REFLECTIONZ: talk

SOOO..... ABOUT A WEEK AGO I SAW talk ON MY WAY TO WORK..... EVEN DEBATED BACK TRACKING TO GO TO TALK TO HIM.... BUT OF COURSE I DIDNT







EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT HITTING HIM UP ON TWITTER BUT HE'S NEVER ON SO IT WAS KIND OF A MUTE POINT

SOL FOOD 12:09:09

HINDSIGHT IS ALWAYS 20/20.... REALLY THINK ABOUT YOUR DECISIONS

SOL FOOD 12:08:09

WE NEVER KNOW THE RIPPLE EFFECT OF OUR WORDS UNTIL ITS HAPPENING..... SO PICK THEM WISELY

SOL FOOD 12:07:09

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..... AND IM GLAD ABOUT THIS SOMETHING

SOL FOOD 12:03:09

TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME

SOL FOOD 12:02:09

SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED A NIGHT OUT WITH THE GIRLS/GUYS

Random Thought 49

What do you do when your wings are clipped
*$copi lA BounA rAgAzzA*
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GOTTEM COACH!!!!!

SOOOOOOOOOOOO I GOT THEM FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES AFTER POSTING ABOUT THEM EVER AND A DAY AGO I GOT THEM.... I'LL ADMIT I FORGOT ABOUT THEM BUT YEST THEY ARE NOW MINE!!!!!!

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: I'M TIRED

DEAR,


... I'M TIRED. I'M SURE YOU ARE. FLIP FLOP FLIP FLOP


..... I KNOW YOU WISH THAT THIS WAS JUST OVER


I DO.... FLIP FLOP





ITS CRAZY HAVING A PARASITE BE THIS CLOSE WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT..... DAMN YOU LOOK LIKE ME....


AND SO IT GOES DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE



FLIP FLOP

I'M TIRED

RANDOM THOUGHT 48

"YOU THINK i WAS GOOD BACK THEN.... I'M NO JOKE NOW!!!!!!"

-DANTE "WHOLE PACKAGE" TOOMER

SOL FOOD 11:30:09

"MEN LIE WOMEN LIE ACTIONS DONT"

-DANTE "WHOLE PACKAGE" TOOMER

Random Thought 48

Sooo its good to know that I'm still cute when I'm faded
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RANDOM THOUGHT 47

FYI MEN THAT AREN'T MY FAMILY THAT HAVE AND RIDE A MOTORCYCLE ARE SEXY AS FUCK

SOL FOOD 11:27:09

KNOW WHEN TO QUIT

Letters From the Sol: Seen

Dear,

I never wanted to be seen until I as for the first time... But the girl in the reflection isn't me she's someone else....

I never wanted go back to being invisible till you stopped seeing me... But why does this reflection still look back at me?

I should be fading into the background but I'm still front and center... I never believed I was special but I let you convince me....

Now its all lies even when it's a the truth... The only truth is I'm only special to me... And to everyone else I'm just some person

I don't need to ask if you can hear me cuz I've simply stopped crying out... Don't need Superman cuz I'm no Louis Lane... No need to come in bo one needs to be saved

I'm just content to sit here and who knows... Maybe thats the best of being seen.
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Random Thought 47

Look if you can't man up and say that you're not into me can you please trade your dick in for a vagina? Thanks
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SHOE CRUSH: CREATIVE REACTION

CREATIVE REACTION: DICOCO PURPLE

AVAILABLE AT: WWW.ATTICONLINESHOP.COM

$150

RANDOM THOUGHT 46

I KNOW cassie IS MAD AS HELLL THAT SHE GOT THE LEAD IN THE "CRAWL" VIDEO AND ALL THAT EMOTION CHRIS WAS GIVING WAWS ABOUT RIHANNA AND NOT HER.

HAHAHHAA

SOL FOOD: 11:25:09

AS THE LADY GAGA SONG SAYS "JUST DANCE"

RANDOM THOUGHT 45

OK SO I'M WATCHING "CRYING OUT FOR ME" BY mario AND IM SORRY WHY THE FUCK IS DUDE ABOUT TO CRASH HIS CAR SO THAT HE CAN GET THE GURL??? IF HE IS THAT CRAZY IM SORRRY BO YOU NEED TO LET HER GO AND JUST COME BE WITH ME mario... MY HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR YOU TOO BUT I DONT HAVE CRAZIES LIKE THAT

RANDOM THOUGHT 44

WHAT HAPPENED TO MR. TALL DARK AND HANDSOME??? UGGHHHH CAN I GET SOME HEIGHT PLEASE!!!!

SOL FOOD 11:24:09

WHEN WE MAKE THE DESCION TO FLY ITS NEVER EASY BUT WE CANNOT LET THE CHALLENGE OR NEH SAYERS KEEP US FROM TAKING OFF

BEFORE THE HYPE: BC b4 AD A4E

THERE ARE JUST CERTAIN PEOPLE I WISH I WAS STILL JUST AS CLOSE WITH AS I WAS BEFORE....

I KNOW cb I DON'T ALWAYS SAY IT BUT IT SUCKS THAT WE HAVE GROWN AS APART AS WE HAVE OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS.... CUZ WE ALWAYS SAID IT WAS britt and cara before any dilema always and forever....

NO MATTER WHAT YOU'RE STILL MY OTHER HALF AND I STILL LOVE YOU. AND BEFORE THE HYPE YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS THERE AND LOVED ME FOR ME, STOOD BY ME, AND FOUGHT WITH ME.

CO-FOUNDER AND ORIGINAL MEMBER OF THE NOT SO INNOCENT GIRLS.... MY OTHER HALF I LOVE YOU AND IT WILL STILL AND ALWAYS BE...

BRITTANY AND CARA BEFORE ANY DILEMA ALWAYS AND FOREVER

I HEART: MARIO

ALRIGHT SOOOO I'VE BEEN QUOTING THE LYRICS TO MY FAVORITE SONG BY mario "BREAK UP" FOREVER!!!! IT'S BEEN MY VID OF THE WEEK FOREVER BECAUSE I CAN NEVER TRUELY GET ENOUGH OF THE SONG....

SOOO ITS ABOUT DAMN TIME THAT I DID AN iHEART ON HIM...

HE HAS REALLY GREAT BALLADS AND SLOW SONGS AND I LOVE HOW HE HAS EVOLVED AND GROWN UP SINCE HE STEPPED ON TO THE SCENE. MORE OVER I LOVE THE TAT ON HIS BACK!!!

FOLLOW HIM ON TWITTER: http://twitter.com/mariosoultruth

FAVORITE LYRICS:

"You might be from the hoodBut to me girl you're a model,Everything that I-I-I ever seen in a model,If you're leaving baby, don't leave me till tomorrowTonight we gon' get a little tipsy, with a bottle.You gonna get me up'I'm take 'em downI'm gonna change my waysWe gon' work it outGirl I wouldn't be the same if you was with somebody elseGirl it wouldn't be the same if I was with somebody else" -FROM "BREAK UP" (SEAN GARETT'S VERSE)

"I don't wanna confuse things (no)But I just can't keep lying to myselfWhen you're holding me (when you're holding me)I can feel your pain oh baby let me be your dreamI'm the answer come see me (see me)And u don't have to cry no more (u don't have to cry)"- FROM " CRYING OUT FOR ME"

"Wow, we could play the music loud whenever nobody's aroundCause if the sound, it starts to wake up the neighbors We gonna have to turn it down, down,down, downI'm about to have a real eruptionThere's gonna be no interruptionsBaby come push my buttonsIll show you all my functionsPress play and let me startFast forward to your favorite partAfter we done hit rewind we'll go back to the top"- FROM "MUSIC FOR LOVE"

"Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame Don't even know what you're worth " - FROM "LET ME LOVE YOU"

"Dont get me wrongI aint been alot But I been enough to knowWere the spot isN girl i promise i can get you there in minutesWe can stay there as long as you want untill your finished"- FROM "DIRECTIONS"

ADDCITED: NUVO

YOU CAN CALL ME AN ALCHY IF YOU WANT BUT I REALLY AM IN LOVE WITH nuvo! ITS A FLAVORED VODKA BASICALLY IN A BEAUTIFUL BOTTLE AND ITS PINK! I'VE SEEN IT IN THE "BLAME IT VIDEO" AND IN MY FAVORITE VIDEO.. "BREAK UP" BUT I'VE HAD IT A FEW TIMES AND ADORE IT.





ONLY GET THE SMALL ONES CUZ THATS ALL I NEED BUT IT STILL IS REALLY GOOD!

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: WORTH

DEAR,

"I CAN HEAR YOUR HEART, CRYING OUT..." BUT I JUST DON'T THINK THAT ITS FOR ME. SEE YOURE SOOO BEYOND YOURSELF THAT I DON'T THINK YOU RECOGNIZE YOURSELF... SO RATIONAL YET A COMPLETE PSYCHOTIC BREAK COME TO LIFE.


I'M GLAD IT ENED UP BEING NOTHING... CUZ YOURE SOMETHINGS WOULD ONLY TURN INTO BAD THINGS FOR ME. YOU'RE INCAPABLE OF GIVING WHAT SOMEONE NEEDS AND ONLY CAPAPBALE OF PSEUDO-ORGANIC AFFECTION. SO SAD TO WATCH SOMETHING SO GREAT BE SO TARNISHED AND GO UNPOLISHED.



I HOPE THAT YOU CAN REALIZE YOUR WORTH BEFORE YOU'RE TRUELY WORTHLESS. AND YOU CAN KNOW WHAT ITY MEANS TO BE A REAL FRIEND AND FIND A REAL MATE.


ALWAYS

A. Style Green With Envy

So this is what I wore the other night to Thirsty Thursdays...inspired by my inner rocker chick

Green plunge neck mini dress with bejeweled bra. And black leggings bronze snake print peep toe pumps and a mohawk complimented the look.
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VH1'S TOUGH LOVE SEASON 2

SOOO I WANT TO GO ON THIS SHOW... CUZ LORD KNOWS I PROBABLY NEED IT LOL JK





BUT SERIOUSLY I LOVE vh1's tough love ITS IN ITS SECOND SEASON RIGHT NOW AND THE GIRLS ARE JUST AS GOOD IF NOT BETTER THANT THE LAST SEASON... ESPECIALLY WITH THE RETURN OF TAYLOR!





FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T WATCH THE SHOW THE BASICS IS A REAL MATCH MAKER TEACHING GIRLS HOW TO FIND AND ACCEPT A REAL MATCH DESPITE THEIR VARIOUS PROBLEMS THAT NORMALY MAKE REALTIONSHIPS BLOW UP IN THEIR FACES.





EVERY WEEK THERE IS A CONCEPT AND A CHALLENGE WHERE THERE IS A PERSON WHO DOES THE BEST (AND GETS TO HAVE A ONE:ON:ONE WITH A POSSIBLE MATCH) AND SOME ONE WHO DOES THE WORST (WHO ENDS UP IN THE HOT SEAT).. THE ULTIMATE GOAL TO MATCH THE GIRLS UP WITH PEOPLE THAT THEY WOULD HAVE HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS WITH. AND ONCE THEY DO THEY CAN LEAVE THE BOOT CAMP.



I LOVE IT!!! ITS CUTE AND FUCKIN HILLARIOUS.

I HEART: ZACH M WRIGHT

OK SOOOO IM SORRY YOU CAN CALL DUDE AS ARROGANT AS YOU WANT BUT zach FROM i want to work for diddy 2. WAS THE SMARTEST AND SEXIEST OF ALL THE CONTESTANTS...

I LOVED HIS STEELO SOOOOOOO MUCH BECAUSE HE WAS NEVER WRONG AND YOU WERE ALWAYS BENEATH HIM. BUT IVE BEEN CHECKIN UP ON HIM AND AS A FILM MAKER HE ACTUALLY IS PRETTY COOL. CHECK HIM OUT ON HIS WEBSITE

http://zmwright.com/

AND I LIKE HIM SOOO MUCH HE IS THE NEW REIGNING NECK BREAKER!!!

DREAM DEFERED NO MORE

SOOO AFTER MUCH THOUGHT AND EVENMORE THOUGHT I HAVE DECIDED THAT 2010 IS GOING TO BE MY LAST YEAR AS A CALI CHIK..... :( YUP SAD I KNOW BUT ITS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE.


IVE BEEN TRYING TO PINPOINT FOR AWHILE WHAT HAS BEEN MISSING IN MY LIFE AND WHAT HAS BEEN HINDERING ME FROM REALLY GROWING AND BEING HAPPY AND I THINK I FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT.


WHEN I FIRST GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL I WAS SOO EXCITED AT THE THOUGHT OF GOING TO A 4 YEAR SCHOOL THAT HAD MEANING TO MY FAMILY AND WHERE I COULD GROW AND LEARN MORE ABOUT MYSELF AND A NEW ENVIRONMENT. ITS BEEN ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I JUST LET SLIP TO THE BACKGROUND AND BECAME CONTENT TO JUST TO TAKE WHAT LIFE GAVE ME.


CONTRARY TO THE POPULAR BELIEF ABOUT ANJL I'M NOT DINGY.... IN FACT IM BEYOND KINDA SORTA INTELLIGENT, WHICH I HAVE BEEN HIDING BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WASN'T WHAT I SHOULD SHOW. BUT WHEN YOU DENY PART OF YOURSELF YOU REJECT YOURSELF AS A WHOLE.... THE SIDES OF ME THAT LOVE TO TRAVEL, LOVE CULTURE, AND THAT LONGED TO GET AWAY SO THAT I COULD REFLECT ON ME IN NEW WAYS IS JUST AS IMPORTANT AS THE PARTS THAT LOVE TO PROMOTE, PARTY, AND TAKE PICTURES.


I DON'T REGRET ANYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED IN THESE LAST YEARS BECAUSE THEY WERE NESSCARY SO THAT I COULD GROW. I FOUND WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE AND I FINALLY TOOK SOMETIME TO DEVOTE TO SOMETHING THAT WASN'T TOTALLY ACADEMIC CENTERED. I HAVE BECOME A WOMAN WHO ISN'T AFRAID TO BE A WOMAN... I'M NOT THE TIMID GIRL SCARED TO LET HERSELF BE SCENE AS SOMEONE OTHER THAN INTELLIGENT..... I HAVE regal, HAVE THE CONCEPT BEHIND shawtz, AND STILL THAT THIRST FOR THE INDUSTRY THAT EVERYONE SAID I COULDN'T BREAK INTO.


STILL RIGHT NOW I KNOW THAT CALI HAS TAKEN ME THIS FAR.... BUT I NEED TO GO LEARN AT A HIGHER LEVEL, AND IN AN ENVIRONMENT OUTSIDE OF MY COMFORT ZONE....


THE NEXT 2 MONTH WILL BE ALL ABOUT PLANNING.... AND THEN THE NEXT FEW EXECUTING... THEN I'LL WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS AND BE PREPPING FOR THE MOVE.... EVEN IF I DON'T GO STRAIGHT TO howard... I WILL BE MOVING TO dc JAN 2011....

I'LL KEEP YOU GUYS POSTED

ADDICTED: DUCATI SUPER BIKE 848

SOOO IVE BEEN CRAVING FOR A BIKE FOR THE LONGEST AND IVE BEE CHECKIN OUT DIFFERENT ONES... RIGHT NOW MY FAVORITE ARE THE ducati SUPER BIKE 848 ITS MIDDLE WEIGHT 369lbs 6 SPEEDS OF SEXY

MY ONLY COMPLAINT IS THE COLOR WHICH I WOULD HAVE PAINTED BLACK WITH MIDNIGHT BLACK ACCENTS AND CHROME. BUT WHO CARES

SOL FOOD 11:23:09

SECOND CHANCES ARE NEEDED SO THAT PEOPLE CAN REGAIN FAITH IN THEMSELVES

SOL FOOD 11:20:09

WHEN SOMEBODY ASKS IF YOU ARE TIRED JUST ADMIT IT AND SAY THAT YOU'RE TIRED!!!

RIHANNA NAMED GLAMOUR MAGAZINE'S WOMAN OF THE YEAR

SO rihanna HAS BEEN HONORED AS glamour magazine'S WOMAN OF THE YEAR...


I MEAN IDK WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THIS... FROM AN ACOMPLISHMENT STAND POINT SHE CHANGED THE WHOLE TIED OF HIP HOP NAD MAINSTREAM INDUSTRY STYLE. AND I UNDERSTAND THE WHOLE OVERCOMING THE DV THING WITH chris brown.... IDK THO....


I'M STILL WAITING TO SEE rihanna RETURN FROM ALL THIS... SHE HAS GONE TO SOME PRETTY DARK EXTREMES AND OSTRACIZED HERSELF A LOT (WHICH IS UNDERSTANDABLE) BUT IM STILL CONCERENED FOR HER AND REALLY WANT TO SEE THE TRUE BOUNCE BACK FROM ALL OF THIS.


ON A SIDE NOTE HER DRESS WAS BEAUTIFUL FOR HER... MADE HER LOOK VERY CURVY JUST NOT MY STYLE... BUT AGAIN VERY BEUATIFUL FOR HER.

Random Thought 44

Isn't Christmas stuff supossed to appear after Thanksgiving?
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RANDOM THOUGHT 43

SOOO WHY IN EVERY COLLAB VIDEO THAT BEYONCE DOES SHE HAS EVERYONE LOOK LIKE HER???

WHAT FUN IS THAT BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

RANDOM THOUGHT 42

HEY JUST CUZ YOU FUCKED UP YOUR SHIT.... PLEASE DON'T TRY TO FUCK MINE UP.... I CAN AND WILL FIGHT YOUR DUMB ASS BACK

SOL VIEW: BEYONCE: "VIDEOPHONE" FT. LADY GAGA

SO ON OUR WAY UP TO OCEANSIDE TO GO FEED AND WALK THE DOGS THE GIRLS WERE TALKING ABOUT THE NEW beyonce' VIDEO THAT FEATURES lady gaga. THEY WATHCED IT AND KEPT TALKING ABOUT HOW FIERCE THE VIDEO WAS....


I HAVE TO ADMIT B CAME WITH HER A GAME ON THIS VIDEO. HER FASHION IN HER VIDEO'S IS ALWAYS ON POINT SO TO SEE HOW SHE OUTSHINED HER SELF IN THAT DEPARTMENT WAS VERY COOL TO SEE. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER EYE MAKEUP IN THE WHOLE VIDEO... AND HER FITS ARE ONES TO TRY TO COPY.


THANKFULLY I'M GLAD THAT FOR THE MOST PART SHE WASN'T DANCING... CUZ WE ALL KNOW THAT SHE CAN'T AND HAS BEEN REPEATING THE SAME MOVES SINCE B-DAY.


I WAS BLOWN AWAY BY GAGA'S FACE IN THE VIDEO VERY CLEAN KIND OF LIKE IN HER NEW VIDEO THAT SHE HAS OUT. WAS DISSAPOINTED THAT SHE WAS BARELY IN THE VIDEO... AND IT MADE ME QUESTION WHETHER IT WAS A COLLAB OR A BUISNESS/POLITICAL TRANSACTION.


BUT OVERALL I LIKED IT THEY ARE A FIERCE DUO DONE RIGHT NEXT TIME.

SOL FOOD: 11:17:09

THERE ARE DAYS THAT YOU JUST NEED TO BEND AND SHUT UP ABOUT IT

RANDOM THOUGHT 41: BIKER BO

SO WHO ANSWERES THE PHONE TO TALK TO ANOTHER GIRL WHEN THEY ARE ON A DATE WITH ANOTHER???


biker boy #comeonson (twitter speak) I MEAN #imjustsayin (MORE TWITTER SPEAK) WHY DO THAT....


SO I GUESS HE'S A NO GO HUH... SAD DAY!!!!!!

A.Style Black Winter

Rockin the hoody snoopy bought me and my new cut
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Shoe Crush

Omg so I as these in Aldo and they are so cute ugh I need a sugar daddy or a second job
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ADDICTED: "I CAN TRANSFORM YA" CHRIS BROWN FT. LIL WAYNE & SWIZZ BEATS

SOOO IM SOO ADDICTED TO THIS VIDEO.... THE MY FAVE PRODUCER SWIZZ BEATS! AND CHRIS BROWN LOOK DAMN GOOD!! AND I GOTTA ADMIT I ACTUALLY LIKED LIL WAYNE ON THIS TRACK

CHRIS BROWN & KERI HILSON: "SUPERHUMAN"

Special Alert

For all my AnjlikSol readers this just in

COWARD is here at the Realm!!! Yes the bitchass himself is up in this bitch its about to go down!!!
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REFLECTIONZ:

THE PAST COUPLE DAYS I'VE BEEN SITTING BACK TRYING TO PLACE PEOPLE AND THINGS INTO CATEGORIES...

SERIOUS
TOYS
BUISNESS
FRIEND
FAKE
NESSCARY
INDULGENCES



AND WHAT'S SCARY IS THAT CERTAIN PEOPL ARE BEING PLACED INTO CATEGORIES THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN IN BUT ARE BECAUSE IM SEEING REALITY.


I ALREADY SEE THE HEARTBREAK THATS COMMING AROUND THE CORNER. I CAN TELL THAT THIS ISN'T WHAT YOU REALLY WANT AND YOU TAKE ME ABOUT AS SERIOUSLY AS A PERSON DOES THE TICKLE OF A FLY.


HERE I AM AGAIN.... LOOKING OUT FROM THE MOUTAIN I SEE THE HURT IVE BEEN THROUGH AND THE BULLSHIT I CLIMBED UP AND THE CLIMB DOWN TO HAPPINESS JUST SEEMS SOO LONG....


SOOO LONG

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: FOR YOU

DEAR,


I DON'T KNOW WHY TODAY I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU.... THOUGHT ABOUT US.... IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE....


IM OVER YOU IVE BEEN OVER YOU.... BUT TODAY I JUST WISH I COULD SEE YOUR FACE AND HEAR YOUR VOICE... JUST ONE LAST TIME I WISH THAT I COULD GO BACK TO BELIEVING THAT THE LIES WERE THE TRUTH.


I REALLY BELIEVED IN YOU WITH ALL THAT I HAD.... ALL I WAS.


SAD I WOULD HAVE GAVE UP SEEING THE WORLD IN MOTION FOR YOU,

SAD I WOULD HAVE WENT BLIND AND DEAF TO EVERYONE FOR YOU,

SAD I WOULD HAVE CHANGED ANYTHING ABOUT ME FOR YOU,

SAD I WAS WILLING TO WALK AWAY FROM THE AISLE FOR YOU.



I'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE WHO WAS PERFECT FOR ME LIKE YOU WERE.... SO THERE IS NO USE IN LOOKING... IT WONT HAPPEN.



SAD THAT I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING YOU WERE TO ME I WASN'T FOR YOU

... YET I STILL TRIED TO BE


.... AND STILL LET YOU BE




ALWAYS,

SOL FOOD 11:04:09

BEND AND BE WILLING TO BEND

NEW PHOTO FROM WILL THAM PHOTOGRAPHY

OK SO I ADORE wil tham AS A PHOTOGRAPHER HE'S SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN TO WORK WITH!!!!!

HERE'S ANOTHER PHOTO FROM MY SHOOT IN GLENDALE A WHILE BACK

SOL FOOD 10:21:09

NIGGAS ARE LIKE BUSSES MISS ONE NEXT 15 ONE COMMIN

MISADVENTURES: IN PARTYING

SO LAST NIGHT I DID A LITTLE TOO MUCH..... NOT THE MARAGRITAS OR THE ADULT ICE TEA.... BUT YEAH I THE "FLOAT" I GOT WAS RIDICULOOUS.... TO THE POINT THAT I FELT LIKE THE CARTOON WHO IS SHAKING ALL THE TIME LIKE A WALKING VIBRATOR.... CUZ THE HEAT WAS VIBRATING OFF ME IT FELT LIKE.... EVERYTHING WAS FOUR.... I COULDN'T TELL A TALL MEXICAN/PUERTO RICAN FROM THE BLACK MAN SHE WAS SITTING NEXT TO... AND THE MOVIE WASN'T WORTH IT CUZ IT WAS IN SLOW MO.


YEAH INSTEAD OF FLOATING I WOULD MUCH RATHER JUST SWIM RIGHT ON BY THOSE WHO DO.... LOL

DEATH OF A BLACK WOMAN

SOMEONE FROM WORK SENT THIS TOO ME AND OMG OMG OMG IS IT HITTING WITH ME RIGHT NOW!!!!


The strong black woman passed away. Medical sources say she died of natural causes, but those who knew her know that she died from being silent when she should have been screaming, smiling when she should have been raging, from being sick and not wanting anyone to know because her pain might inconvenience them.


She died from an overdose of other people clinging to her when she didn't even have energy for herself. She died from loving men who didn't love themselves and could only offer her a 'crippled' reflection. She died from raising children alone.


She died from the lies her grandmother told her mother and her mother told her about life, men and racism.


She died from asphyxiation, coughing up blood from secrets she kept trying to burn away instead of allowing herself the kind of nervous breakdown she was entitled to, but only white girls could afford.


She died from being responsible, because she was the last rung on the ladder and there was no one under her she could dump on. The strong black woman is dead. She died from being a mother at 15 and a grandmother at 30 and an ancestor at 45.


She died from being dragged down and sat upon by uninvolved women posing as sisters and friends. She died from tolerating 'Mr. Pitiful', just to have a man around the house. She died from sacrificing herself for everybody and everything when what she really wanted to do was be a singer, a dancer, or some magnificent other. She died from lies of omission because she didn't want to bring the black man down.


She died from tributes from her counterparts who should have been matching her efforts instead of showering her with dead words and empty Promises. She died from myths that would not allow her to show weakness without being chastised by the lazy and hazy.


She died from hiding her real feelings until they became hard and bitter enough to invade her womb and breasts like angry tumors. She died from always lifting something from heavy boxes to refrigerators all by herself.


The strong black woman is dead. She died from never being enough of what men wanted, or being too much for the men she wanted.

ADDICTED: MARIO "BREAK UP" FT GUCCIE MAN & SEAN GARRET

SO I HAD TO MAKE IT MY VIDEO OF THE WEEK CUZ snoopy DEDICATED THIS TO ME WHEN WE ENDED IT

ADDICTED: Kyo Kara Maoh!: God(?) Save Our King!

SO THE LATEST IN MY ANIME COLLECTION THAT I HAVE BECOME ADDICTED TO... KYO KARA MAOH! IS ACTUALLY REALLY RANDOM AND INTERESTING... snoopy GAVE IT TO ME CUZ HE COULDN'T HANDLE ALL OF THE HOMOSEXUAL INUENDO IN IT BUT... NEH IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME THAT MUCH.

FAV CHARACTER IS CONRAD... GOREGOUS AND A TRUE HERO!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM LOOSE HIS WAY IN THE SECOND SEASON...

LEAST FAVORITE CHARACTER: WOLFRAME... HE'S JUST FUCKIN ANNOYING AS HELL.

JUST FOUND OUT ON WIKIPEDIA THAT THERE IS A THIRD SEASON (snoopy GAVE ME THE FIRST TWO AS A PRESENT) ITS NOT OUT ON DVD YET SO THAT MEANS I'LL BE ON http://www.onemanga.com/ READING THE SECOND SEASON.

DEMONS,PORTALS, AND TONS OF PRETTY MOSTLY GAY MEN (DRAT!!) ANYWAYS ITS ENTERTAINING DIFFERENT AND YES IM ADECTED TO IT.

SOL FOOD 10:13:09

YOU WOULD BE SURPRISED AT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU JUS COMMIT YOURSELF TO BEING BETTER... TAKE THE FIRST STEP LET HIM DO THE REST

SOL FOOD 10:05:09

SITUATIONS AREN'T ALWAYS THE SAME AS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE....... DON'T GET DISCOURAGED AT THE WAY IT LOOKS.... WINDS CAN CHANGE IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE....

OCTOBERFEST 2009

Me and my mommy on our way to OctoberFest
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SOL FOOD: 09:30:09

WALK INTO EACH DAY AND TRY TO REMEMBER HALF FULL NOT HALF EMPTY

I HEART: SHANNON BROWN #12

IM SORRY YOU CAN'T TELL ME THAT HE JUST ISN'T GOREGOUS AS SHIT!..... AHHHH ITS ALMOST THAT TIME OF THE YEAR PEOPLE!!!!

Morning!

Hey readers hope all is well!
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LETTERS FROM THE SOL: UNTITLED (GOODBYE)

DEAR,

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I ACTUALLY SAID GOODBYE.... NOT GOODNITE... OR SEE YOU TOMORROW OR THE NEXT DAY, BUT GOODBYE.


IT FELT LIKE THE LAST BREATH OUT OF ME WENT WITH THAT WORD. I FELT THAT HOLE GROW IN MY CHEST AND EVERY FAUCETT IN MY EYES TURN ON.... HALF OF MY SCREAMED "NO DON'T DO IT!!!!!!" AND STILL PART SAID THIS IS FOR THE BEST.


I'VE NEVER SEEN YOU SO COLD, SO VOID, SO DISTANT... BEYOND MY REACH WOULD HAVE BEEN PUTTING IT NICELY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I HAD JUST HURT SOMEONE THAT I CARED ABOUT.


BUT I CAN'T ASK YOU TO PUT ME ABOVE PART OF YOU. I CANT ASK YOU TO LET MAKING ME HAPPY MAKE YOU MISERABLE... ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU STILL DON'T KNOW IF YOU REALLY WANT ME AT THE END OF THE DAY.



IM NOT CRYING TODAY LIKE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE.... BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DONT FEEL IT...



CRAZY HOW IM JUST SITTING HERE TAKING IT ALL IN.... BUT IN AN OD WAY IM OK... STILL I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE GONE I WANT YOU JUST HERE I WITH ME... BUT RIGHT NOW YOU CAN'T BE JUST HERE....



SO FOR NOW GOODBYE



AND HOPEFULLY THAT WILL TURN INTO A SEE YOU SOON, THEN MAYBE AN IM ON MY WAY TO YOU, AND MAYBE EVEN A KISS HELLO....

SOL FOOD 09:28:09

WHAT IS YOUR HAPPINESS COSTING SOMEONE ELSE?

BEFORE THE HYPE: M2M "THE FEELING IS GONE"

SO I USED TO LISTEN TO THIS ALBUM SO MUCH IT GOT SCRATCHED AND YEAH..... BUT THIS SONG IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW ABOUT A CERTAIN SOMEONE

Listen to me as I explain this situation
It's not like I wanna destroy his reputation
We are still together
But we are not moving on



When we first met it was the perfect combination
Now when I look at him it fills me with frustration
What is a girl to do when she is not having fun



How can I tell him I have to try
There is no easy way of saying goodbye
How do I break itIt's just no good
My heart is telling me that I really should
I must be subtle
I must be strong
The feeling is gone


I think we're going in the opposite direction
No longer think that we are making a connection
I am so unhappy
I'll rather be alone

In the beginning it was one special occasion
Now when I talk to him his mind is on vacation


How can I tell him I have to try
There is no easy way of saying goodbye
How do I break itIt's just no good
My heart is telling me that I really should
I must be subtle
I must be strong
The feeling is gone
I want it over, all said and done
How can I tell him that he isn't the one
The feeling for you is gone


How can I tell him I have to try
There is no easy way of saying goodbye
How do I break it
It's just no good
My heart is telling me that I really should
I must be subtle
I must be strong
The feeling is gone
I want it over all said and done
How can I tell him that he isn't the one
I must be subtle
I must be strong
The feeling is gone

RANDOM THOUGHT

D8P.... D8G... 8FYGP.... &ED

SOL FOOD 09:27:09

MEN LIE, WOMEN LIE, NUMBERS DONT!!!!!!!!!-JAY Z

SOL FOOD 09:26:09

SAYING THINGS WHILE PEOPLE ARE PRETTY MUCH SLEEP GETS THEM REMEMBERED WITH A GRUDGE....


BUT ITS STILL FUNNY

ADDICTED: ALANIS MORISSETTE "THESE ARE THE THOUGHTS"

SO cbr SENT THIS TO ME THE OTHER DAY AND TOLD ME TO JUST LISTEN TO IT AND ENJOY IT..... OMG AWESOME SONG!!... I LOVE HER WRITING STYLE SOOOOO MUCH ITS CRAZY

BUT I ENDED UP LISTENING TO THE WHOLE UNPLUGGED ALBUM AND FELL BACK IN LOVE WITH IT ALL OVER AGAIN.

SIGHHHHHH

SOL FOOD 09:22:09

JUS SMILE..... SMILE.... AND THEN SMILE ONE MORE TIME.....

Sol Food 09:21:09

Sometimes waking up is all it takes
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OK SO I'M JUST GOING TO SAY THIS AND BE DONE WITH IT....


THE WHOLE POINT OF ANJLIKSOL IS THAT I CAN WRITE MY THOUGHTS AND POST THEM.


THE LAST TWO RANDOM THOUGHTS AND SOL FOOD POSTS FROM EARLIER TODAY ARE IN REFERENCE TO SOME THINGS THAT OCCURED LAST NIGHT AND ON TWITTER TODAY.



HOWEVER I CHOOSE NOT TO PUT NAMES BECAUSE ITS NOT THAT FUCKIN SERIOUS NOT TO BE SNEAKY OR TALK BEHIND PEOPLES BACKS.



THE POINT OF THOSE POSTS IS THIS.....



I UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE A WHOLE SLEW OF PEOPLE MAD AND PISSED OFF AT ME FOR NOT BEING AROUND YESTERDAY AFTERNOON AND EVENING.... I UNDERSTAND THAT.... EVEN APPOLOGIZED REGARDING IT.


HOWEVER RATHER THAN POST ON TWITTER I DECIDED TO SPEAK ON IT HERE. I DECIDED TO COMMENT ON WHAT ACTUALLY OCCURED.


THE OPPINION IS THAT I LEFT SO THAT I COULD JUST GO ATTEMPT TO GET LAID OR WHATEVER AND THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY THAT'S WHAT I DID GO DO...


FACT: I WENT TO THE BEACH HOUSE PARTY AND YES I ENDED UP HAVING FUN DESPITE, RUNNING AROUND WITH A CAMERA AND HELPING THE OTHER GIRLS COOK AND CLEAN.

FACT: I ENDED UP SPENDING 3 HOURS OF THE TIME SLEEP WITH A MIGRAINE


FACT: I GOT BACK UP TO FINSIH TAKING PICTURES HELP CLEAN UP SOME MORE AND CHILL.


FACT: CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF NOTHING HAPPENED.


FACT: I SLEPT IN MY ROOM THERE WOKE UP AND CAME TO WORK THIS MORNING


FACT: I'M GETTING PAID FOR TAKING PHOTOS THIS WEEKEND.




THE WHOLE COSIGNING THING WAS TAKEN OUT OF CONTEXT AGAIN BECAUSE NOBODY KNOWS WHO IT WAS DIRECTED TOWARDS WHICH IS WHAT I WANTED... I MADE A STATEMENT AND THATS IT.


AND AS FAR AS ME TALKING ABOUT CHOICES.... YES THAT IS THE FUCKING THOUGHT OF THE DAY BECAUSE APPARENTLY THAT IS WHAT I'M DEALING WITH TODAY.


I'M WELL WITHIN MY RIGHT TO SAY WHAT I WANT AND CHOSE THE OUTLET THAT I WANT TO SAY IT THROUGH.


AT THE END OF THE DAY I UNDERSTAND THAT NOBODY AGREES WITH, AND OR LIKES THE CHOICE THAT I MADE YESTERDAY. AND I SAT AND APPOLOGIZED TO THE PERSON THAT I OFFENDED AND AM WILLING TO TAKE THE BACKLASH AND CRITICISM AND WHATEVER ELSE FROM HER REGARDING IT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRI!!!!!

SO I JUST WANT TO SEND A HUGE HAPPY BIRTHDAY OUT TO MY BEST FRIEND, SAME SEX SOULMATE, HERO,& NIGEL adri!!!!

LOVE YOU SO MUCH HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY!!!

HUGZ MAMAS

CALI LUV: THE BEACH

SOOO OMG THE BEACH WAS PERFECT YESTERDAY AND EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED TO JUST DECOMPRESS FOR A MINUTE... JUS CHILLEN IN THE WATER WAS ABSOLUTELY AWESOME.


I'LL BE OUT AGAIN TODAY SURFING!!! YEA!!! AND WILL POST SOME PICS FROM THAT LATER.


HUGS GANG LATER!!

SOL FOOD 09:20:09

LIFE IS A CLUSTERFUCK OF CHOICES... SOME ARE OBVIOUS OTHERS NOT SO OBVIOUS... SOME ARE EASY OTHERS ARE FUCKIN HARD AS SHIT.





NOT EVER CHOICE IS GOING TO BE POPULAR WITH EVERYONE OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER....




SOME CHOICES YOU MAKE ARE GOING TO BE WRONG, OTHERS RIGHT, AND SOME ARE JUST A CHOICE WITH BOTH GOOD AND BAD IN THEM.





AT THE END OF THE DAY ALL THAT MATTERS ABOUT YOUR CHOICES IS THAT YOU MADE THE BEST ONE AT THE TIME AND THAT IF YOU ARE WRONG YOU ADMIT IT...


BUT MOST OF ALL BE HAPPY AND AT PEACE WITH THE CHOICES THAT YOU MAKE

YET ANOTHER RANDOM THOUGHT

IF YOU'RE COSIGNING SOMEHTING SHOULDN'T YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR SIGINING?

I MEAN IM JUST SAYING

RANDOM THOUGHT

SO IT SUCKS THAT I NEEDED EXTRA MONEY AND GOT A LAST MINUTE PHOTOGRAPHY BOOKING THATS PAYING ME BUT END UP PISSING EVERYBODY OFF.... AND THEM THINKING IT WAS SO THAT YOU COULD GO FUCK SOMEBODY... AND NOT EVEN DO IT... AND THEN FOR IT TO BE ALL OVER TWITTER LIKE I DITCHED MY BEST FRIEND FOR SOME DICK....


HMMM MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE THREW MYSELF AT HIM TO GET IT THEN AT LEAST THE ACUSATION WOULD BE TRUE....


WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?

SHAWTZ BY ANJL: YUNG BERG @ DECOS 09:11:09

YEAH I KNOW IM LATE BUT IM SOOOOOOO BUSY BUT I JUST WANTED TO SHARE A COUPLE PICS FROM THE YUNG BERG EVENT AND D. RILEY'S BIRTHDAY AT decos 09:11:09.

I'LL BE ADDING MORE IMAGES TO shawtz LATER (AND I'M SOOO SORRY THAT SHAWTZ HAS BEEN SOOO LAME LATELY.... A LOT OF THE APPLICATIONS THAT I WANTED TO HAVE FOR THE SITE HAVEN'T BEEN WORKING PROPERLY.)

RAW AND UNCUT: DEAD BEAT DADS

I JUST WANT TO GO ON RECORD TO SAY THIS.... FUCK BITCH NIGGAS WHO DON'T TAKE CARE OF THEIR KIDS AND THEN TRY 2 FUCK OVER THE MOTHERS THAT DO

I GOT MADDD RESPECT 4 EVERY SINGLE MOM WHO HOLDS HER OWN WHILE THEY BABY DADDY DOESN'T DO SHIT BUT THINK OF himself & DA NEXT ORAFICE 2 FUCK

AND FOR ALL THE DADS WHO R APART OF THEIR KIDS LIVES AND ACTUALLY LIVE UP TO THIER RESPONISBILITIES URE DA SHIT & KEEP DOING THE RIGHT THING

LADY GAGA AT THE VMAS

SOOO IDK WHO WAS REALLY PAYING ATTENTION TO LADY GAGA AT THE VMAS BUT OMG SHE IS SO ECCLECTIC WITH HER STYLE ITS BANANAS. YEAH YOU COULD SAY IT WAS TOO COSTUME OR STUPID... BUT TRUTH IS IT FITS AND SUITS HER ALMOST TOO WELL. AND BESIDES I FUCKIN LOVE HER ANYWAYS SO DAMNIT GET OVER IT!!!!

HER ARE ALL HER FITS FOR THE NIGHT!

THE "WEDDING DRES" FOR HER AFTER PARTY

THE AFTER AWARD SHOW PHOTO SHOOT DRESS


THE "BLOOD DRESS" SHE ACCEPTED BEST NEW ARTIST IN

HER PERFORMING "PAPARAZZI" (SO HOTT!!)

MUTILATED PY THE PAPARAZZI

MOST MEMORABLE MOMENT OUTSIDE OF KANYE AND JANET.... AWE STRIKINGLY ARTISTIC

THE THIRD DRESS SHE WORE (POSING WITH BEYONCE')

WITH DATE KERMIT THE FROG

THE "FUNERAL DRESS" SOOO HAUTE COUTRE LOVED IT!!!

SOL FOOD 09:16:09

TRY TO FIGHT YOUR DEMONS NOT SUPRESS THEM

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: (UNTITLED)

DEAR





IM SO CONFUSED ABOUT EVERYTHING MY HEAD ACTUALLY WOULD LIKE TO EXPOLODE..... I KNOW THAT WE TALKED BUT THE FACT STILL REMAINS THAT A STILL SMALL VOICE INSIDE OF ME THINKS THAT YOU REALLY ARE DOING SOMETHING WITH HER....


I STILL AM MAD THAT YOU TOOK BACK WHAT YOUR ACTIONS MEANT AND GAVE THEM A NEW MEANING.... WHY I DON'T GET IT BUT HEY WHAT CAN A GIRL DO?


I REALLY WISH THAT I COULD TAKE BACK EVERY TIME THAT I SAID I CARED ABOUT YOU... EVERYTIME THAT I SAID I WAS HAPPY JUST BEING WITH YOU.... EVERYTIME I JUST EXHALED WITH RELIEF THAT I FELT SAFE WITH YOU.


I WISH I COULD TAKE BACK EVERY EVENT I BLEW OFF.... EVERY ACCOUNT I PASSED ON.... EVERY INCH AND BREATH OF MY EGO THAT I SUFFOCATED AND THREW AWAY.




I GIVE AND GIVE AND GIVE AND GIVE.... AND YOUR SUCHA A GREAT MAN BUT....???? I CAN'T HELP WONDERING WHY STRING ME ALONG OR PLAY HOUSE???


THEN IT DAWNED ON ME....


YOU STILL DON'T LIKE ME... YOU JUST LIKE THE SHELL THAT HOUSED THE EGO YOU HATED SO MUCH YOU KILLED

RAW AND UNCUT: KANYE @ THE VMAS

SOOOOO I'M WATCHING ABDC WITH MY BEST FRIEND... AND ALL OVER TWITTER WAS THE WHOLE KANYE WEST INTRUPTING TAYLOR SWIFT THING...

THATS JUST FUKCED UP!

SERIOUSLY I UNDERSTAND THAT BEYONCE HAD A GOOD FEMALE ANTHEM FOR 2009 BUT TRUE STORY HER VIDEO PERFORMANCE WAS KILLED THE MINUTE THAT SHE STARTED REPEATING THE SAME FUCKING MOVES IN EERY SUBSEQUENT VIDEO.  TAYLOR SWIFT IS BEYOND ORIGINAL AND FOR WHAT SHE HAS BEEN ACOMPLISHING SHE DESERVED TO WIN.

HER VIDEOS ARE FIERCE N A WAY THAT MAKES PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HER NOT JUST SAY OK THAT WAS ANOTHER GOOD PERFORMANCE BEYONCE BUT CAN I SEE SOMETHING NEW?????

I'LL HIT YALL WITH THE VIDEO LATER

I HEART: MY PROMO TWIN

SOOOO THIS IS MY PROMO TWIN.... AWESOME AND HILLARIOUS GUY REALLY LUCKY TO HAVE HIM AS A FRIEND. I REALY WANT TO SAY A SPECIAL HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM! I HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT WEEKEND LOVED HANGING WITH YOU.

Random Thought 40

So why harrsass me if you aren't going to work in the parameters
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RANDOM THOUGHT 40

SOO WHY DO MEN LIE ABOUT BEING MARRIED? I MEAN SERIOUSLY IF YOU THAT BIG AND BAD ADMIT YOUR OFF THE MARKET BUT STILL WANT TO FUCK...

THEN GET JUDGED FOR THE FUCKED UP BITCH NIGGA YOU ARE....

GOOD OR BAD....


WHY LIE THO

SOL FOOD 09:10:09

THERE ARE JUST TIMES WHERE ALL WE CAN DO IS SAY GOOD BYE.....

SOL FOOD 09:09:09

THERE ARE DAYS THAT ALL WE CAN DO IS LAUGH AT ALL THE THINGS THAT GO WRONG... AND THEN THERE ARE DAYS LIKE TODAY... WHERE TEARS JUST FALL

Awe!!

This is the orchid my roomie's sister's roomate bought me!

If she gets it how come a guy can't?!?!
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I Heart: my Roomie

So I'm at heart my roomie Kady!! (the girl in the middle) she's awesome!!!
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LATEST MODELING IMAGE

OK SO HERE IS ANOTHER IMAGE FROM THE JULY MORJANE PROJECT IN GLENDALE THAT I WENT TO BY visual photography!!!!  TELL ME WHAT YOU GUYS THINK

BREAKING NEWS: SHAWNNE MERRIMAN ARRESTED FOR CHOKING TILA TEQUILA!!!

OK SO IM AT WORK AND ONE OF MY CO-WORKERS TELLS ME OVER MY CUBICAL WALL THAT CHARGER LINEBACKER shawnne merriman WAS ARRESTED THIS MORNING.

TILA WAS IN TOWN DOING A HOSTED PARTY AT on broadway FRIDAY NIGHT AND APPARENTLY VISTING BOYFRIEND shawnne merriman (HOW TRUE THE BOYFRIEND TITLE IS DON'T ASK ME)

OMG SO ME BEING ME OF COURSE I ME BEING ME I ALREADY POSTED SOMETHING ON MY TWITTER ABOUT IT.... BUT FOR MY READERS YOU KNOW I HAD TO GIVE YOU SOME INFORMATION ON HERE

SOOOO ACCORDING TO nbc

POLICE WERE CALLED TO merriman's HOUSE AT 3:45 AM THIS MORNING FOR CHOKING AND RESTRAINING REALITY STAR tila tequila (HIS GIRLFRIEND).

tila WAS TRANSPORTED TO POMERADO HOSPITAL AND MERRIMAN WAS TAKIN INTO CUSTODY AND TO THE SHERIFF'S OFFICE.

THERE IS A SCHEDULED PRESS CONGERENCE AT 12pm PST REGARDING THE MATTER.

ANYWHO THIS HONESTLY COULD NOT HAVE COME AT A WORSE TIME FOR MERRIMAN WHO HAS PREVIOUSLY BEEN SUSPENDED FOR STERIOD USAGE BY THE nfl AND IS FINALLY COMMING BACK TO PLAYING AFTER A FULL SEASON OUT FOR AN INJURY. TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE THIS IS THE LAST YEAR OF HIS CONTRACT WITH THE CHARGERS.....

I GUESS THE QUESTION ON MY MIND IS WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON IN THAT HOUSE TO SPARK ALL OF THAT AND WHY WOULD SOMEBODY 2-3 TIMES THE SIZE OF THE WOMAN HE ALLEGEDLY BATTERED EVEN BOTHER TO HIT HER... COME ON PEOPLE merriman COULD BREAK HER LIKE A TWIGG. WHAT WAS IT THAT WAS SAID THAT TICKED HIM OFF THAT MUCH THAT HE WENT THAT FAR????

ON A TOTAL SIDE NOTE I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT IT WAS FUCKED UP ON THE PRESS' PART FOR RELEASING IN ONE REPORT THE STREET NAME AND ANOTHER THE STREET AND BLOCK THAT merriman LIVES ON IN POWAY (MAYBE 20-30 MINUTES FROM ME). I'M ALL FOR FREE PRESS BUT DANG TALK ABOUT A PRIVACY VIOLATION... SMH

THE BIG QUESTION RIGHT NOW IS WHETER OR NOT THE LEAGUE AND/OR THE CHARGERS ARE GOING TO TAKE ACTION AGAINST merriman WHICH AT THIS POINT FOR ME IS A 50/50 CHANCE.... WITH THE STERIOD SUSPENSION FROM BEFORE HE ALREADY AS A UNETHICAL MARK IN HIS FILE THAT MIGHT COME BACK TO HAUNT HIM REGARDLESS IF ANY CHARGES ARE FORMALLY FILED..... BUT THEN AGAIN THEY COULD JUST WAIT TO SEE IF CHARGES ARE PRESSED.

MORE ON THE STORY AS IT DEVELOPS BUT ALL I CAN SAY IS WITH A WEEK TO GO BEFORE THE CHARGER SEASON STARTS THERE IS A DARK CLOUD CIRCLING THE CHARGERS SEASON.

RAW AND UNCUT: duck

SOOOO ITS BEEN A COOL MINUTE SINCE I POSTED A TEXT MESSAGE ON HERE AND I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD BE FITTING TO POST WHAT I SENT THE BITCH ASS CUNT FACE SLOB OF A NIGGA duck FRIDAY AFTER HE CALLED TO CUSS ME OUT FOR NO REASON.



OK THAT WAS A LIE AND THIS IS RAW AND UNCUT RIGHT.... SO HERE'S THE UNCUT VERSION....


duck HAS BEEN TELLING ME SINCE NOVEMBER 08 THAT HE HAS BEEN GOING THROUGH A DIVORCE WITH HIS WIFE (THE GIRL HE CHEATED ON ME WITH WHEN WE WERE ENGAGED AND THEN LATER MARRIED).... IN THE COURSE OF THE BULLSHIT (WHICH HONESTLY IS TOOO LONG TO WRITE ON HERE) THE END RESULT WAS THAT THE BABY SHE SAID WAS BY THE DUDE SHE WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH IS ACTUALLY duck's AND APPARENTLY THE DIVORCE IS A TOTAL HOAX.


ANYWAYS WHATS IMPORTANT IS THAT THIS CUNT FAST OTTER FUCKING BASTARD WAS JUST SENDING ME TEXT MESSAGES FRIDAY MORNING IN FACT ABOUT HOW HE WAS JACKING OFF TO THE THOUGHT OF ME AND TO PICTURES OF ME.... AND HAVING ME TELL HIM VIA TEXT A BUNCH OF DIRTY SHIT.... THE REPLIES STOPPED AFTER AWHILE AND SO DID I HONESTLY CUZ ITS NOT THAT FUCKING SERIOUS PLUS I WAS AT WORK...


I LEFT THE OFFICE EARLY FRIDAY TO MEET snoopy TO GO TO THE BATTING CAGES AND GOT A CALL (FROM duck) TELLING ME NOT TO FUCKING CALL HIM ANYMORE THAT HE WAS FUCKING MARRIED AND HAD A CHILD FUCK YOU CRAZY BITCH BLAH BLAH BLAH....


I HAVE TO ADMIT I WAS SHOCKED AND WONDERING WHAT WAS GOING ON.... AND ASKED AT FIRST THEN I THOUGHT WHY SHOULD I GIVE A SHIT WHATS GOING ON.... AND THIS WAS MY VERBATEM TEXT RESPONSE TO THE BASTARD.....



A: " YOU CRACK ME THE FUCK UP... ONCE AGAIN ALL I CAN EXPECT FROM YOU IS LIES AND BULLSHIT YOU NEVER GAVE TWO SHITS OF A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING BUT GETTING A NUT OFF IN YOUR HAND OR HAVING SOMEONE TO BITCH TO ABOUT HOW FUCKED YOUR JOB LIFE AND MARRIAGE IS ... I HOPE YOU FIND WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE LOOKING FOR CUZ YOU FOR DAMN FUCKIN SURE LOST ME FUCK US A FRIENDSHIP AND ALL THE OTHER LIES YOU'VE BEEN SAYING THESE PAST TWO YEARS YOU'RE A BITCH NIGGA WHO SETTLED FOR A GOLD DIGGEIN KINIVING BITCH THAT YOU DON'T EVEN LIKE. FOR YOUR SON'S SAKE I HOPE YOU GET A FUCKING CLUE AND GROW THE FUCK UP BEFORE YOU TAKE HIM DOWN IN YOUR CLUSTERFUCK OF A LIFE."


NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS PISSED....

REFLECTIONZ:.....

SO THIS MORNING I HAD A DREAM THAT SCARED THE CRAP OUTTA ME..... I SWORE UP AND DOWN THAT THERE WAS A DEMON, THE LITTLE MONSTER FROM feast, THE DIBOLUK FROM unborn, AND THE RABBIT FROM donnie darko WHERE IN MY ROOM TRYING TO ATTACK ME......



THE WEIRD PART WAS THAT IT WASN'TTHAT I OCULD NESSCARILY SEE THEM ITS THAT I COULD SENSE THEM IN MY ROOM.... IT WAS RIGHT AFTER SEX..... ALMOST AS IF THEY WERE WAITING AND HOPING FOR SOMETHING......


IT SENT ME INTO A PANIC ATTACK AND MADE ME CALL MY MOM..... BUT STILL I REALLY WONDER.....

SOL FOOD 09:01:09

BIGGER IS NOT ALWAYS BETTER.....


ITS THE QUALITY NOT THE QUANTITY AND THAT PRICIPLE CAN BE APPLIED ANYTIME

I'M BACK

SOOO THE LAMES AT WORK TEMPORARILY BLOCKED ANJLIKSOL!!!!! LAME I KNOW SO I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS BUT HAVE NO FEAR!!!!! I'M BACK AND HAVE TONS OF STUFF TO TALK ABOUT AND THAT I WANT OPPINIONS ON.



ITS JUST MY OPINION NOBODY PANIC!!!!

Hmmm

What's this now
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ADDICTED: SHAKIRA "SHE WOLF"

SO THIS MORNING WHEN I WAS GETTING READY I DECIDED TO ACTUALLY WATCH SOME MUSIC VIDEOS AND FELL IN LOVE WITH shakira's NEW SINGLE "SHE WOLF"

THE VIDEO IS FIERCE AND MAKES ME WANT TO GO TAKE A STRIPPER AEROBICS CLASS AND GET A SEXY LEOTARD AND WORK OUT...

IM GLAD TO SEE HER BACK ON THE SCENE WITH SOMETHING HOT

SOL FOOD 08:19:09

SOME DAYS THE BEST CURE FOR FEELING BLUE IS TO GET ALL DOLLED UP AND SHOW YOUR SELF OFF

SOL FOOD 08:18:09

LET'S JUST KISS AND SAY GOOD BYE

SOL FOOD: 08:17:09

AT SOME POINT WE NEED TO STOP BELIEVING THAT FAIRY TALES COME TRUE AND MAKE REALITY THE PERSPECTIVE OF CHOICE... NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT HURTS

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: CHILL

DEAR,


SO WE JUST WERE SUPPOSSED TO CHILL? I DIN'T REALIZE THAT CHILL FOOLED EVERYONE ELSE INTO THINKING COUPLE.... HELL YOU FOOLED ME AND I BET FOOLED YOURSELF....



LOOK AT YOU FOR WHAT? SO I CAN CRY... SORRY I DON'T WANT TO.... IM TOO OLD TO BELIVE IN FAIRY TALES AND TRUST ME THERE IS NO SILVER LINING TO THIS.



CHILL WITH YOU IDK WHY I SHOULD... SO THAT IT CAN HURT MORE KNOWING HOW STUPID AS FUCK I AM.... OH IM SORRY I WAS PROBABLY JUST A GREAT FUCK... ON A LEVEL LIKE THE DRAKE SONG MAYBE BUT THEN AGAIN THAT DOESN'T MAKE A RELAY....


I CAN'T BELIEVE I FELL FOR THE OKIE DOKE LOOKED AT THE MONET AND SAW CLEAR PHOTOGRAPH....


REALLY THO SOO IT WAS ALL JUS CHILL??? YOU WANTING ME TO JUST TRUST YOU AND BE AROUND YOU.... YOU WANNA MAKE ME FEEL GOOD? FUCK FUCK FUCK MCFUCKLAND


ITS SAD THAT PART OF ME IS OK WITH ALL OF THIS... AFTER ALL YOUR JUST ANOTHER NAME TO ADD TO THE LIST..... JUST ANOTHER TEAR TO ADD TO MY WELL AND FURTHER PROOF THAT ALL I HAVE IS ME MYSELF AND MY HUSTLE...


IM LAUGHING RIGHT NOW TO CONCEAL IT ALL BUT DANG.... I GUESS I NEED TO STUDY WEBSTER'S MORE CUZ APPARTENTLY I DON'T KNOW MY DEFINITIONS...


BUT YOU WANTED TO STILL "CHILL" RIGHT??? SO I'M ASUMING THAT MEANS NO TOUCHING, KISSING, FUCKING, ANYTHING... RIGHT. I MEAN WE CAN DO THE ACTUAL DEFINITION OF CHILL...... SURE WE CAN SEE HOW THAT GOES I MEAN HOW CAN I BE MAD???


ITS NOT YOUR FAULT I DIDN'T KNOW THE DEFINITION... RATHER YOUR DEFINITION OF CHILL.

REGARDING THE INCIDENT AT DECOS 08:14:09

ALRIGHT THIS IS ALL THAT I'M GOING TO SAY ABOUT THE CRAP THAT WENT ON LAST NIGHT AT DECOS.....



LAST NIGHT I WAS REQUESTED TO SHOOT A CONCERT FEATURING THE lax boys AND OTHER LOCAL ARTISTS (rob grimes AND sidewayz ent). AFTER ACCEPTING THE EVENT I WAS INFORMED OF A "GUEST VIP APPEARANCE" THAT WAS TO BE MADE BY chris brown. I CONFIRMED THAT THIS INFORMATION WAS CORRECT DESPITE RUMOR THAT IT WAS FALSE ADVERTISEMENT.


UPON APPEARING AT THE VENUE AND WATCHING THE ARTIST ENTER I DID OBSERVE THAT THE PERSON THERE WAS NOT chris brown AND IN FACT APPEARED TO BE A LOOK ALIKE. MY SUSPICION WAS CONFIRMED LATER THAT NIGHT.


DUE TO COMPLICATIONS IN VIP CROWD CONTROL WHICH HINDERED MY ABILITY TO GET THE BEST IMAGES DURING THE PERFORMANCES AND MY OVERALL IRRITATION WITH THE EVENT I CHOSE TO LEAVE THE VENUE.


WHILE I DO KNOW THE IDENTITY OF THE PERSON WHO APPEARED LAST NIGHT I WANT TO MAKE IT ADAMANTLY CLEAR THAT:


I WAS BOOKED TO SHOOT THE EVENT, I DID NOT BOOK OR HAVE ANY PART IN PROMOTING THE EVENT.


I HAVE NO KNOWLEDGE OF HOW THE CONTRACT WAS MADE, CAME ABOUT, AGREED UPON, AND/OR SATISFIED BY EITHER PARTY.


OUT OF THE SENSITIVITY OF THE SITUATION NO PHOTOS WILL BE RELEASED ON anjliksol, shawtz, myspace, OR TO ANY PROMOTERS OR PEOPLE IN ATTENDANCE.



WHETHER THIS WAS DONE IN GROSS NEGLIGENCE AND UNETHICAL ADVERTISING PRACTICE, OR IT WAS A TRUE MISUNDERSTANDING AND A CASE OF SOMEONE BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF IT IS A SAD INCIDENT... AND JUST THAT.


IT IS NOT THE HABIT OR TREND OF PROMOTERS/VENUES/ IN SAN DIEGO TO UTILIZE FALSE ADVERTISING OR FAKE CELEBRITIES TO CREATE HYPE AND/OR GENERATE INCOME. I ENCOURAGE THE NIGHTLIFE PATRONS TO NOT HOLD IT AGAINST THE MAJORITY OF PROMOTERS AND EVENTS AND TO PLEASE CONTINUE TO SUPPORT NIGHTLIFE IN SAN DIEGO.


LAST NIGHT WAS JUST A SAD AND DARK INCIDENT... MY PRAYERS AND GOOD WISHES GO OUT TO ALL THOSE WHO WERE RUBBED THE WRONG WAY OR WHO ARE UNDER SCRUTINY AS A RESULT.


THANK YOU GUYS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING AND CONTINUED SUPPORT OF ME, shawtz by anjl, AND anjliksol.

DISCIPLINE

SO dj birdy bird HAS BEEN POSTING THESE ON TWITTER AND I THOUGHT THAT THEY ARE RIGHT ON TARGET WITH WHERE I NEED TO BE IN LIFE AND DECIDED TO POST THEM FOR ALL MY READERS!!


"With self-discipline most anything is possible."

"Discipline is the refining fire by which talent becomes ability."

"Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment."

"Success isn't measured by money or power or social rank. Success is measured by your discipline and inner peace."

"It was character that got us out of bed, commitment that moved us into action, and discipline that enabled us to follow through."



FOLLOW HIM ON TWITTER: http://twitter.com/djbirdybird

SOL FOOD 08:13:09

PEOPLE ARE JUST AS MUCH AS YOU MAKE THEM OUT TO BE..... SO RELAX THEY'RE JUST PEOPLE

SOL FOOD 08:11:09

HARD WORK NEVER GOES UNNOTICED YOU JUST DONT NOTICE THOSE WATCHING

ADDICTED: PLEASURE P: THE INTRODUCTION OF MARCUS COOPER

SOO snoopy PUT ME ONTO THIS CD AND I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO IT ALL DAY TODAY AT THE OFFICE... HONESTLY IT HAS TAKEN ME THROUGH EVERY EMOTION TODAY AND GOT ME THROUGH A CALL BEING MONITERED BY THE NATIONAL SALES DIRECTOR FOR MY COMPANY (YIKES I KNOW!!!)

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!!

HELLA ADDICTED

KEYSHIA COLE HALF BALD????

SOOO ON BET'S TWITTER THEY RELEASED THIS IMAGE THAT KEYSHIA COLE HAS DECIDED TO GO FOR THE HALF BALD LOOK..... HMMMMMM IDK I THINK THAT ITS COOL ON HER BUT IM JUST OVER PEOPLE ON THE WHOLE LETS PULL A STUNT TO GET MORE ATTENTION AND REORD SALES... WHY CAN'T SHE JUST PUT OUT ANOTHER GOOD ALBUM???

KERI HILSON ON THE COVER OF COMPLEX

IM HELLA DIGGIN THE WHOLE LAYOUT OF THIS COVER FOR complex IS HOT.... MY GIRL KERI HILSON IS KILLING THE STYLE GAME RIGHT NOW... LOVE IT

RAW AND UNCUT: SAD DAY

SO TODAY IS JUST A SAD DAY...

A. Style: pool party

Soo forgot to send this to you guys yesterday me @ the Coastal Beauties pool party rockin the black cut out swim suit
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SHOE CRUSH: AUBREY O'DAY'S LATEST RED CARPET APPEARANCE

SO AUBREY O'DAY POSTED THESE FROM HER TWITTER TODAY AND OMG IM IN LOVE I WANT TO FIND A PAIR!!!!!!!!!... ON GOOGLE NOW DOING THE RESEARCH!!!

SOL FOOD 08:09:09

SOMETIMES SIMPLE AND NATURAL JUST GOES FURTHER AND GETS YOU NOTICED MORE

SOL VIEW: G.I. JOE: THE RISE OF COBRA

OK SO YESTERDAY AFTERNOON snoopy AND I WENT TO GO SEE g.i. joe: the rise of cobra BEFORE I GOT TOO INVOLVED IN MOVING...

SO THE BIG BUZZ FOR ME WHY I WANTED TO SEE THIS WAS TO SEE channing tatumn. WE ALL KNOW THAT CHANNING IS BEST KNOW FOR HIS ROLES IN coach carter, havoc, AND MOST ACCALIMED FOR step up (WHERE HE MET NEW WIFE jenna dewan) IN A NEW LIGHT. STEP UP SHOWCASED HIS DANCE SKILLS, WHERE HE GOT HIS START. COACH CARTER AND HAVOC BOTH SHOWCASED THAT HE HAD POTENTIAL FOR DRAMA BUT THEY BOTH SHOWCASED HIM AS THE SAME CHARACTER FOIL THAT HE SHOWED IN STEP UP, A WHITE GHETTO THUG. gi WAS GREAT BECAUSE HE REALLY CAME ACCORS THE SCREEN AS A ACTION STAR WITH BRAVADO AND SEXINESS. VERY PROUD THAT HE WAS ABLE TO GET BACK TO HIS emperio armani, AND abercrombie & fitch ROOTS AND HAVE MORE OF AN ALL AMERICAN GUY APPEAL.

SO YOU KNOW HOW WE DO SO LETS GET INTO THE REVIEW:

THE GOOD:

LIKE I SAID EARLIER THE ACTION SEQUENCES IN THIS MOVIE ARE STRAIGHT FIRE! THE FIGHTS WITH THE HIGH TECH WEAPONS WERE AWESOME AND ARE SURE TO BE EVEN BETTER FOR ps3 AND xbox BUT DAMN.... SERIOUSLY I WAS SALIVATING WATCHING SOME OF THE STUNTS (WHICH YOU COULD TELL WERE STUNTS NOT CGI LIKE SOME MOVIES) AND THE FIGHT SEQUENCES.

FAVORITE FIGHTER: SNAKE EYES... PROBABLY WITH MY RECENT INTEREST IN anime AND martial arts CULTURE IM LOVING HIS STYLE SO MUCH BUT DAMN THIS CAT WENT HARD IN THE PAINT. HIS BACK STORY WAS COOL BUT THE WAY THEY INCORPORATED IT INTO HIS FIGHTING STYLE IS WHAT MADE HIM SO DYNAMIC TO WATCH.

FAVORITE CHARACTER: SCARLETT.... WE ALL KNOW MY PENSION FOR RED HAIR BUT HONESTLY THIS CHICK DID THE FOIL OF A RED HEAD JUSTICE. SMART, GUARDED, BUT A VERY METHODICAL FIGHTER. OUT OF ALL THE CHARACTERS IN THE MOVIE I FELT THAT I COULD MOST RELATE TO HER. AND FOR ALL OF MY MALE READER BE SURE TO CATCH THE CHIK FIGHT AND BIKER SEQUENCE SHE'S IN.

THE BAD:

OK I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT AS MUCH AS I WANT TO GIVE RAVE REVIEWS ABOUT ALL OF THE CHARACTERS I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT denis quaid's CHARACTER WAS JUST BLAND FOR ME AND SO WAS THE DUDE WHO COULD IMPERSONATE ANYONE. EITHER THEY JUST WEREN'T DYNAMIC ENOUGH OR WHATEVER BUT THEY GOT OUT ACTED BY BASICALLY EVERYONE... WHICH REALLY SUCKED FOR ME BECAUSE BOTH ACTORS ARE VETERANS TO THE INDUSTRY.

THE UGLY:

OK MY ULTIMATE PET PEEVE IN MOVIES IS WHEN YOU CAN TELL THE ENDING/MYSTERY OF THE MOVIE 30/45 MINUTES BEFORE THEY TELL YOU. THERE WERE SOME GREAT TWISTS AND TURNS THAT WERE IN THIS MOVIE BUT ALL OF THEM WERE PRETTY DARN PREDICTABLE OVERALL... IT WAS FRUSTRATING WATCHING IT KNOWING THAT I ALREADY KNEW WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.

THE OTHER THING THAT I WILL SAY THAT WAS KINDA LAME WAS sienna miller's DYE JOB FOR HER CHARACTER ANNA... THE WIG WHATEVER IT WAS LOOKED REALLY BAD ON HER.... THE BROWN WAS WAY TOO DARK FOR HER SKIN TONE AND ENDED UP MAKING HER JUST LOOK GROSS.

WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW:

ITS GOING TO BE A SUMMER BLOCKBUSTER... GREAT SUMMER MOVIE.... MARLON WAYNES WAS A GREAT BATCH OF COMIC RELIEF FOR THE MOVIE AND IN THE RIGHT DOSAGE BUT DONT LOOK FOR IT TO BE SHORTY FROM scary movie 1 OR 2. TRUST ME YOU WILL BE SEEING A LOT OF BUZZ ABOUT gi joe TO COME..

MY TAKE:

I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I ACTUALLY THOUGHT THAT THE MOVIE WAS REALLY GOOD. NOT BETTER THAN transformers 2: revenge of the fallen BUT STILL IT WAS DEFIENTLY WORTH MY ANTICIPATION. THE ACTION SEQUENCES IN IT WERE GRIPPING... I CANT WAIT FOR THE blue ray TO COME OUT SO I CAN REALLY GET AN IN MY FACE FEEL FOR THE EXPLOSIONS AND CAR CRASHES/BLOW UPS (WHICH WE ALL KNOW ARE A TURN ON FOR ME).

BOTTOM LINE:

IF YOU LIKE revenge of the fallen OR INTO THE COMIC- TO- MOVIE THING YOU NEED TO CHECK THIS OUT.