LETTERS FROM THE SOL: I WANT TO THANK YOU

DEAR

I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR LETTING HER GO SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LET YOU GO. NOW THAT YOU HAVE I DON'T FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE FOR LOSING YOU. JUST HEARING THAT IN THE END YOUR LOVE FOR ME WAS GREATER MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY I'LL FIND SOMEONE WHO NEVER WILL LEAVE TO COMEBACK.

EVEN WHILE THIS WOUND IS HEALING I CAN FEEL OTHERS HEALING... THE THREE BIGGEST SCARS ACROSS MY HEART ARE MENDING FASTER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE... ALMOST AS IF CLOSURE HAS FINALLY COME.





I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR NOT RUNNING AFTER ME SO I COULD FINALLY TURN THE PORCH LIGHT OFF. KNOWING THAT YOU DIDN'T I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO WAIT FOR YOU ANY LONGER, I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO FLY FREE. JUST KNOWING THAT IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT OR ANYTHING I DID OR WAS MADE MY TEARS STOP FALLING AND THE LAUGHTER RETURN TO MY VOICE.





EVEN THOUGH LOVE IS STILL THERE I FEEL IT AND THE OTHERS FADING TO NOTHING MORE THAN A WHISPER AT A CONCERT.... THREE TIMES THE LOVE LOST.... AND NOW THE PAIN IS FINALLY DEAF TO ME.



I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR BREAKING ME SO I COULD HAVE THE STRENGTH TO STAND FOR MYSELF. I AM STRONGER THAN BEFORE YOU AND DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK I NEVER NEEDED YOUR FAITH BUT FAITH IN MYSELF, FAITH THAT REAL LOVE WAS AND STILL IS WAITING FOR ME.


EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT AT FULL STRENGTH EVERY DAY THAT PASSES THE WEAKNESS BECOMES A MEMORY LOST FROM AGE... I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT AFTER FALLING WITH YOU, FOR YOU, AND FROM YOU, I AM READY FOR LOVE.

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: WIND WHISPER WHAT MY MOUTH WON'T

DEAR


I WANNA TAKE TIME RIGHT NOW TO TELL YOU THAT I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I SAID TO YOU.... AT THE TIME YOU DIDN'T DESERVE IT BUT IN THE GRAND SCHEME YOU DID.

MAYBE YOU WERE REALLY TELLING THE TRUTH FINALLY BUT STILL I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT YOU'RE TELLING ME... YOU'RE TOO MUCH THERE ARE TOO MANY LIES THAT IM FINDING IN ALL OF THIS... TOO MANY THINGS THAT MADE ME FORGET TOO QUICK WHY I EVEN GAVE YOU THAT SHOT.


AND ITS SAD BECAUSE WHEN IM MAD AT him I GET MAD AT YOU ALL OVER AGAIN.... I DON'T UNDERSTAND Y BUT FOR SOME REASON THE HURTS ARE CONNECTED AND DON'T WANT TO BE SEPERATED. SO WHEN I TELL YOU I HATE YOU AND I THINK YOU'RE SCUM SOMETIMES ITS JUST BECAUSE THATS WHAT I REALLY THINK OF him AND NOT SO MUCH U.


I KNOW YOU AREN'T READING THIS BUT I'M SENDING IT OUT ANYWAY SO THAT MAYBE MY WORDS WILL BLEND WITH AIR AND WHEN THE WIND BLOWS BY YOU YOU'LL HERE IT WHISPHER SHE'S SORRY AND STILL WANTS YOU TO ONE DAY PROVE HER WRONG. NO MATTER HOW MUCH MY FACE SAYS FUCK U AND UR LIFE.


ALWAYS FROM MY SOL,

A.MARIE


One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it going

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IM FEELING MY HEART START TO SWIRLL DOWN A DRAIN AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.... YOU SEE THIS LOVE I'VE HAD FOR YOU HAS KEPT MY HEART FROM BEING BLUE FOR SO LONG IT BECAME A GLACIER AS SOON AS I SAID IM THRU.


ITS SAD CUZ I KNOW THAT I NEED THINGS TO END.... IF FOR NO OTHER REASON THAN TO TRY TO LIVE... EVEN THO I ALREADY FEEL DEAD.... CUZ IT WAS THAT HOPE THAT ONE DAY THIS DREAM WOULD ONE DAY COME TRUE.

SEE ITS CRAZY CUZ THE FIRST TIME I THOUGHT I WAS IT TURNED OUT TO BE PUPPY LOVE.... THE SECOND TIME IT WAS JUST FRIENDS, AND THE THIRD TIME WAS SUCH A DIASTER I DIDN'T C Y I SHOULD TRY EVER AGAIN.... BUT THEN I SAW YOU AND I BELIEVED IN LOVE AGAIN.



TO BAD I WAS WRONG... SOO WRONG... I WAS TOOK FROM YOU FROM JUMP AND IT WAS ALL LIES... I SHOULDA KNEW THAT SOMEONE LIKE YOU WAS TOO FAR OUTTA MY REACH.... SHOULDA NEVER LET MYSELF THINK THAT I DESERVED SOMEONE LIKE U....


I WOULD HAVE WAITED FOREVER AND A LIFE TIME AFTER THAT AS LONG AS I KNEW THAT IN THE END I WOULD BE WITH YOU. WAS WILLING TO WALK AWAY FROM A RING AND ANY OTHER GOOD MAN JUST TO HAVE YOU HOLD ME AND SAY I LOVE U TOO.


ITS HARD TO ENJOY THE SUN WHEN INSIDE I FEEL LIKE A TEMPEST THAT JUST WONT STOP. AND SMILING JUST ISN'T THE SAME WITHOUT THAT SECRET SMILE FROM A CONVERSATION THE NIGHT BEFORE.

I TOLD YOU BEFORE THAT I GAVE YOU MY HEART THE KEY TO IT AND DIDN'T WANT IT BACK... I HATE SAYING THAT I WANT IT BACK NOW BECAUSE I KNOW THAT EVEN THOUGH I'LL BE HOLDING IT IN MY HANDS AGAIN I KNOW THAT IT WON'T EVER BE WHOLE AGAIN AND IT WIL ALWAYS HAVE HOLES THROUGHOUT IT FROM WHERE YOU TOUCHED IT.


I DON'T KNOW WHETER TO JUST FUCK THE PAIN AWAY BECAUSE I KNOW IT WON'T MEAN ANYTHING BECAUSE IT WON'T BE LIKE IT WAS WITH US. NO ONE HAS MADE TIME STOP AND ME FEEL LIKE ONE OF THOSE GIRLS IN THE MOVIES. DOESN'T MATTER HOW GOOD IT IS IT STILL WASN'T WITH YOU CUZ THAT'S WAT MADE IT AS GREAT AS IT WAS.


THE TEARS ARE STEADY NOW CUZ ITS REALLY SINKING IN... YOU NEVER MEANT IT... YOU NEVER REALLY CARED... YOU COULD THROUGH ME LIKE A RAG DOLL WHILE I CHERISHED YOU LIKE A TREASURE.... THINKING ABOUT HOW MANY TIMES AND HOW MANY NAMES AND HOW MANY THINGS I'M NOT. BEFORE IT USED TO MAKE ME WANT TO BE BETTER AND KNOW IT JUST MAKES ME SICK I'M TRYING TO COMFORT MYSELF BUT IT'S NOT WORKING BECAUSE I KNOW THAT ITS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING.


SOME OF YOU ARE SAYING GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON CUZ THERE'S SOMEONE BETTER... BUT YOU DON'T GET IT THAT WAS MY SOMETHING BETTER. THAT WAS MY LIST THAT WAS....

SEE WHEN YOU LIVE THROUGH THE WORST TO GET THE BEST TO FIND OUT THAT IT DOESN'T WANT YOU MAKES YOU FEEL WORSE THAN THE WORST TIMES 7 TIMES 7.


MY BODY EVEN FEELS COLD RIGHT NOW.... AND AS MUCH AS IM TRYING TO FIGHT BECOMING A SHELL I ALREADY FEEL IT STARTING....


MAYBE I SHOULD JUST LET THIS FEELING TAKE OVER.... AFTER ALL WHAT ELSE IS THERE???? SINCE THERE'S NO HIM...

SOL FOOD 10/10

TELL SOMEBODY THAT YOU LOVE THEM THAT YOU HAVEN'T TOLD IN AWHILE.... YOU'LL BE SUPRISED AT HOW IT MAKES THEM AND YOU FEEL.


my heart!!!!! HEARING FROM YOU THE OTHER DAY MADE EVERYTHING WORTH IT!!!! I LOVED YOU THEN, NOW AND FOREVER!!!! THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME FIND MY WINGS AGAIN!!!

One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....