEING THAT HE STILL DOESN'T EVEN CARE MADE ME EVEN MORE SURE....

IM WONDERING ABOUT q AND I DON'T LIKE THAT.... wow IS GETTING ON MY NERVES BECAUSE HE'S SO MUCH LIKE idiot, secret IS JUST A LOST CAUSE....

MY carrie IS IN PAIN, MY mighty mouse IS TOO BUSY FOR ME, AND MY BOYS ARE JUST WRAPPED UP IN THEIR GIRLS... I FEEL LIKE MY OTHER GIRLS WON'T UNDERSTAND.

I JUST NEED SOMETHING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER A SIGN THAT THINGS ARE GOING TO BE OKAY.