carrie YOU DISAPPOINT ME

FROM SATURDAY 20,2008 (4AM)



YOU LEARN A LOT ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN YOU ARE THROWN INTO WEIRD AND EXTENUATING CIRCUMSTANCES WITH THEM......

PEOPLE YOU THOUGHT KNEW YOU DON'T, COURTESIES YOU GIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AREN'T GIVEN TO YOU.... ITS CRAZY. BUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE DETAILS OF THE NIGHT READ NSL THIS IS ABOUT ME....

SOOO... IN THE MIDST OF MY STUPOR I REALIZED YOU CAN'T JUST FORGET ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.... BE THEM ANGER LOVE PASSION OR ANYTHING ELSE...... I WISH THAT I COULD SOME TIMES BUT I CAN'T

WHAT SUCKS EVEN MORE IS THAT WHEN I WAS BEING CONSUMMED WITH ALL THE FEELINGS THAT I HAD TRIED TO REPRESS IT WAS INTERESTING TO ME HOW ALLL carrie COULD CARE ABOUT WAS HERSELF AND THE FALSEHOODS AND HYPOCRISIES OF HER INNER CIRCLE. I UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO FACE THINGS ON OUR OWN BUT WHEN YOU REACH OUT FOR HUMAN CONTACT AND EMPATHY ESPECIALLY FROM THOSE WHO YOU NEED IT MOST FROM YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET IT..... WHEN YOU JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TRUST AND BELIEVE IN YOU IT SHOULD BE ABLE TO COME.

I LEARNED A LOT TONIGHT.... HYPOCRITS ARE MANY IN MY WORLD AND THEIR FOLLOWERS AND APEASERS NUMBER EVEN MORE. YOU CANNOT EVEN TRUST THOSE WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSSED TO BECAUSE THEY ARE CONTAMINATED BY THE HYPOCITS AND THEIR FOLLOWERS. THOSE WHO YOU CAN TRUST AND COUNT ON ARE THE ONES YOU LEAST EXCPECT. AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL YOU CAN NEVER THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT A SITUATION OR ABOUT PEOPLE.

One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....