SOO I JUST LOST MY BEST FRIEND OVER A BUNCH OF DRAMA THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE MAJORITY OF THE WORLD IS TALKING ABOUT.... BUT IT ALL CENTERS AROUND surprise.
IM SUPER FUCKING SAD RIGHT NOW BUT IT JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU... IN LIFE FRIENDS ARE NON-EXISTENT. YOU ONLY HAVE YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN TRUST OR DEPEND ON. AND YOU KNOW WHAT RIGHT NOW.... IM SOOOOOOOO FUCKIN GOOD SOLO
ALL OF THIS IS FUCKED UP BEYOND BELIEF
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Saturday, November 8, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHT 14
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHO ARE YOUR TRUE FRIENDS????
ITS FUNNY CUZ EVERY DAY I THINK I MIGHT KNOW SOMETHING REMINDS ME THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY ALL YOU CAN DO IS LEAN ON YOUR OWN SHOULDER AND DRY YOUR OWN TEARS.
ITS FUNNY HOW EASY IT IS TO BE REPLACED. OR TOSSED ASIDE LIKE A RAGG DOLL.
I NEED A BREAK CUZ I REALLY AM GOING TO GO CRY NOW.
ITS FUNNY CUZ EVERY DAY I THINK I MIGHT KNOW SOMETHING REMINDS ME THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY ALL YOU CAN DO IS LEAN ON YOUR OWN SHOULDER AND DRY YOUR OWN TEARS.
ITS FUNNY HOW EASY IT IS TO BE REPLACED. OR TOSSED ASIDE LIKE A RAGG DOLL.
I NEED A BREAK CUZ I REALLY AM GOING TO GO CRY NOW.
LETTERS FROM THE SOL: I WANT TO THANK YOU
DEAR
EVEN WHILE THIS WOUND IS HEALING I CAN FEEL OTHERS HEALING... THE THREE BIGGEST SCARS ACROSS MY HEART ARE MENDING FASTER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE... ALMOST AS IF CLOSURE HAS FINALLY COME.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR NOT RUNNING AFTER ME SO I COULD FINALLY TURN THE PORCH LIGHT OFF. KNOWING THAT YOU DIDN'T I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO WAIT FOR YOU ANY LONGER, I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO FLY FREE. JUST KNOWING THAT IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT OR ANYTHING I DID OR WAS MADE MY TEARS STOP FALLING AND THE LAUGHTER RETURN TO MY VOICE.
EVEN THOUGH LOVE IS STILL THERE I FEEL IT AND THE OTHERS FADING TO NOTHING MORE THAN A WHISPER AT A CONCERT.... THREE TIMES THE LOVE LOST.... AND NOW THE PAIN IS FINALLY DEAF TO ME.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR BREAKING ME SO I COULD HAVE THE STRENGTH TO STAND FOR MYSELF. I AM STRONGER THAN BEFORE YOU AND DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK I NEVER NEEDED YOUR FAITH BUT FAITH IN MYSELF, FAITH THAT REAL LOVE WAS AND STILL IS WAITING FOR ME.
EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT AT FULL STRENGTH EVERY DAY THAT PASSES THE WEAKNESS BECOMES A MEMORY LOST FROM AGE... I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT AFTER FALLING WITH YOU, FOR YOU, AND FROM YOU, I AM READY FOR LOVE.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR LETTING HER GO SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LET YOU GO. NOW THAT YOU HAVE I DON'T FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE FOR LOSING YOU. JUST HEARING THAT IN THE END YOUR LOVE FOR ME WAS GREATER MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY I'LL FIND SOMEONE WHO NEVER WILL LEAVE TO COMEBACK.
EVEN WHILE THIS WOUND IS HEALING I CAN FEEL OTHERS HEALING... THE THREE BIGGEST SCARS ACROSS MY HEART ARE MENDING FASTER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE... ALMOST AS IF CLOSURE HAS FINALLY COME.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR NOT RUNNING AFTER ME SO I COULD FINALLY TURN THE PORCH LIGHT OFF. KNOWING THAT YOU DIDN'T I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO WAIT FOR YOU ANY LONGER, I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO FLY FREE. JUST KNOWING THAT IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT OR ANYTHING I DID OR WAS MADE MY TEARS STOP FALLING AND THE LAUGHTER RETURN TO MY VOICE.
EVEN THOUGH LOVE IS STILL THERE I FEEL IT AND THE OTHERS FADING TO NOTHING MORE THAN A WHISPER AT A CONCERT.... THREE TIMES THE LOVE LOST.... AND NOW THE PAIN IS FINALLY DEAF TO ME.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR BREAKING ME SO I COULD HAVE THE STRENGTH TO STAND FOR MYSELF. I AM STRONGER THAN BEFORE YOU AND DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK I NEVER NEEDED YOUR FAITH BUT FAITH IN MYSELF, FAITH THAT REAL LOVE WAS AND STILL IS WAITING FOR ME.
EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT AT FULL STRENGTH EVERY DAY THAT PASSES THE WEAKNESS BECOMES A MEMORY LOST FROM AGE... I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT AFTER FALLING WITH YOU, FOR YOU, AND FROM YOU, I AM READY FOR LOVE.
Friday, October 17, 2008
k..... AGAIN
SOOOOO... AFTER THINKING THAT I WAS DONE WITH k AND THAT THERE WAS NOTHING AT ALL LEFT BUT TO DO THE WHOLE FIRST FACE TO FACE AFTER BUH-BYE.... HE SURPRISED ME
NOW.... I HAVE TO FIRST SAY THAT WHILE I HAVE GREAT CAUSE TO BELIEVE THAT ALL OF THE INFORMATION THAT I RECEIVED IS TRUE... THAT I CAN ONLY CONCRETELY PROVE A PORTION OF IT. ***SOO FOR KEEP THIS IN MIND WHILE YOU'RE READING THIS AND YOU MAKE THE CALL FOR YOUR SELF***
SOOO HERE'S THE DEAL.... APPARENTLY k AND bubblez WERE TALKING THE SAME TIME THAT WE WERE TOGETHER/TALKING/WATEVER... YES I KNOW GO AHEAD AND PICK YOU MOUTH UP OFF THE FLOOR CUZ THATS HOW I FELT TOO.
BUT THATS NOT THE BEST PART... APPARENTLY HE WAS ALSO... STILL MESSING AROUND WITH mini bug!!!!!
HOW DID I FIND ALL OF THIS LOVELY DOVELY INFORMATION OUT... WELL PART OF IT WAS FROM bubblez HERSELF AND THE OTHER PART WAS FROM ONE OF MY CIs. BUT WHERE I GOT THE INFORMATION FROM ISN'T AS IMPORTANT AS WHETHER OR NOT ITS TRUE...
WELL LETS LOOK AT THE FACTS....
1.) CONFIRMED INFORMATION: I ALREADY FOUND OUT FROM SOMEBODY ELSE THAT k HAD CHEATED ON HIS PREVIOUS GIRLFRIEND FROM 2 SOURCES. BOTH CITING THAT mini bug WAS THE OTHER CHICK.
2.) MYSPACE (YOU CAN SAY ITS DUMB BUT MYSPACE IS THE ULTIMATE WAY TO CATCH PEOPLE ON SOME STUPIDITY): THE WEEK THAT k HAD STARTED TO ACT WEIRD BOTH HIS AND mini bug's SPACE PAGES WERE LOOKING HELLA SUSPECT AND WE'RE ON SOME DRAMA THAT WAS OBVIOUSLY RELATIONSHIP BASED.
3.) THE SIMILARITIES IN INFORMATION ARE MORE THAN STRIKING: bubblez KNEW THINGS ABOUT k THAT YOU JUST DON'T PULL OUTTA A DUCK'S GIZZARD... SHE KNEW DETAILS ABOUT HIS FAMILY ANDA BOUT HIS X THAT ONLY HE COULD TELL HER. (AND IF YOU'RE WONDERING IF WE HAD TALKED ABOUT HIM PREVIOUS TO THIS CONVERSATION THE ANSWER IS NO... THAT'S WHY IT TOOK SO LONG FOR US TO CATCH ON TO THE FACT HE WAS TALKIN TO BOTH OF US AT THE SAME TIME)
4.) TRACK RECORD: I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE CATALYST CONVERSATION BETWEEN carrie AND i REGARDING THE SUBJECT. IRONICALLY EVERYTHING THAT I WAS FINDING OUT REMINDED ME OF WHAT SHE TOLD ME k HAD PREVIOUSLY BEEN ENGAGED IN WITH mini bug... SO THERE IS A PATTERN OF BEHAVIOR THAT HAS BEEN ESTABLISHED.
SO AS YOU CAN SEE WHEN I WAS LISTENING TO THE LATEST SET OF INFORMATION IT REALLY MADE ME LAUGH BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY MADE ME MAD.... MESSING AROUND WITH SOME SNAIL I CAN DEAL WITH BUT WITH ONE OF MY OWN LOW KEY IS UNACCEPTABLE ( MORE ON THAT IN ANOTHER BLOG)...
HERE WAS THE CONFRONTATION WITH k....
A: I DON'T LIKE DRAMA OR STUPIDITY WHEN IT COMES TO MY FAMILY SO I NEED YOU TO BE STRAIGHT UP... WE'RE YOU TRYING TO DATE bubblez THE SAME TIME THAT YOU WERE ME?
k: TALK TO HER YES... TRYIN TO DATE HER NO... SHE COO AS HELL DON'T GET ME WRONG... I DON'T KNOW WHY WE LOST TOUCH... BUT IT NEVER WENT ANYWHERE IT SHOULD NOT HAVE... SHE LIKED MY POETRY
(AT THIS POINT I WAS PISSED AND ORDERED A DRINK AND HAD THE THOUGHT YOU STILL DIDN'T ANSWER THE QUESTION WAS IT THE SAME TIME YOU WERE TALKING TO ME)
A: MMM... K
k: WHY... IS THERE SOMETHIN WRONG DID I SAY SOMETHIN THAT I SHOULD NOT HAVE
A: IDK I'LL KNOW WHEN WE FINISH TALKING.
k: WHO IS WE ( WASN'T THAT PRECIOUS???)
A: bubblez AND I WE'RE OUT HAVING DESSERT AND YOU CAME UP
k: OK
A: FOR THE RECORD THIS IS FUCKIN WOW
k: WHAT'S FUCKIN WOW
A: ITS JUST FAULTY
k: OK WELL I NEVER SAID ANYTHING WRONG FOWL OR DISRESPECTFUL TOWARDS ANYONE... SO WHEN YOU CARE TO ELABORATE ON THE SITUATION GET AT ME....
A: HONESTLY I'M SERIOUSLY MONKEY-SHARTIN PISSED RIGHT NOW AND NEED TO CHILL BEFORE I TALK TO YOU ABOUT ANYTHING.
k: I GUESS
AFTER THAT I CONTINUED TO TALK TO bubblez... WHO POINTED OUT TWO THINGS THAT IRONICALLY MADE ME THINK. 1) HE DIDN'T LIE BUT DIDN'T TELL THE TRUTH... HE JUST AVOIDED THE MEET OF THE QUESTION. 2) FOR SOMEONE WHO HAS SUCH RESPECT FOR WOMEN AND WAS DONE SO WRONG BY ONE HE KNOWS HOW TO GE T OVER ON PEOPLE PRETTY WELL.
SO AS WE CONTINUED TO TALK I GOT MADE AS HELL AND REALLY JUST WANTED TO HURT HIM BUT REALIZED THAT THAT WASN'T THE BEST THING FOR ME TO DO... BUT IF HE WASN'T DEAD TO ME ALREADY k WAS GOING TO BE DEAD VERY VERY SOON.
IN LIGHT OF EVERYTHING I DECIDED TO CONTACT ANOTHER ONE OF MY CI'S TO TELL THEM WHAT HAPPENED... WE LAUGHED AND TALKED ABOUT HOW GAY IT WAS AND THEN I GOT ANOTHER SURPRISE... A CAUTION RATHER... TO WATCH MY SOURCES BECAUSE THEY COULD BE ON SOME DOUBLE AGENT SHITZLE MONKEY.
ANYWAYS....
LATER THAT NIGHT I FINISHED MY CONVERSATION WITH k.... LIKE THIS
I'M GOING TO LET SHIT GO BECAUSE I'M NOT PREPARED TO CALL YOU A LIAR OF SOME STUFF THAT I CAN'T PROVE.... BUT IT STILL FEELS LIKE I WAS LIED TO AND BETRAYED. WHICH k SEEMED TOO CONTENT TO LEAVE ON THAT NOTE.
AND SERIOUSLY THAT REALLY WAS WAT I NEEDED TO LEAVE IT AT... THE FACT IS THAT AGAIN AS MANY THINGS THAT ADDED TOGETHER THERE IS STILL ROOM FOR ERROR AND MISUNDERSTANDING... SO I RESORTED MYSELF TO AN OLD TACTIC OF MINE WHICH IS TO MERELY WAIT THINGS OUT... EVERYTHING COMES OUT IN THE END... AND RATHER THAN CAUSE I RUCKUS OVER SOMETHING I CAN'T PROVE CONCRETELY I WOULD RATHER PLAY MY POSITION AND KEEP A GOOD DISTANCE AND LET SHIT UN RAVEL...
LOOKS LIKE THERE WILL BE MORE k AFTER ALL....
NOW.... I HAVE TO FIRST SAY THAT WHILE I HAVE GREAT CAUSE TO BELIEVE THAT ALL OF THE INFORMATION THAT I RECEIVED IS TRUE... THAT I CAN ONLY CONCRETELY PROVE A PORTION OF IT. ***SOO FOR KEEP THIS IN MIND WHILE YOU'RE READING THIS AND YOU MAKE THE CALL FOR YOUR SELF***
SOOO HERE'S THE DEAL.... APPARENTLY k AND bubblez WERE TALKING THE SAME TIME THAT WE WERE TOGETHER/TALKING/WATEVER... YES I KNOW GO AHEAD AND PICK YOU MOUTH UP OFF THE FLOOR CUZ THATS HOW I FELT TOO.
BUT THATS NOT THE BEST PART... APPARENTLY HE WAS ALSO... STILL MESSING AROUND WITH mini bug!!!!!
HOW DID I FIND ALL OF THIS LOVELY DOVELY INFORMATION OUT... WELL PART OF IT WAS FROM bubblez HERSELF AND THE OTHER PART WAS FROM ONE OF MY CIs. BUT WHERE I GOT THE INFORMATION FROM ISN'T AS IMPORTANT AS WHETHER OR NOT ITS TRUE...
WELL LETS LOOK AT THE FACTS....
1.) CONFIRMED INFORMATION: I ALREADY FOUND OUT FROM SOMEBODY ELSE THAT k HAD CHEATED ON HIS PREVIOUS GIRLFRIEND FROM 2 SOURCES. BOTH CITING THAT mini bug WAS THE OTHER CHICK.
2.) MYSPACE (YOU CAN SAY ITS DUMB BUT MYSPACE IS THE ULTIMATE WAY TO CATCH PEOPLE ON SOME STUPIDITY): THE WEEK THAT k HAD STARTED TO ACT WEIRD BOTH HIS AND mini bug's SPACE PAGES WERE LOOKING HELLA SUSPECT AND WE'RE ON SOME DRAMA THAT WAS OBVIOUSLY RELATIONSHIP BASED.
3.) THE SIMILARITIES IN INFORMATION ARE MORE THAN STRIKING: bubblez KNEW THINGS ABOUT k THAT YOU JUST DON'T PULL OUTTA A DUCK'S GIZZARD... SHE KNEW DETAILS ABOUT HIS FAMILY ANDA BOUT HIS X THAT ONLY HE COULD TELL HER. (AND IF YOU'RE WONDERING IF WE HAD TALKED ABOUT HIM PREVIOUS TO THIS CONVERSATION THE ANSWER IS NO... THAT'S WHY IT TOOK SO LONG FOR US TO CATCH ON TO THE FACT HE WAS TALKIN TO BOTH OF US AT THE SAME TIME)
4.) TRACK RECORD: I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE CATALYST CONVERSATION BETWEEN carrie AND i REGARDING THE SUBJECT. IRONICALLY EVERYTHING THAT I WAS FINDING OUT REMINDED ME OF WHAT SHE TOLD ME k HAD PREVIOUSLY BEEN ENGAGED IN WITH mini bug... SO THERE IS A PATTERN OF BEHAVIOR THAT HAS BEEN ESTABLISHED.
SO AS YOU CAN SEE WHEN I WAS LISTENING TO THE LATEST SET OF INFORMATION IT REALLY MADE ME LAUGH BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY MADE ME MAD.... MESSING AROUND WITH SOME SNAIL I CAN DEAL WITH BUT WITH ONE OF MY OWN LOW KEY IS UNACCEPTABLE ( MORE ON THAT IN ANOTHER BLOG)...
HERE WAS THE CONFRONTATION WITH k....
A: I DON'T LIKE DRAMA OR STUPIDITY WHEN IT COMES TO MY FAMILY SO I NEED YOU TO BE STRAIGHT UP... WE'RE YOU TRYING TO DATE bubblez THE SAME TIME THAT YOU WERE ME?
k: TALK TO HER YES... TRYIN TO DATE HER NO... SHE COO AS HELL DON'T GET ME WRONG... I DON'T KNOW WHY WE LOST TOUCH... BUT IT NEVER WENT ANYWHERE IT SHOULD NOT HAVE... SHE LIKED MY POETRY
(AT THIS POINT I WAS PISSED AND ORDERED A DRINK AND HAD THE THOUGHT YOU STILL DIDN'T ANSWER THE QUESTION WAS IT THE SAME TIME YOU WERE TALKING TO ME)
A: MMM... K
k: WHY... IS THERE SOMETHIN WRONG DID I SAY SOMETHIN THAT I SHOULD NOT HAVE
A: IDK I'LL KNOW WHEN WE FINISH TALKING.
k: WHO IS WE ( WASN'T THAT PRECIOUS???)
A: bubblez AND I WE'RE OUT HAVING DESSERT AND YOU CAME UP
k: OK
A: FOR THE RECORD THIS IS FUCKIN WOW
k: WHAT'S FUCKIN WOW
A: ITS JUST FAULTY
k: OK WELL I NEVER SAID ANYTHING WRONG FOWL OR DISRESPECTFUL TOWARDS ANYONE... SO WHEN YOU CARE TO ELABORATE ON THE SITUATION GET AT ME....
A: HONESTLY I'M SERIOUSLY MONKEY-SHARTIN PISSED RIGHT NOW AND NEED TO CHILL BEFORE I TALK TO YOU ABOUT ANYTHING.
k: I GUESS
AFTER THAT I CONTINUED TO TALK TO bubblez... WHO POINTED OUT TWO THINGS THAT IRONICALLY MADE ME THINK. 1) HE DIDN'T LIE BUT DIDN'T TELL THE TRUTH... HE JUST AVOIDED THE MEET OF THE QUESTION. 2) FOR SOMEONE WHO HAS SUCH RESPECT FOR WOMEN AND WAS DONE SO WRONG BY ONE HE KNOWS HOW TO GE T OVER ON PEOPLE PRETTY WELL.
SO AS WE CONTINUED TO TALK I GOT MADE AS HELL AND REALLY JUST WANTED TO HURT HIM BUT REALIZED THAT THAT WASN'T THE BEST THING FOR ME TO DO... BUT IF HE WASN'T DEAD TO ME ALREADY k WAS GOING TO BE DEAD VERY VERY SOON.
IN LIGHT OF EVERYTHING I DECIDED TO CONTACT ANOTHER ONE OF MY CI'S TO TELL THEM WHAT HAPPENED... WE LAUGHED AND TALKED ABOUT HOW GAY IT WAS AND THEN I GOT ANOTHER SURPRISE... A CAUTION RATHER... TO WATCH MY SOURCES BECAUSE THEY COULD BE ON SOME DOUBLE AGENT SHITZLE MONKEY.
ANYWAYS....
LATER THAT NIGHT I FINISHED MY CONVERSATION WITH k.... LIKE THIS
I'M GOING TO LET SHIT GO BECAUSE I'M NOT PREPARED TO CALL YOU A LIAR OF SOME STUFF THAT I CAN'T PROVE.... BUT IT STILL FEELS LIKE I WAS LIED TO AND BETRAYED. WHICH k SEEMED TOO CONTENT TO LEAVE ON THAT NOTE.
AND SERIOUSLY THAT REALLY WAS WAT I NEEDED TO LEAVE IT AT... THE FACT IS THAT AGAIN AS MANY THINGS THAT ADDED TOGETHER THERE IS STILL ROOM FOR ERROR AND MISUNDERSTANDING... SO I RESORTED MYSELF TO AN OLD TACTIC OF MINE WHICH IS TO MERELY WAIT THINGS OUT... EVERYTHING COMES OUT IN THE END... AND RATHER THAN CAUSE I RUCKUS OVER SOMETHING I CAN'T PROVE CONCRETELY I WOULD RATHER PLAY MY POSITION AND KEEP A GOOD DISTANCE AND LET SHIT UN RAVEL...
LOOKS LIKE THERE WILL BE MORE k AFTER ALL....
Monday, September 22, 2008
carrie YOU DISAPPOINT ME
FROM SATURDAY 20,2008 (4AM)
YOU LEARN A LOT ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN YOU ARE THROWN INTO WEIRD AND EXTENUATING CIRCUMSTANCES WITH THEM......
PEOPLE YOU THOUGHT KNEW YOU DON'T, COURTESIES YOU GIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AREN'T GIVEN TO YOU.... ITS CRAZY. BUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE DETAILS OF THE NIGHT READ NSL THIS IS ABOUT ME....
SOOO... IN THE MIDST OF MY STUPOR I REALIZED YOU CAN'T JUST FORGET ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.... BE THEM ANGER LOVE PASSION OR ANYTHING ELSE...... I WISH THAT I COULD SOME TIMES BUT I CAN'T
WHAT SUCKS EVEN MORE IS THAT WHEN I WAS BEING CONSUMMED WITH ALL THE FEELINGS THAT I HAD TRIED TO REPRESS IT WAS INTERESTING TO ME HOW ALLL carrie COULD CARE ABOUT WAS HERSELF AND THE FALSEHOODS AND HYPOCRISIES OF HER INNER CIRCLE. I UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO FACE THINGS ON OUR OWN BUT WHEN YOU REACH OUT FOR HUMAN CONTACT AND EMPATHY ESPECIALLY FROM THOSE WHO YOU NEED IT MOST FROM YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET IT..... WHEN YOU JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TRUST AND BELIEVE IN YOU IT SHOULD BE ABLE TO COME.
I LEARNED A LOT TONIGHT.... HYPOCRITS ARE MANY IN MY WORLD AND THEIR FOLLOWERS AND APEASERS NUMBER EVEN MORE. YOU CANNOT EVEN TRUST THOSE WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSSED TO BECAUSE THEY ARE CONTAMINATED BY THE HYPOCITS AND THEIR FOLLOWERS. THOSE WHO YOU CAN TRUST AND COUNT ON ARE THE ONES YOU LEAST EXCPECT. AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL YOU CAN NEVER THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT A SITUATION OR ABOUT PEOPLE.
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
YOU LEARN A LOT ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN YOU ARE THROWN INTO WEIRD AND EXTENUATING CIRCUMSTANCES WITH THEM......
PEOPLE YOU THOUGHT KNEW YOU DON'T, COURTESIES YOU GIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AREN'T GIVEN TO YOU.... ITS CRAZY. BUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE DETAILS OF THE NIGHT READ NSL THIS IS ABOUT ME....
SOOO... IN THE MIDST OF MY STUPOR I REALIZED YOU CAN'T JUST FORGET ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.... BE THEM ANGER LOVE PASSION OR ANYTHING ELSE...... I WISH THAT I COULD SOME TIMES BUT I CAN'T
WHAT SUCKS EVEN MORE IS THAT WHEN I WAS BEING CONSUMMED WITH ALL THE FEELINGS THAT I HAD TRIED TO REPRESS IT WAS INTERESTING TO ME HOW ALLL carrie COULD CARE ABOUT WAS HERSELF AND THE FALSEHOODS AND HYPOCRISIES OF HER INNER CIRCLE. I UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO FACE THINGS ON OUR OWN BUT WHEN YOU REACH OUT FOR HUMAN CONTACT AND EMPATHY ESPECIALLY FROM THOSE WHO YOU NEED IT MOST FROM YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET IT..... WHEN YOU JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TRUST AND BELIEVE IN YOU IT SHOULD BE ABLE TO COME.
I LEARNED A LOT TONIGHT.... HYPOCRITS ARE MANY IN MY WORLD AND THEIR FOLLOWERS AND APEASERS NUMBER EVEN MORE. YOU CANNOT EVEN TRUST THOSE WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSSED TO BECAUSE THEY ARE CONTAMINATED BY THE HYPOCITS AND THEIR FOLLOWERS. THOSE WHO YOU CAN TRUST AND COUNT ON ARE THE ONES YOU LEAST EXCPECT. AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL YOU CAN NEVER THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT A SITUATION OR ABOUT PEOPLE.
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
Thursday, September 18, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHT 1
HERE'S A RANDOM THOUGHT......
THE PEOPLE WHO PULL AND DRAGG YOU TO BE THERE FOR THEM IN THEIR TIMES OF NEED IN THE MOST DESPERATE OF WAYS ARE THE ONES WHO ARE NEVER THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED THEM.
YESTERDAY I PROVED THAT.
AND IT HURT TO KNOW THAT I WAS THERE FOR k AND BENT OVER BACKWARDS TO DO SO THAT THEY WEREN'T THERE FOR ME....
AND NOW ALL THAT REMAINS IS TO FIGURE OUT HOW IM GOING TO ACT WHEN I RUN INTO k ... BE RUDE??? RUN AND CRY OR JUST SIMPLY DO WHAT TRULY IS IN MY HEART.... SMILE AND ASK WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP YOU TODAY?
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into anothers soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
THE PEOPLE WHO PULL AND DRAGG YOU TO BE THERE FOR THEM IN THEIR TIMES OF NEED IN THE MOST DESPERATE OF WAYS ARE THE ONES WHO ARE NEVER THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED THEM.
YESTERDAY I PROVED THAT.
AND IT HURT TO KNOW THAT I WAS THERE FOR k AND BENT OVER BACKWARDS TO DO SO THAT THEY WEREN'T THERE FOR ME....
AND NOW ALL THAT REMAINS IS TO FIGURE OUT HOW IM GOING TO ACT WHEN I RUN INTO k ... BE RUDE??? RUN AND CRY OR JUST SIMPLY DO WHAT TRULY IS IN MY HEART.... SMILE AND ASK WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP YOU TODAY?
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into anothers soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
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