SOL FOOD 3 9/29

BEFORE WE CAN BE FORGIVEN WE MUST ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. BEFORE WE CAN ACCEPT THE FORGIVENESS OF OTHERS WE MUST BE ABLE TO FORGIVE OURSELVES.


THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP I REALIZED THAT I DEMANDED FORGIVENESS FROM A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT I NEVER FORGAVE. PEOPLE WHO HURT ME IN WAYS THAT ONLY I KNEW AND WAS WILLING TO ADMIT WHEN I WAS AT MY DARKEST. IRONICALLY TO THESE SAME PEOPLE I WOULD SMILE AND CONTINUE TO JUST BE POLITE AND BE FRIENDLY, BUT INSIDE WOULD HARBOR ILL WILL BECAUSE I WAS STILL HURT. EVEN MORE SURPRISINGLY I WOULD GET MAD WHEN ANYONE WOULD THINK THAT I NEEDED TO BE APOLOGETIC OR CARE THAT I HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG BECAUSE ALL THAT I CARED ABOUT WAS MY HURT. BUT THIS MORNING I REALIZED THAT I WAS BEING HELD BACK BY MY UNFORGIVING HEART.

SO WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING I SENT A FEW PEOPLE A TEXT... APOLOGIZING FOR ANY WAY THAT I HAD BEEN WRONG TO THEM IN THE PAST. A FEW WROTE BACK BUT MOST JUST LET IT BE ANOTHER TEXT IN THEIR INBOX.... BUT I STILL FELT SO FREE WALKING INTO WORK KNOWING THAT I HAD TAKEN THAT FIRST STEP.... THEN WALKING INTO THE DOOR I TOOK THE SECOND, AND JUST FORGAVE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING AND FOCUSING ON WHAT IT IS THAT I NEED TO DO TO BE BETTER... CUZ THERE IS NO REASON WHY THIS TIME NEXT YEAR I SHOULD BE WHERE I AM... I SHOULD BE HIGHER AND FURTHER....


AFTER ALL WHEN A PHOENIX IS REBORN ITS NOT SMALLER OR THE SAME SIZE BUT LARGER AND GRANDER THAN BEFORE.


One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong