DEAR,
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I ACTUALLY SAID GOODBYE.... NOT GOODNITE... OR SEE YOU TOMORROW OR THE NEXT DAY, BUT GOODBYE.
IT FELT LIKE THE LAST BREATH OUT OF ME WENT WITH THAT WORD. I FELT THAT HOLE GROW IN MY CHEST AND EVERY FAUCETT IN MY EYES TURN ON.... HALF OF MY SCREAMED "NO DON'T DO IT!!!!!!" AND STILL PART SAID THIS IS FOR THE BEST.
I'VE NEVER SEEN YOU SO COLD, SO VOID, SO DISTANT... BEYOND MY REACH WOULD HAVE BEEN PUTTING IT NICELY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I HAD JUST HURT SOMEONE THAT I CARED ABOUT.
BUT I CAN'T ASK YOU TO PUT ME ABOVE PART OF YOU. I CANT ASK YOU TO LET MAKING ME HAPPY MAKE YOU MISERABLE... ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU STILL DON'T KNOW IF YOU REALLY WANT ME AT THE END OF THE DAY.
IM NOT CRYING TODAY LIKE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE.... BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DONT FEEL IT...
CRAZY HOW IM JUST SITTING HERE TAKING IT ALL IN.... BUT IN AN OD WAY IM OK... STILL I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE GONE I WANT YOU JUST HERE I WITH ME... BUT RIGHT NOW YOU CAN'T BE JUST HERE....
SO FOR NOW GOODBYE
AND HOPEFULLY THAT WILL TURN INTO A SEE YOU SOON, THEN MAYBE AN IM ON MY WAY TO YOU, AND MAYBE EVEN A KISS HELLO....
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