Saturday, November 8, 2008

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: I WANT TO THANK YOU

DEAR

I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR LETTING HER GO SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LET YOU GO. NOW THAT YOU HAVE I DON'T FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE FOR LOSING YOU. JUST HEARING THAT IN THE END YOUR LOVE FOR ME WAS GREATER MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY I'LL FIND SOMEONE WHO NEVER WILL LEAVE TO COMEBACK.






EVEN WHILE THIS WOUND IS HEALING I CAN FEEL OTHERS HEALING... THE THREE BIGGEST SCARS ACROSS MY HEART ARE MENDING FASTER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE... ALMOST AS IF CLOSURE HAS FINALLY COME.





I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR NOT RUNNING AFTER ME SO I COULD FINALLY TURN THE PORCH LIGHT OFF. KNOWING THAT YOU DIDN'T I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO WAIT FOR YOU ANY LONGER, I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO FLY FREE. JUST KNOWING THAT IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT OR ANYTHING I DID OR WAS MADE MY TEARS STOP FALLING AND THE LAUGHTER RETURN TO MY VOICE.





EVEN THOUGH LOVE IS STILL THERE I FEEL IT AND THE OTHERS FADING TO NOTHING MORE THAN A WHISPER AT A CONCERT.... THREE TIMES THE LOVE LOST.... AND NOW THE PAIN IS FINALLY DEAF TO ME.



I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR BREAKING ME SO I COULD HAVE THE STRENGTH TO STAND FOR MYSELF. I AM STRONGER THAN BEFORE YOU AND DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK I NEVER NEEDED YOUR FAITH BUT FAITH IN MYSELF, FAITH THAT REAL LOVE WAS AND STILL IS WAITING FOR ME.


EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT AT FULL STRENGTH EVERY DAY THAT PASSES THE WEAKNESS BECOMES A MEMORY LOST FROM AGE... I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT AFTER FALLING WITH YOU, FOR YOU, AND FROM YOU, I AM READY FOR LOVE.

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