ANJL MARIE FOR ECCLECTIC COUTURE

(FROM MY PREVIOUS RUNWAY WITH HER BUT STILL TOO CUTE HUH)

SOOOO LAST NIGHT I HAD A BLAST AT MY RUNWAY SHOW!!! IT FELT GREAT TO BE BACK WALKING THE RUNWAY AND I COULDN'T THINK OF A BETTER WAY TO COME BACK THAN WITH ECCLECTIC COUTURE!!! ANNIE SUPINGER IS SO TALENTED IT'S RIDICULOUS AND BEING ABLE TO WALK WITH HER IS ALWAYS A APOSITIVE!

FOR THIS SHOW I GOT TO WALK THREE TIMES WHICH MEANS QUICK CHANGES AND CRAZY TIMES BUT I HAD A LOT OF FUN. I MADE TWO NEW MODEL FRIENDS GINA AND DANYEL WHO I CAN'T WAIT TO HANG OUT MORE WITH. I HAD A COUPLE DRINKS AND YEAH.... ONCE AGAIN A MUCH NEEDED NIGHT.

I HAD A LOT OF FUN

HAPPY THANKSGIVING FROM ANJLIKSOL

I JUST WANT TO TAKE TIME OUT TO SAY THANK YOU TO ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS AND READERS!!

YOU GUYS ARE WHAT MAKE ANJLIKSOL WORTH MY WHILE AND SUCH A SUCCESS.


I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A LOT OF TURKEY AND FOOD TODAY CUZ IM STUFFED!!!!

REFELCTIONZ: BEING ALONE

TEXTING U IS CRAZY CUZ IT MAKES ME SMILE.... I'M CONTENT TO BE ALONE BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT I WANT. AND TILL SOMEHTING COMES ALONE THATS BETTER FOR ME AND CHANGES & CAPTIVATES MY MIND THE WAY YOU DO... IM JUST GOING TO BE ALONE.


YEAH IM OKAY WITH THAT... ARE U?

RANDOM THOUGHT 17

WHY IS IT THE SONGS THAT YOU'RE FEELING THE MOST ARE THE ONES THAT TALK ABOUT THE VERY THING THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO GET OVER???

A. STYLE: RIHANNA & GUCCI TATTOOO HEART COLLECTION

NORMALLY IM NOT MUCH OF A GUCCI PERSON BUT I LOVE THE SIMPLICITY OF THE NEW TATTOO COLLECTION INSPIRED BY AND DESIGNED BY MY FASHION ICON RIHANNA.

NOT ONLY IS THIS COLLECTION FIERCE BUT IT SUPPORTS A GREAT CAUSE. THIS IS GUCCI'S FOURTH CAMPAIGN TO BENEFIT UNICEF SUPPORTING EDUCATION EFFORTS, PREVENTION, AND MEDICAL CARE FOR ORPHANS AND CHILDREN AFFECTED BY HIV/AIDS IN SUB-SARAHAN AFRICA. 25% OF THE PROFITS MADE FROM THIS COLLECTION WILL GO TO UNICEF PRODUCTS DEBUTED NOVEMBER 19, 2008 AND WILL BE ON SALE THRU JANUARY 31ST, 2009 (SO FOR THOSE OF YOU LOOKING TO GET ME A KILLER CHRISTMAS GIFT AND ALSO WANT TO SUPPORT A GREAT CAUSE THIS SHOULD BE RIGHT UP YOUR ALLEY).

THE COLLLECTION FEATURES THE TRADITIONAL GUCCIE SYMBOLS AND DESIGNS BUT CREATIVE DIRECTOR FRIDA GIANNINI ( WHO WORKED WITH RIHANNA ON THE CAMPAIGN) CREATED A SPECIAL WHITE VERSION OF THE TATTOO HEART FOR THE LINE.

THE COLLECTION SPORTS GREAT DAY BAGS AND THIS POSH TRAVEL TOTE PICTURED ON THE LEFT (WHICH WILL GO GREAT FOR ALL MY MINI TRIPS NEXT YEAR). THERE ARE ALSO IS A REALLY CUTE PAIR OF FLATS THAT I LIKE IN THE COLLECTION TOO.

WHAT I REALLY AM ENJOYING THAT THERE IS SOMETHING THAT PROVIDES THE ED HARDY STYLE THAT ISN'T ED HARDY!!!!! (OMG IM SO OVER IT... TOO MANY PEOPLE WEAR IT.... ITS A GREAT LINE AND I LOVE IT BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY ITS BECOME A FAD NOT A FASHION DESCION WHICH SUCKS.)

SOL VIEW: FIX FRIDAYS 11/21

(IM SURE THAT THIS IS THE REVIEW THAT EVERYONE HAS BEEN WAITING FOR CONSIDERING SUBSEQUENT BLOGS AND EVENTS)


LAST FRIDAY NIGHT I FOUND MYSELF ONCE AGAIN AT FACES WITH STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT FOR FIX. AS BEFORE I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANYTHING BAD TO SAY ABOUT THE CLUB.... JUST A NEW PERSPECTIVE



LAST WEEK I GOT TO WORK THE DOOR AT FIX WHICH GAVE ME A UNIQUE OPPORTUNITY TO REALLY WATCH THE FLOW OF PEOPLE.



WHEN WE OPENED THE DOORS AT 10 THERE PEOPLE STARTED TO TRICKLE IN ONE BY ONE BUT THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN IT WAS GIRL AFTER GIRL AFTER GIRL AFTER GIRL THAT POURED INTO THE CLUB. NOT ONLY THAT THERE WAS THIS ONE FINE TALL LIGHT SKINNED GUY WITH BRAIDS THAT LOOKED GOOD ENOUGH TO EAT WHO STROLLED UP TO THE DOOR WITH FINE FRIENDS TO MATCH. MORE GUYS WERE COMING IN SOME NOT SO CUTE OTHERS THAT MADE ME WANT TO FALL OUT OF THE WINDOW TO DOUBLE TAKE.


BY 11:45 THE OWNERS WERE TALKING ABOUT CLOSING THE DOORS AND AT 12:30 THEY DID AND I WAS ABLE TO ESCAPE INTO THE CROWD OF DANCING AND DRINKING.

REAL TALK ITS CRAZY BECAUSE YOU WOULD THINK THAT WITH NO NEW FLOW OF PEOPLE THE CLUB WOULD BE WACK BUT IT WAS THE OPPOSITE... PEOPLE WERE HAVING A GREAT TIME DANCING LAUGHING AND CHILLEN. DRINKS WERE IN THE AIR AND THE MUSIC DJ BIRDY BIRD WAS SPINNING WAS GREAT.

I GOT TO DANCE A BIT IN THE CROWD WITH THE GIRLS AND HONESTLY I WAS LOST IN IT.


ONE OTHER THING THAT I WANT TO POINT OUT BEFORE I FINISH THIS WHOLE THING OUT. I WANT TO GO ON RECORD TO COMMEND AISHA KANANI DOTSON FOR THE JOB AND WORK SHE DOES WITH STAR-DOM AND FIX. WORKING WITH HER MYSELF SHE PUTS NOT ONLY PROFESSIONAL GRACE BUT GENUINE PERSONAL INTEREST AND CARE INTO EVERY PERSON SHE WORKS WITH AND ASPECT OF THE COMPANY. SHE IS THE BEST CHOICE FOR A V.I.P. HOST AND MANAGER FOR FIX PAIRING BEAUTY, INTELLECT, AND CHARM.


I'VE LOVED MY TIME AT FIX AND WITH STAR-DOM AND CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR MORE GREAT REVIEWS OF THE CLUB AND TRUST AND BELIEVE THEIR ARE MORE SELL OUT NIGHTS TO COME.

SOL VIEW: SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE AT BELO 11/22

SO CONSIDERING ALL OF THE HEADACHE THAT I HAD BEEN GOING THROUGH THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS I WILL ADMIT THAT I WAS A LITTLE LEARY TO JOIN SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE ENTERTAINMENT SATURDAY NIGHT AT BELO (ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING I WAS ORIGINALLY GOING TO GO THE GO BOYS CONCERT) BUT I WAS MORE THAN SURPRISED


WHO: SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE
WHERE: BELO, SAN DIEGO, CA (SPECIFICALLY THE WHITE ROOM)
WHEN: SATURDAY, NOVEMBER 22,2008
STYLE: URBAN UPSCALE
DJ: DJ FINGAZ AND ONE OTHER GUY (SORRY FOR NOT REMEMBERING IS WAS THERE WHEN FINGAZ WAS SPINNING)
MC: N/A


THE GOOD:

FOR A NEW GROUP TO THE NIGHT SCENE OMG!!!! I HEARD THAT THE GUEST LIST WAS SOME 13 PAGES LONG AND I CAN PERSONALLY ATTEST TO THE FACT THAT THE ROOM AND THE CLUB AS A WHOLE WAS PACKED AND READY TO BURST. I COULD BARELY WALK AROUND WITH A DRINK IN MY HAND (WHICH COULD HAVE BEEN DUE TO HOW MANY I HAD... NO NOT THAT DRUNK HATERZ) FROM HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE THERE.

WHAT WAS CRAZIER WAS THAT EVEN THOUGH SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE WAS IN THE WHITE ROOM YOU SAW THERE STAFF THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE CLUB (WHICH AGAIN WAS JUST AS PACKED AS THE WHITE ROOM) NOT JUST BEING PROMOTERS BUT INTERACTING WITH EVERYONE IN ATTENDANCE. YOU SAW THE LADIES OF ELEGANCE DANCING WITH PEOPLE BUT STILL STAYING CLASSY. NONE OF THEM WHERE SCANDALOUSLY DRESSED BUT I KNOW IF I WAS A GUY I WOULD HAVE WANTED TO APPROACH SOME FOR THEIR BEAUTY & STYLE ALONE AND OTHER FOR HOW DOWN TO EARTH AND LOVELY THEIR SMILES WERE.

YES THIS WAS A COLLABORATIVE EFFORT WITH TWO OTHER COMPANIES ONE OF WHICH IS THE WELL KNOWN DRE VEGAS SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE MADE IT THEIR PRIORITY TO SERVE AND ENTERTAIN THE ENTIRE CLUB AND DID AN EXCELLENT JOB.


THE BAD:

SO RUMOR HAD IT THAT FORMER COSBY KID, DISNEY STAR, AND NEW MOM RAYVEN SIMONE' WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MAKING AN APPEARANCE TO THE CLUB.... ALL I'M GOING TO SAY IS UMMMMM NOOOO.

NOT GOING TO HOLD IT AGAINST THE SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE TOO MUCH BECAUSE STUFF LIKE THAT HAPPENS IT JUST WOULD HAVE BEEN A GOOD LOOK FOR THEM.

(ON A BRIGHTER NOTE MODEL (AND MY FRIEND) NYESHIA NICOLE WAS NOT ONLY AT THE CLUB BUT WAS ACTUALLY IN THE WHITE ROOM PARTYING, ALSO I SAW DJ TECK IN BOOTH WITH DJ FINGAZ AND DJ BIRDY BIRD AND KANANI DOTSON FROM STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT ROAMING THE CLUB)


THE UGLY:


MY ONE PROBLEM THAT I HAVE ALWAYS HAD WITH BELO AS A CLUB IS THAT THROUGHOUT THE THREE MAIN ROOMS IN THE CLUB THE MUSIC ISN'T ALWAYS CONSISTENT. I LEFT THE BOOTH I WAS IN IN THE WHITE ROOM TO GO TO ANOTHER AND HEARD THE SAME SONG THAT JUST WENT OFF... THEN WENT TO THE THIRD ROOM AND HEARD SOME CRAP THAT ALMOST KILLED MY BUZZ.

I JUST WISH THAT THE MUSIC IN THE THREE ROOMS WOULD MESH BETTER SO THAT AS YOU MOVE TO OTHER ROOMS TO CHECK OUT HOT GUYS YOU DON'T STOP AND ROLL YOUR EYES AT THE LAME SONG THAT JUST CAME ON.


WAT YOU NEED TO KNOW:

SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE HAS BEEN PRETTY QUIET FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS WORKING ON THEIR MARKETING STRATEGY AND BUILDING A SILENT FOLLOWING AND NETWORK. SATURDAY NIGHT I SAW WHY THEY CHOSE TO GO THE ROUTE THEY DID. THEY RESEARCHED AND THEN HIT THEIR DEMOGRAPHIC TO ACHIEVE HIGH TURNOUT AND HIGH ENERGY. SAY WHAT YOU WANT ABOUT THE FACT THAT DJ FINGAZ WAS DJING OR THAT IT WAS A COMBINED EFFORT SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE DID MORE THAN THEIR FAIR SHARE TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE NIGHT



MY TAKE:

I WAS IN A SHITTY AND CRAB ASS MOOD FOR THE DAY AND AT BELO THIS TEAM GOT ME BACK HYPED... THEY KEPT ME LAUGHING DANCING AND DRINKING AND IN MORE THAN GOOD SPIRITS. I HAD THE MOST FUN WITH THEM THAN AT ANY CLUB IN THE PAST TWO MONTHS PERIOD END OF DISCUSSION.

I MEET A COUPLE CUTE GUYS... NOT THAT I NEEDED ANYMORE.... ENJOYED THE GREAT BOTTLE SERVICE AND I EVEN MATCHED THE COMPANY COLORS FOR THE NIGHT BLACK, WHITE AND RED.


BOTTOM LINE:

WATCH OUT FOR SOPHISTICATED ELEGANCE

WHO SAW THE TRUEBLOOD FINALE????

SO EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I HAVE BEEN ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH HBO'S NEW SHOW TRUE BLOOD!!! BUT THE ENDING TO THIS SEASON HAS ME SOOOOOO BEYOND WOW!!!!

I WILL ADMIT THAT IT HAD ME ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT THE ENTIRE EPISODE BUT DANG ARE YOU SERIOUS!!!! DID YOU HAVE TO KILL MY CHARACTER THO??? AND THE CHICK THAT BILL MADE.... I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT SEASON TO SEE ALL THE TROUBLE THE SHE BRINGS ON BILL'S RELATIONSHIP WITH SUKI.

ONE THING THAT IM EVEN MORE INTERESTED TO SEE IS WHAT THE REAL DYNAMIC IS BETWEEN SAM AND THE OTHER SHIFTER MARY ANNE... SHE OBIVOUSLY PLOTTED HER WAY INTO TERRA'S LIFE VERY MATICULOUSLY... TOO MATICULOUSY. SHE IS STUNNINGLY GOREGOUS BUT TO TAKE FROM THE SHOW SHE SEEMS LIKE "SATAN IN A SUNDAY HAT"

OVERALL I WOULD HAVE TO SAY THAT TRUEBLOOD HAS BECOMING HANDS DOWN MY FAVORITE SHOW FOLLOWED BY DEXTER, LAW AND ORDER SVU, GOSSIP GIRL, AND FAMILY GUY. THE ISSUES PRESENTED IN THE SHOW ARE ERRIELY REMINESCENT OF SEGREGATION AND CIVIL RIGHTS ISSUES. SECONDLY I LOVE THE COMMENTARY THAT THE SHOW DOES ON THE TREATMENT AND VIEW OF HOMOSEXUALS ACROSS THE COUNTRY.


IM SAD THAT I HAVE TO WAIT TILL SUMMER FOR THE SHOW'S RETURN...

ADDICTED: BRITNEY SPEARS "WOMANIZER"

OK SO EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I HAVE BEEN THE MOST ANTI BRITNEY PERSON THERE EVER WAS BUT I HAVE A NEW FOUND RESPECT FOR HER....

COMMING BACK FROM THE FUCK UP THAT SHE WAS ON IS INSPIRING AND AMAZING NO DOUBT OR LIE

AND HER NEW SONG!!!! OMG IM IN LOVE WITH IT!!!!

DEDICATED TO ALL THE WOMANIZERS

BEING RELEASED FROM STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT

AS OF SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 23, 2008 I WAS LET GO FROM STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT DUE TO ACTIONS DEEMED AGAINST COMPANY INTERESTS AND LOYALTY.


I DON'T REGRET MY INVOLVELMENT IN STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT AND WISH THEM THE BEST IN ALL THEY DO AND THEY WILL HAVE MY SUPPORT IN THERE ULTIMATE GOAL OF FURTHERING THE BLACK ENTERTAINMENT MARKET IN SAN DIEGO. I HOLD NO HARD FEELINGS OR ILL WILL TOWARDS ANYONE OF THEM AND STILL CONSIDER THEM TO BE GOOD FRIENDS AND GREAT PEOPLE TO WORK WITH.

IT IS TRUE THAT I DISAGREED WITH COMMENTS MADE ABOUT A07 ENTERTAINMENT AND TOOK ACTIONS NOT ONLY TO MEDIATE BETWEEN THE COMPANIES TO TRY TO "CALM THE WATERS" AND DEESCALTE THE SITUATION. IT IS ALSO TRUE THAT IN MY EFFORTS TO MEDIATE I DID VOICE MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS REGARDING COMMENTS AND EVENTS THAT TOOK PLACE. I MAINTAIN THAT I DO NOT SEE ANYTHING WRONG WITH THE MARKETING PLAN OF CLUB GLARE AND THAT I ALSO DO NOT SEE FIX FRIDAYS AS ANY LESS OF A HUGE SUCCESS THAN WHAT IT HAS AND CONTINUES TO BE. BEING A FORMER MEMEBER OF A07 ENTERTAINMENT GIVES ME A UNIQUE UNDERSTANDING OF THEIR METHODS AND THEIR WIDELY APPEALING STYLE OF OPERATIONS. MY TIME WITH DJ BIRDY BIRD AND STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT BOTH AS A CONSULTANT AND AS A STAFF MEMBER PROVIDED ME WITH A DEEP UNDERSTANDING OF THEIR FERVENT DESIRE TO STAY TRUE TO THEIR ROOTS WHILE PROVIDING QUALITY ENTERTAINMENT. I CARRY CLOSE RELATIONSHIPS WITH BOTH PARTIES WHICH WERE TESTED TO THEIR LIMITS.

I WANT TO SAY THAT I DO NOT REGRET ANY OF MY ACTIONS.... I BLOGGED EARLIER THIS MONTH THAT I FELT CONFLICTED AND I BELIEVE THAT IN MY CONFLICTED STATE MY ACTIONS REFLECTED MY INNER MOST ETHICS AND MORALS. STAYING LOYAL TO YOUR COMPANY AND ITS INTERESTS IS MANDATORY IN ANY BUISNESS ENDEAVOR BUT WHEN THAT LOYALTY CONFLICTS WITH YOUR PERSONAL STANDARDS, AXIOMS, AND BELIEFS ONE MUST CHOSE A PATH. AS MUCH AS I TRIED TO MEDIATE BETWEEN MY COMPANY LOYALTIES AND PERSONAL LOYALTIES MY EFFORTS WERE SEEN TO BE ACTIONS OF TAKING SIDES. HONESTLY I CANNOT SAY THAT THIS BELIEF IS TOTALLY WRONG.

AT THE END OF THE DAY I DID CHOOSE TO ACT IN A SITUATION THAT I COULD HAVE STAYED QUIET AND TO THE "BACK OF THE ROOM", SO TO SPEAK OF. I DIDN'T HAVE TO VOICE ANY OPINION BECAUSE IT WENT AGAINST THE OVERALL VIEW OF THE COMPANY. I DID LET MY PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS, BELIEFS, AND ETHICS GET IN THE WAY OF BEING UNCONDITIONALLY LOYAL TO STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT.


WHEN ALL THINGS ARE SAID AND DONE I HAVE A HIGHER CALL TO THE TRUTH AND WHAT IS RIGHT.... AND I BELIEVE THAT ANY PERSONAL COMMENTS OR BELIEF THAT I SHARED WERE SUPPORTING WHAT IS RIGHT. IF YOU'RE GOING TO STICK TO A BELIEF AND SING IT OUT FOR THE WORLD TO HEAR YOU'RE GOING TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THOSE WORDS. YOU CAN ONLY POKE A SLEEPING DOG SO MANY TIMES BEFORE IT IS GOING TO WAKE UP AND WHEN IT DOES YOU ARE SUBJECT TO ITS ACTIONS BEING THAT THEY ARE A PRODUCT OF YOUR OWN.

IN A MEDIATION ON IS REQUIRED TO PRESENT ONE PARTY'S VIEWS AND INTENTIONS IN WAY THAT THE OTHER PARTY CAN UNDERSTAND AND HOPEFULLY ACCEPT. I ATTEMPTED TO DO THIS WHILE HOLDING THE BELIEF THAT NOT ONLY WAS THE SITUATION TRIVIAL AND RIDICULOUS BUT THAT IT REALLY ONLY REQUIRED BOTH PARTIES TO DO WHAT THEY DO BEST AND TO SEE EACH OTHER AT THE FINISH LINE WHEN THE DUST SETTLED AND CLEARED.

TO A07 ENTERTAINMENT I WANT TO SAY THAT I LOVE ALL OF YOU AS FAMILY AND I APPOLOGIZE IF AT ANY POINT IT SEEMED LIKE I DIDN'T OR WAS ACTING CONTRARY TO THAT. I BELIEVE THAT I WAS ABLE TO BECOME WHAT I AM IN THE INDUSTRY BECAUSE OF MY TIME SPENT APART OF OF A07 AND THAT I AM STILL GROWING AND EVOLVING IN THIS INDUSTRY BECAUSE OF THE ROLE THEY PLAYED IN MY CAREER EARLY ON.

I TRULY DO APPOLOGIZE TO DJ BIRDY BIRD AND THE RESET OF STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT THAT IT IS BELIEVED AND FELT THAT I BETRAYED THEM AND THAT I WAS NOT REPRESENTING THEM IN THE BEST WAY. MY INTENT WAS NEVER TO DO SO BUT TO PREVENT SOMETHING TRIVIAL FROM AFFECTION THE AWESOME PROGRESSION THAT WAS BEING MADE. I HAVE NOTHING BUT RESPECT FOR THEM AND WHAT THEY DO AND AS I SAID EARLIER WANT THEM TO ONLY SUCCEED IN ALL OF THEIR ENDEAVORS AND GOALS.

THE SILVER LINING OF REJECTION

SOOOO YESTERDAY I GOT TO SPEND SOMETIME WITH new prospect, WHICH WAS COOL. BUT SEXUALLY FRUSTRATING.... ORIGINALLY HE WAS SUPPOSSED TO COME BACK BY BY BUT OF COURSE BECAUSE HE IS THE ULTIMATE FLUKE IT DIDN'T HAPPEN.


SO ME BEING LAME OLE ME I DECIDED TO TEXT HIM BEING CUTE.


A: I WANT YOU

NP: WHY?

A: CUZ I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE SILLY

NP: WHY? WAT MAKES YOU WANT ME?

A: CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF I LIKE THE IDEA OF BEING WITH YOU.

NP: WELL I DON'T THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA.

A: UMM WOW

A: OK... I GUESS. IM SORRY I WASTED YOUR TIME


CONFUSED AND BEWILDERED I LAID IN MY BED THEN CURLED INTO A BALL. WHAT HAD JUST HAPPENED? MORE IMPORTANTLY WHAT THE HECK LED TO ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I CERTAINLY DIDN'T KNOW. A PART OF ME WAS ACTUALLY SAD AT THIS POINT BECAUSE I THE KID WAS ACTUALLY STARTING TO GROW ON ME....


AS I BEGAN TO BEAT MYSELF UP OVER THIS WHOLE CONFUSING INCIDENT I BEGAN TO GET CALMER AND CALMER AND MADDER AND MADDER.


WHAT WAS SOO WRONG WITH ME?

WHY DOES STUFF JUST NOT WORK AT ALL?


MAYBE I NEED TO TAKE A BREAK.... YEAH ITS TIME TO TAKE A BREAK.... IS TIME TO MAKE A CLEAN BREAK.


SO A SINGLE TEXT MESSAGE WAS SENT TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.

A: I CAN'T TALK TOYOU ANYMORE


ABOUT 13 PEOPLE IN MY PHONE GOT THAT MESSAGE. ANOTHER TWO GOT MORE PERSONALIZED VERSIONS:


A: I CAN'T PRETEND ANYMORE... THIS THING WITH US ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE -medlor

A: YOU AND I WILL NEVER BE BACK TOGETHER.... I KNOW YOU DON'T LOVE ME.- idiot


SOME PEOPLE DIDN'T EVEN GET THE BENEFIT OF A TEXT MESSAGE THEY JUST GOT DELETED FROM MY PHONE COMPLETELY.... INCLUDING lust, idiot, AND YES, him.


him WAS PARTICULARILY DIFFECULT TO DELETE BUT I DID IT, BOTH NUMBERS IN FACT. YES I SENT A MEMO OUT ABOUT IT BUT THE FACT OF THE MATTER WAS IT WAS TIME FOR him TO COME BACK ON HIS OWN WITHOUT ME. AS LONG AS HIS NUMBER WAS THERE IT WAS A CRUTCH, IT WAS TEMPTAION. IF I TRULY WAS DONE AND OVER him LIKE I SAID THAT I WAS THEN I NEEDED TO JUST BE DONE AND OVER WITH HIM. IF I MEAN SOMETHING TO him HE WILL CONTACT ME.


AS FOR THE OTHER NUMBERS... lust NEEDED TO GO BECUASE WE JUST ARE GOING NO WHERE BUT GETTING ATTACHED AND IRRITABLE OFF NOTHING. idiot JUST NEEDED TO END HONESTLY


THE ONLY OTHER THING THAT THIS WHOLE REJECTION THAT new prospect DID WAS GIVE ME THE GUTS TO TELL secret HOW I FELT AND THAT I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM.... IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE ANYSENSE FOR ME TO TALK TO HIM FOR NO REASON AND FOR NO PURPOSE.... MOREOVER IT DOESN'T MAKE ANYSENSE FOR ME TO HAVE A BUNCH OF GUYS THAT I DON'T LIKE AROUND ME AND NOT TO TELL THE ONE THAT I ACTUALLY LIKE THAT I DO.


SO BY THE END OF ALL OF THESE MESSAGES A LOT OF PEOPLE HADN'T REPLIED TO ME.... SOME WONDERED WHY WE WEREN'T GOING TO BE TALKING ANYMORE (I JUST NEED SPACE AND MORE IMPORTANTLY SOME PEOPLE ARE THERE FOR THE WRONG REASONS) medlor FOUGHT IT BUT IN THE END WHO KNOWS... WITH secret I HAVE NO IDEA... BUT ONE THING I DO KNOW


RIGHT NOW A MAN IS THE LAST THING THAT I NEEDED TO WORRY ABOUT NOW

SOL FOOD 11/24

"THE EVENTS IN OUR LIVES HAPPEN IN A SEQUENCE IN TIME BUT IN THEIR SIGNIFICANCE TO OURSELVES , THEY FIND THEIR OWN ORDER... THE CONTINOUS THREAD OF REVELATIONS."-EUDORA WELTY

REFLECTIONZ: UNTITLED

SO WITHOUT ANY SHADOW OF A DOUBT THIS PAST WEEKEND HELL THIS PAST WEEK HAD TO HAVE BEEN THE MOST TAXING AND TIME CONSUMING ONE IN A LONG TIME (THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I NEED TO BLOG ABOUT ITS NOT FUNNY.... BE PATIENT)....
A LOT OF THINGS CHANGED AND EVEN MORE LIGHT BULBS CAME ON FOR ME.

BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING I FIGURED SOMETHING OUT ABOUT MYSELF... ITS OKAY TO BE ALONE AND TO FLY FOR YOURSELF

SOL VIEW: THE AUTO BAILOUT

SO THE STORY THAT HAS ME REALING WRITE NOW ON CAPITOL HILL IS THIS WHOLE AUTO BAILOUT SITUATION....

THE PAST FEW DAYS THE BIG THREE CEO'S HAVE BEEN ON CAPITIOL HILL BEGGING FOR LACK OF A BETTER WORD FOR GOVERNMENT AID IN LIGHT OF HOW CRAP THE ECONOMY IS.

IRONICALLY ENOUGH WHEN THEY ARRIVED IN TO DC FOR THESE HEARINGS TO TESTIFY IT WAS ON THEIR PRIVATE JETS... TRIPS THAT COST $20,000 OF COMPANY FUNDS TO MAKE. WHEN ASKED IF THEY WOULD BE WILLING TO SELL THERE PRIVATE JETS FOR THE GOOD AND BETTERMENT OF THE COMPANY ALL THREE ANSWERED NO....

THIS MIND YOU WASN'T THE MOST DISTURBING OF THE EVENTS THAT CAME UP... WHEN ASKED ABOUT MAKING MORE ENERGY EFFECIENT AND "GREEN" CARS THE CEO'S WERE BEWILDERED. I UNDERSTAND THAT THE IDEAL AMERICAN AUTO WAY IS A HUGE GAS GUZZLER WITH RIMS AND A COWBOY HAT BUT COME ON. THE AVERAGE AMERICAN FAMILY IS STRUGGLING TO STAY EMPLOYED AND KEEP FOOD ON THE TABLE... HOW BUISNESS SMART IS IT FOR THESE COMPANIES TO CONTINUE MANUFACTURING CARS THAT R IMPRACTICAL FOR THE TIME PERIOD??? THATS LIKE TRYING TO SELL ME FRED FLINSTONE'S CAR, ITS LUDICRIS AND IMPRACTICAL.

SO MY QUESTION IS THIS.... IF THE BIG THREE AREN'T GOING TO CHANGE THEIR SPENDING HABBITS OR THERE PRODUCT.... Y SHOULD MY TAX DOLLARS SAVE THEM???

ADDICTED: BUSTA RHYMES: ARAB MONEY

FIRST AND FOREMOST THE BEAT ON THIS GOES!!!! BUT EVEN MORE I LIKE WHAT ITS TALKIN ABOUT FUCK ALL THIS SMALL SHIT GET MONEY LIKE AN ARAB PRINCE!!!

SOL VIEW: DRAMA

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING THAT REALLY ISN'T THAT SERIOUS BUT HAS BECOME THAT SERIOUS????


THAT'S ME RIGHT NOW.


AND WHAT'S SUPPER GAY IS THAT I SEE BOTH POINTS BUT REALLY THINK THAT THE WHOLE THING IS JUVENILE.... THERE IS ENOUGH FOR EVERYONE TO GET PAID AND MADE ( OOO I LIKE THAT).

REAL TALK INSTEAD OF CARING WHAT THE NEXT PERSON IS DOING WORRY ABOUT U... USE WHATS GOING ON TO BETTER YOUR SITUATION AS A WHOLE

CALI LUV: GO BOYS & PAUL WALL @ IRON WOK

SOO THE go boys AND I GO WAY WAY WAY WAY BACK... LIKE ON SOME BEFORE THE HYPE SATUS!!! THEY ARE PERFORMING THIS SATURDAY NIGHT IN TEMECULA,CA WITH PAUL WALL @ IRON WOK.

SO CHECK THEM OUT AND LOOK FOR THE EXCLUSIVE INTERVIEW COMMING AT THE END OF THIS WEEK.

SOL FOOD 11/19

DIE BECAUSE ITS TIME NOT BECAUSE ITS HARD

ADDICTED: SANAA LATHAN

EVER SINCE LOVE AND BASKETBALL I HAVE BEEN ADDICTED TO SANAA LATHAN AND HER WHOLE STYLE... ITS NOT HIGH MAINTENACE AND ITS SUPER SASSY AND CHIK...

SHE MAKES BEING A SUCCESSFUL, BEAUTIFUL BLACK FEMALE SEEM EFFORTLESS

PHOTO FROM COMPLEXMAG.COM

JIM JONES: SUCCESSFUL, SWAGG, AND SEXY

I'M SORRY JULEZ I LOVE YOU BUT THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVE PRODUCERS/ARTISTS/STYLE ICON'S OUT RIGHT NOW!!! AND HE'S ON THE COVER OF THE DECEMBER/JANUARY ISSUE OF COMPLEX????

DIPSET BITCH!!!!

RANDOM THOUGHT 15

OK SO MY FIRST BLOG FOR TODAY WAS GOING TO BE ABOUT EITHER THE AUTO BAIL OUTS OR HILLARY BEING A SECRETARY OF STATE CANNIDATE..... BUT THEN NO....
SO HERE'S THE DISH...


I DON'T DEMAND A LOT IN THE RELATIONSHIP DEPARTMENT... IM FAIRLY UNDERSTANDING OF A LOT OF SHIT BUT........ THIS NEW PROSPECT HAS OFFICIALLY COME TO THE END OF MY TOLERANCE.
IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE BOLD ENOUGH TO DUBB YOURSELF AS MY BOYFRIEND OR MAIN GUY THEN YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO BE AROUND TO HOLD THE SPOT DOWN. OTHERWISE I CAN AND WILL BECOME DISTRACTED.


IM NOT SAYING THAT IM A PLAYER OR A CHEATER.... IM SAYING THAT IN THE EARLY STAGES OF A RELATIONSHIP EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT I AM EASILY BORED AND SET OFF BY A PERSON I PREVIOUSLY WAS SUPER INTO AND AT THE END OF THE DAY THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST THEM UNLESS THE ARE AROUND AND DOIN THERE JOB ON A REGULAR....

THE STUPIDITY I DEAL WITH AT MY JOB

OKKK HERE WE GO AGAIN..... CUZ IM SITTING HERE AT MY DESK AT WORK.... AND GETTING HUNG UP ON BY BITCH ASSS IGNORANT SHIT FACED DINGLEBERRY EATERS!!!!

FUCKIN LISTEN TO WHAT IM SAYING. CUZ WHEN YOU CALL BACK AND BITCH BECAUSE YOUR STILL GETTING SHIT IN THE MAIL AND THE REP SAYS

"IM SORRY SIR ITS NOT COMMING FROM OUR MAILERS YOU NEED TO CONTACT AARP MEMBERSHIP"
YOU'RE GOING TO LOOK LIKE THE DOUCHE GARGLER THAT YOU FUCKIN ARE

LISTEN AND FUCKIN HEAR ME

AFTER THE NIGHT I HAD LAST NIGHT I FEEL THE NEED TO EXPLAIN SOMETHINGS ABOUT MYSELF...
JUST BECAUSE IM NOT GHETTO DOESN'T MEAN THAT I WONT JUMP DOWN SOMEBODY'S MUTHA FUCKIN THROAT FOR BEIN A FUCKIN DICK SHIT.

REAL TALK... I THINK THAT PEOPLE HAVE GOTTEN SHIT FUCKED UP BECAUSE I ACTUALLY LIKE BEING PROFESSIONAL, I LIKE BEING PROPER, AND BECAUSE I LIKE TO LOOK CUTE. FUCK ALL THAT SHIT RIGHT NOW.... ACT LIKE YOU'RE SO MUCH THE SHIT THAT YOU CAN WALK ALL OVER ME AND TRY TO RUN GAME LIKE IM IN PEWEE FOOTBALL AND YOUR A PRO RUNNIN BACK...


I'LL LIGHT YOUR ASS UP AND SHOW YOU WHO YOUR MAMA AND DADDY IS!!! THATS NOT A THREAT ITS A MUTHA FUCKIN PROMISE!!! IM NOT ABOUT TO LAY THE FUCK DOWN FOR ANYBODY TO RUN SHOP ON ME THAT SHIT IS DONE AND OVER WITH... YOU SHOULDA DONE IT BACK WHEN I WAS JUST A FUCKIN UGLY ASS DORK WHO PLAYED SPORTS FOR PATRICK HENRY.


IM COOL WITH BEING WRONG AND NOT BEING IN TUNE WITH THE HEARTBEAT OF THE STREETS ALL THE TIME BUT DON'T TRY TO PUT ME ON BLAST BECAUSE I SPOKE THE FUCKIN TRUTH FROM A DIFFERENT MINDSET THAN YOU AND FOR DAMN SURE DON'T FUCKIN TRY TO CRITICIZE MY ASS AND NOT BE PREPARED TO GIVE SOME FUCKIN SOLUTIONS OR OPTIONS TO THE PROBLEM.


MORE IMPORTANTLY DON'T FUCKIN BLINDSIGHT MY ASS AND BRING UP SHIT THAT HAS ALREADY BEEN DISCUSSED AND RESOLVED JUST TO FURTHER YOUR OWN FUCKIN AGENDA.


YES I AM HEATED BECAUSE SHIT LIKE THIS FUCKIN PISSES ME OFF... I HAVE WORKED MY ASS OFF TO BE IN URBAN ENTERTAINMENT THUS FAR AND TO CONTINUE TO DEVELOP MYSELF AS A PROMOTER, PHOTOGRAPHER, AND BUISNESS WOMAN AND I'LL BE DAMMED IF I LET SOMEONE TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE ANY LESS THE FUCKIN SHIT THAT I AM.


YEAH I FUCKIN SAID IT YOU CAN PRINT IT AND GO TO CHURCH WITH IT!!!!

A. STYLE: SEXY TOM BOY

SO YEAH ONE OF THE STYLES YOU ALWAYS SEE ME GO BACK TO IS THAT SEXY TOM BOY LOOK....

BEFORE THE HYPE: TALOULA ANN

MY RIDE OR DIE PARTNER IS SOOO DIEN ON ME!!!!

TALOULA ANN I LOVE YOU!!!!

YES IM TALKIN ABOUT MY CAR!!! MY JACKED UP MAZDA PROTEGEE 5 THAT I ABSOLUETLY ADORE!!! IT WAS A PRESENT FROM MY GRAND FATHER AND DESPITE ALL THE CRAP WRONG WITH IT NOW (WHICH IS ALL MY FAULT) I STILL LOVE HER AND WON'T GIVE HER UP!!!!

BEFORE ALL THE HYPE ITS WHAT I DROVE AND DAMN IT I WANT TO DRIVE IT EVEN AFTER IVE BOUT THE NEW BENZ OR WHATEVER... ITS LIKE COMFORT FOOD ALWAYS GOOD ALWAYS RELIABLE.

YOU'VE BEEN THE BEST CAR IN THE ENTIRE WORLD TO ME... DESPITE HOW NEGLECTFUL IVE BEEN LATELY. I LOVE THAT YOU STILL TRY TO GET ME FROM A TO BE DESPITE WHATS GOING ON!!! YOU'RE GOING TO THE DR SOON MA!!!!!

LIL WAYNE & DJ DRAMA: GANGSTA GRILLZ DEDICATION 3

ALRIGHT I KNOW THAT I HAVE BEEN SAYIN FOREVER AND A DAY THAT I'M NOT A WAYNE FAN... BUT REAL TALK EVEN I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT HE COMES UP WITH FOR THIS MIXTAPE

SOL FOOD 11/17

WE ALL SEE THE SAME THINGS EVERY DAY... BUT HAVE DIFFERENT OUTLOOKS ON IT... THAT'S WHAT MAKES LIFE LIFE...

ALL THESE OUTLOOKS COME TOGETHER TO CREATE SOMETHING NEW TO LOOK AT AND BE APART OF.

SO HATE MY OPINION IF YOU WANT TO... AND HATE ME TOO... BUT YOU JUST PROVED MY POINT.

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: 2 MY REAL FRIEND

DEAR

I JUST WANT TO TAKE A MOMENT OUT TO SAY HOW MUCH YOU REALLY MEAN TO ME.....

I KNOW WE GO BACK AND FORTH ALL THE TIME ABOUT BEING FRIENDS AND HOMIES, BUT IT GOES SO MUCH DEEPER THAN THAT FOR ME. CUZ YOU'RE MY INSPIRATION, MOTIVATION, AND HERO.


WATCHIN YOU GO THROUGH MAKES ME WANT TO BE BETTER SO THAT I CAN BE A BETTER FRIEND AND GIVE YOU EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT. REAL TALK WHEN YOU'RE SAD IT REALLY MAKES ME SAD. WHEN YOU'RE NOT DOING WELL IM NOT BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE IT BETTER. I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO YOU WHENEVER I WANT, I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE YOU ALL THE TIME.

I'LL ADMIT SOMETIMES I GET JEALOUS BECUASE I CAN'T SEE YOU AS MUCH AS OTHER PEOPLE DO. AND YEAH ITS GAY AND ITS LAME BUT THATS BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY YOU'RE ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE THAT I STILL FEEL LIKE I CAN TRUST IN THIS FUCKED UP WORLD AND IM SCARED ONE DAY IM GOING TO LOOK LEFT AND RIGHT AND YOU WON'T BE THERE WITH ME .


YOU'RE SOOO BEAUTIFUL DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE FOR ANY REASON. OUTSIDE AND INSIDE YOU RANK A MILLION ON THE SCALE OF 1 TO 10. YOU KEEP IT REALLY, MAKE ME LAUGH, AND COULD KICK MY ASS EVERY DAY OF THE WEEK. I KNOW THAT SOMETIMES IT HURTS... BUT YOU DESERVE THE BEST AND WE ALL KNOW THAT EVEN THO IT MIGHT NOT BE SHOWEN THE BEST HE REALLY IS THE BEST FOR YOU AND HE WOULD GIVE HIS SOUL TWICE OVER FOR YOU JUST TO SMILE.


I REMEMBER WHEN I FIRST MET YOU WE WERE TALKIN LIKE WE HAD BEEN FRIENDS FOR YEARS BUT WE WEREN'T. I NEVER WANTED YOU TO TEACH ME ANYTHING I JUST THOUGHT YOU WERE COOL... AND CHILL. BUT YOU DECIDED THAT YOU WOULD TEACH ME TO BE LIKE YOU... AND THAT WAS CRAZY TO ME BECAUSE I KNEW THAT WOULD MEAN I WOULD BECOME ONE OF THE BEST. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT MONTHS LATER I WOULD BE LOOKIN AT YOU TRIPPEN AT THE THOUGHT OF YOU NOT BEING AROUND.

YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME AND STILL ARE WILLING TO STICK AROUND AND BE REAL WHICH MEANS EVERYTHING... YOU LOOK OUT FOR ME EVEN WHEN IM TOO NAIVE TO SEE THAT YOU'RE RIGHT. IVE BEEN READY TO GIVE UP AND YOU KEEP ME GOING. I PROMISE THOSE WEEKENDS UP WITH YOU WERE THE BEST I HAD ALL YEAR BECAUSE I JUST GOT TO BE ME RAW, REAL AND UNCUT. I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE THE MODEL, THE PROMOTER, OR THE REGAL CHIK, I JUST GOT TO BE DORKY OL ME.


I NEVER THANKED YOU FOR BEING THAT SAVING GRACE FOR ME BEFORE AND I JUST NEEDED TO DO THAT .... AND TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE THAT REAL FRIEND THAT KEEPS ME SANE.

NO EQUILIBRIUM HERE

I JUST GOT OUT OF A 30 MINUTE SHOWER....



I THOUGHT MAYBE THE WATER WOULD HELP.... BUT IT DIDN'T.



CONFUSED, FRUSTRATED, AND NUMB





TOO MANY EMOTIONS IN TOO SHORT OF A TIME. I'M WONDERING ABOUT PEOPLE I THOUGHT WERE IN STONE.





FORGIVNESS IS SUCH A FUNNY THING WITH ME... CUZ IT REALLY DOES MEAN THAT IT NEVER HAPPENED. THAT THE SLATE IS TRULY CLEAN...



BUT HURTING ME IS LIKE A PERMANENT KNIFE IN MY BACK... IT CONSTANTLY IS BEING TWISTED... AND WHEN THERE ARE MULTIPLE ONES IT DOESN'T HELP.


WHICH WAY DO I GO IT USED TO BE CLEAR BUT NOW IT ISN'T. I WAS HOPING THE WATER AND MUSIC WOULD HELP BUT IT DIDN'T.

THE FIRST MEETING

SOO THE MOMENT THAT EVERYONE HAS BEEN WAITING FOR....



k AND I'S FIRST FACE TO FACE SINCE THE BREAK UP AND ALL THE DRAMA AND BULLSHIT.





I LOOKED F*IN AWESOME BY THE WAY TOTALLY ON MY RHIANNA STEEZ... (BLACK LEGGINGS PINK AND WHITE TANKS WITH A GRAY AND BLACK VEST, BLACK JACKET AND PINK SCARF) AND DESPITE THE FACT THAT HE LOOKED... NORMAL IT WAS HARD NOT TO LOOK AT HIM.



BEING WITH mr. b HELPED BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE I HAD AN EXCUSE TO JUST TREAT HIM LIKE AIR. BUT TOWARDS THE END OF THE NIGHT HE DID CORNER ME AT THE CONSESSION STAND AND GOT HIS HUG THAT HE WANTED AND THEN WE TALKED...





k: "DID YOU UNDERSTAND THE TEXT MESSAGES I SENT YOU?"



A: "HANG ON I REALLY NEED TO GET FOOD IN ME IM ABOUT TO GET CRANKY"



k:" BUT DID YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEANT"



A:" LET ME GET THIS AND THEN WE CAN TALK"





SO WE WENT OUTSIDE... WITH ME FEELING LIKE I WAS WALKING TO MY DEATH....



k:" I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU.... HONSETLY AND WITH GOD AS MY WITNESS THAT WAS THE LAST THING THAT I EVER WANTED TO DO TO YOU."



A:" I UNDERSTAND THAT.... THERE WAS JUST TOOO MUCH STUFF FROM TOOO MANY PEOPLE. YOU GOTTA UNDERSTAND... PEOPLE THAT DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WE WERE TALKIN LIKE THAT WERE TELLIN ME THE SHIT YOU WERE DOIN.'



k: "WHAT DO THEY KNOW... AND WHAT WERE YOU SPYIN OR KEEPIN TABS ON ME?"



A:"NOT EVEN"



k:" ITS WHAT I TOLD YOU... I WANTED TO AND TRIED TO GIVE YOU MY HEART WHEN IT WAS STILL FUCKED UP BEFORE LETTING IT HEAL. HONESTLY I WAS TORN BETWEEN YOU AND MY EX AND CHOSE HER AND HURT YOU AT THE SAME TIME... AND TRUST ME.. I PAYED FOR IT A HUNDRED FOLD."

A:"IM NOT EVEN TRIPPEN OFF THAT... IM TALKIN ABOUT YOU AND mini bug"

k:" I WASN'T WITH HER!"

A:" SO YOU HAVEN'T KICKED IT WITH HER OR ANYTHING? LOOK WE BOTH HAVE THAT ONE PERSON IN EACH OTHERS LIFE THAT SETS THE OTHER OFF IN MINE IT WAS coward IN YOURS IT WAS mini bug. AND REAL TALK ANYTIME I HEARD BOTH OF YOUR NAMES IN THE SAME BREATH IT DROVE ME UP A WALL."

k:" I'M SORRY I NEVER DID ANYTHING WITH HER WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER."

A:" OR MY SISTER?"

k:" NO I DIDN'T AND I REALLY STOPPED TALKING TO HER AFTER SHE SAID THAT. WE WERE COOL BUT WHEN I KNEW THAT I WANTED YOU THATS ALL THERE WAS FOR US.... I CAN UNDERSTAND IF YOU NEVER FOR GIVE ME... AND AM NOT ASKIN YOU TO I JUST NEEDED YOU TO KNOW THAT I WASN'T TRYING TO HURT YOU."

A:" FORGIVING IS HARD BECAUSE FOR ME IT REALLY DOES MEAN WIPING THE SLATE CLEAN. AND AFTER EVERYTHING AND SO MUCH BAD I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO FORGET IT."

k:" HE (coward) HURT YOU AND DIDN'T GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT IT.... I HATED KNOWING THAT I HAD HURT YOU AND THAT IT HAD TO FOLLOW HIS FUCK UP."

A:" WELL I DO FORGIVE YOU BECAUSE I CAN'T NOT"

k:" CAN I HAVE A HUG PLEASE?... AND YES I'VE BEEN LOW KEY CHECKIN YOU OUT ALL NIGHT."

A:" YEAH"

k:" I'M SORRY"

A: "I KNOW... I MISSED YOU."

k:" I'VE ALWAYS MISSED YOU... AND LOVED YOU."

A:" HUH?"


AND HE WENT BACK INSIDE BEFORE WE COULD FINISH. BUT YEAH.... NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS CONFUSED BEYOND MEASURE. AND SAD AS IT WAS... PART OF ME WANTED TO KISS HIM AND JUST LET THINGS BE.

BUT... THE NEXT DAY SURE AS SILVER... k GAVE ME EVEN MORE TO THINK ABOUT THAN HE HAD THAT NIGHT.




OH YEAH FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE WONDERING... YES I HAVE TOLD k THAT HE HAS BEEN GETTING BLASTED ON THIS BLOG. SO STOP ASKING

A.STYLE: XTRAVAGANT NAILS VS CLASSIC

SOOOO MY NORMAL STYLE IS CHIPPED BLACK OR ALL BLACK NAIL POLISH... CLEAN, HOT, AND ROCKIN!!!

BUT LATELY PARTIALLY DUE TO carrie's INFLUENCE I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT TRYING SOMETHING A BIT MORE EXTRAVAGANT... SO YOU TELL ME AND BE THE JUDGE...

XTRAVAGANT OR CLASSIC TO BRING IN THE NEW YEAR????

SOL FOOD 11/14

TAKING THE HIGH ROAD ISN'T SUPPOSSED TO BE EASY ITS SUPPOSSED TO MAKE U FEEL RIGHT.

WHY BOTHER (secret SMILEZ)

I STARTED TO POST A LETTER I WROTE him UP HERE... AND HONESTLY STILL MIGHT...

BUT 4 TIMES A LADY CAME ON....

AND ALL I COULD DO WAS SMILE THINKING ABOUT YOU... I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT THE HURT ANYMORE CUZ I HAVE secret AND RIGHT NOW... IT MIGHT NOT BE EVERTHING
BUT ITS EXACTLY WAT WAS NEEDED TO REMIND ME THAT THERE IS JUST BETTER THAN him THERE ALWAYS WAS

SO WHY BOTHER TO PUT him OUT THERE JUST YET

ADDICTED: KERRY HILSON'S ENERY

I'M DEDICATING THIS SONG TO him BECAUSE THIS IS EXACTLY WAT YOU DID TO ME....


Artist: Keri Hilson
Album: Unknown
Title: Energy

I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
Cuz I put to much energy in him and me
Can't wait till I get through this phase
Cuz its killing me
To bad we can't re-write our own history

Such a mystery when hes here with me
It's hard to believe I'm still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain't how its supposed to be

I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
We gotta re-reverse the chemistry
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
Energy, My Energy
Taking all my energy
Energy, My Energy

Seems only like yesterday, Not even gravity
Could keep your feet off the ground when u go to me
How can two be as one
We've become to divided now
Theres no use hiding from my misery

Such a mystery when hes here with me
It's hard to believe I'm still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out

This ain't how its supposed to be

I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy (Oh, Yeah)
We gotta re-reverse the chemistry (We gotta re-)
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energyEnergy, My Energy
Taking all my energy (Energy)
Energy (Energy), My Energy (Energy)
Taking all of
Taking all of (my energy)

Cause your taking all of my energy
I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
We gotta reverse the chemistry
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy

I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy (Oh)
We gotta reverse the chemistry (Oh, Oh)
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy (Energy)
Energy (Energy), My Energy (Oh)
Taking all my energy (Oh-Oh)
Energy, My Energy (Taking all of me)
Taking all of

Ya killing me
Ya taking all of me yeah, oh
This love is taking all of my energy

SHAWTZ CLASSIC: HEROES, DREAMS, & HOPE

BIG UPS TO MAIN EVENT AND THE WHOLE SKY NO LIMIT FAM!!! MISS YOU GUYS MUCH CAN'T WAIT FOR THE TOUR IN '09

BEFORE THE HYPE: NOSE TAPPING

SO I'M BRINGING BACK THE NOSE TAP!!!

THIS WAS AN N.S.I.G. THING (NOT SO INNOCENT GURLZ), WHEN YOU SEE A GUY THAT YOU WANT TO SNAG YOU POINT HIM OUT WITH A NOSE TAP.

LAUGH IF YOU WANT...

THE STORY BEHIND IT.... TAPPING YOUR NOSE IS SUPPOSSED TO BE THE SAME SENSATION AS WHEN YOU PRESS ON YOUR G SPOT...

SO IF YOU THINK THE MAN GOES, TAPP IT UP!!!

EXERPT OF FETTY INTERVIEW ON STREETCRED.COM

CHECK OUT A SNIPPET FROM FETTY aka RAMELLE KNIGHT'S INTERVIEW WITH STREETCRED.COM.



FOR THE FULL INTERVIEW VISIT http://www.streetcred.com/?page=features/entry&id=420


"Fetty: My name is Fetty. I'm from NYC, originally from the BX. Fetty is a very creative person, entrepreneur, trying to show everybody in the world that I got a lot more things going on than being a professional skater, we pushed that to the side a little bit and now it's all about the artist named Fetty. We want everybody to stay tuned in and listen to the music and be ready for everything that's about to go off.



TW: When's your album dropping?



F: Right now we are holding back for a sec; what we're focusing on is trying to promote myself to the people. Got a mixtape. I'm doing a few mixtapes right now. My first mixtape is called 'Everybody Loves Fetty'. We're gonna do like three volumes of that. And then, you know, we've got a couple of collaborations going on, trying to get a few different people to rock with me. The game is... a little crazy nowadays 'cuz everybody like producers, see, they all think they Kanye West now, so I'm the type of person that goes straight to the streets and there's these new guys that are saying they want $30,000 for a beat, you're like you're not even known in the streets. The game is a little funny right now with everybody but we're going to do what we do regardless. I've been here since I was a little kid. I can tell between a ten year producer and a two year producer, but you got to grind man, just like me - you know what I mean? I don't expect tomorrow to be a platinum artist, million dollars, this and that, you got to do what you got to do first to get in the game. A lot of people just want that quick buck and that's just not how it is.



TW: How is the skating Vs. Rap dynamic for you right now



F: With the rap thing I'm like 99%. I was writing raps as a little kid, but I was just messing around. The past few years, it's like...it's like poetry to me. Like in school, one of my favorite classes was poetry class. I liked to explain what was going on in my world in my own, you know, creative way. So it was like , a lot of things been going on for the past 4 or 5 years that gave me this power to just starting to writing all these crazy songs, got all these creative things going on, so, I just decided to get back into it serious.



With skating, I've been doing that now for like 8 years, the first three years was like, just messing around, by the 4th/5th year I turned pro you know, and then I did a lot of travelling with that, and skating is all cool and everything. I like everything about it you know. I don't like a lot of people that are involved in it, but I still live the sport just like I live rap, but right now, you know, Fetty is the artist.



TW: So you're going to keep skating then?"







FOR MORE ON RAMELLE KNIGHT HIT http://www.ramelleknight.com/



SGS OUT

SOL FOOD 11/13

IF ALL ELSE FAILS SHUT UP, SIT BACK, AND LAUGH

SECRET

IM SOOOO ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW..... LIKE IM SMILING SO MUCH ITS SCARRY BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THINGS MIGHT NOT GO THE WAY THAT I WANT BUT CAN'T HELP IT.....

I SWEAR THE RESPONSE MADE MY HEART JUMP OUTTA MY CHEST... AND TALKING TO YOU MADE A BAD DAY SOOOO GOOOD. I MEAN HOW FUCKIN CRAZY IS THIS.... IT'S YOU.... I MEAN YOU AND IM SO BLOWN BACK RIGHT NOW

IM SCARED SHITLESS BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU. IM HAVE NO CLUE HOW THIS COULD WORK BUT ALREADY WENT TO SLEEP DREAMING ABOUT YOU LAST NIGHT.

AND EVEN THO THIS MORNING DIDN'T START OUT THE WAY I WANTED TO.... THINKING ABOUT YOU MADE ME SMILE OUTSIDE IN. LOOKIN AT A PICTURE MADE ME MELT AND NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING BUT FIGHTING FOR SOMEHTING THAT I BEYOND DESERVE....

I KEEP HEARING MY HEAD TELL ME TO STOP FALLING BUT I KNOW THAT I ALREADY DID LONG BEFORE HAND. THE ANTICIPATION IS KILLING AND SUSTAINING ME IN THE SAME INSTANCE.

"BECAUSE YOU'RE MY LITTLE secret,"

SO DON'T ASK ME WHO IT IS BECAUSE THAT'S HOW I'M GOING TO KEEP IT.

SWAGGER JACKERS????

THANKS A07... SWAGGA JACK T3M SHE $0FLY BITCH PLEASE

SOL FOOD 11/12

ITS BETTER TO ACT THEN TO SPEAK

ADDICTED: DIPSET MOVIES

IF YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT THESE MOVIES YOU'RE LAME!!!!

KATT WILLIAMS ARRESTED ON GUN CHARGES

"Nov 7 2008 10:54 AM EST

Katt Williams Arrested On Gun Charges -- Then Plays Carnegie Hall

Comic also missed 'Late Night With Conan O'Brien' appearance night before arrest.

By Gil Kaufman

FROM: WWW.MTV.COM/NEWS

It's been a wild week for "Pimp Chronicles" comedian Katt Williams. First, there were false rumors over the weekend that he had died in a plane crash. Then, according to the New York Daily News, Williams spent most of Thursday in jail on weapons charges, but posted bail with just enough time to make it to his sold-out headlining gig at New York's Carnegie Hall.

The paper reported that Williams, 37, was arrested early Thursday morning after police found his Mercedes bus and red Cadillac Escalade parked on Broadway. Police noticed that the SUV was missing a license plate and that three guns were in plain sight inside the vehicles. When Williams emerged from a nearby building, he told the cops that the vehicles were his, and the officers handcuffed him.

Eighteen hours after being arrested, the comedian posted $25,000 bond and was released right around the time he was supposed to hit the stage at Carnegie Hall. "Wearing baggy jeans and a satin shirt, [Williams] ... spritzed himself with cologne and jumped into a black limo," the paper reported. "Half an hour later, it screeched to a stop near the rear stage entrance on West 56th Street, and Williams, surrounded by bodyguards, jumped out and disappeared into the hall."

Hitting the stage just over an hour late, Williams reportedly apologized to the audience, telling them, "I'm not moving at my usual pace. I just got out of jail 35 minutes ago." He assured the audience that he raced to the show because of them, though, not for the payday. "I wasn't thinking about the money — maybe because they paid me in advance."

Last month, Williams did not show up for his gig as host of the BET Awards, and the comic also didn't make it to a gig on "Late Night With Conan O'Brien" Wednesday night, forcing the host to vamp a bit, LALate.com reports. O'Brien said that Williams was the first guest in 15 years not to appear for a scheduled appearance on the show.

"I hope he's OK. I don't know were he is. Maybe he's celebrating this momentous day, I don't know, I don't want to make any assumptions. I hope he's fine, I hope he's OK," O'Brien said. A spokesperson for Williams could not be reached for comment at press time. "

OMG DIDN'T THIS NIGGA LEARN FROM THE LAST TIME THAT YOU CAN'T JUST BE CARRYIN AROUND WEAPONS!!!!

SOL VIEW: A GOOD DAY

SO TODAY SO FAR HAS BEEN A GREAT DAY....

LUNCH WITH THE BEST MENTOR A GIRL COULD ASK FOR AND SHOPPING WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS ace!!!!!


TEXT A LOT OF PEOPLE AND CAUGHT UP WHICH WAS GOOD... I THINK THINGS MIGHT BE GETTING BETTER AFTER ALL

I HEART: FAMOUS B

SO THIS CAT RIGHT HERE IS MY TWIN FOR LIFE!!!!! I DON'T JUST HEART HIM I LOVE HIM!! HE WILL ALWAYS BE THAT MALE VERSION OF ME. COCKY/CONFIDENT, FUNNY, INTELLIGENT, KILLER STYLE, AND TOTALL KNECK BREAKER.

I MISS HIM LIKE CRAZY RIGHT NOW TO WITH HIM IN DENVER BUT HE'S DOIN IT UP WITH INFAMOUS B AND MILLENIUM ENTERTAINMENT.

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU TWIN... YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THAT NIGGA FOR ME... YES WE CAN!!!


CHECK HIM OUT ONLINE:

http://www.myspace.com/pireppin

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SHAWTZ CLASSIC: URBAN HOPE

MODEL: JACE AKA LIL SWINGZ

LOCATION: DOWNTOWN, SAN DIEGO, CA

PHOTGRAPHY BY: ANJLIKSOL (ALL RIGHTS RESERVED)

I HEART: FETTY

I CAN'T SAY ENOUGH HOW MUCH I HEART FETTY AKA RAMELLE KNIGHT. ILL FLOW AND AND BEATS THAT YOU WANT TO KEEP HEARIN THE DAY AFTER YOU PLAYED THE TRACK.

I FIRST HEARD ABOUT FETTY AS A SKATER AND HAD THE PLEASURE OF MEETING HIM TWO SUMMERS AGO ON THE BALL4REAL TOUR. EVER SINCE THEN I HAVE BEEN TALKIN ABOUT HIM BOTH AS A SKATER AND AS AN ARTIST...

HIS MUSIC HAS BEEN FEATURED ON MY PROFILE NUMEROUS TIMES AND CURRENTLY IS THE LEAD TRACK FOR MY PROFILE (WWW.MYSPACE.COM/ANJL). HONESTLY I NEVER GET SICK OF HIM BECAUSE HE HITS YOU WITH SOMETHING NEW AND DIFFERENT JUST WHEN YOU THINK YOU HEARD EVERYTHING.

HANDS DOWN MY FAVORITE TRACK RIGHT NOW IS "A PROBLEM". WHEN YOU LISTEN TO IT YOU CAN TELL IT'S A DIPSET TRACK AND ITS STRAIGHT NEW YORK BUT I COULD SEE IT DOING BETTER THAN WELL IN THE CALI AND SOUTHERN CLUB SCENES.

WITHOUT A DOUBT THIS IS AN ARTIST TO WATCH AND I LOOK FORWARD TO BRING OUT TO PREFORM AND DO A SKATE DEMO.

FOR MORE INFO:

www.myspace.com/fetty

www.myspace.com/melboogie

http://www.ramelleknight.com/

ADDICTED: THE AUBREY O'DAY INTERVIEW IN COMPLEX

I LOVE AUBREY O'DAY OF MAKING THE BAND AND DANITY KANE!!!!

CALL HER WHAT YOU WANT I LOVE THAT SHE IS SUCH A FREE SPIRIT AND DOES WHAT SHE WANTS THE WAY SHE WANTS WHEN SHE WANTS. SHE HAS AMAZING TALENT AND SHE DOESN'T LET THE BULLSHIT OF THE INDUSTRY KEEP HER DOWN AT ALL.

I WAS ONLINE VIEWING THE SEXY/SLUTTY PICS OF HER ON http://www.compelx.com/ (AKA MY NEW FAVORITE MAG AND WEBSITE) AND THE ARTICLE ON HER AND WANTED TO STAND UP AT MY DESK APPLAUDE AND SAY BRAVO!!!

SHE WAS UNIHIBBITED AND HONEST ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT SHE WAS BEING ASKED WHICH IS GREAT NOT SLUTTY. SHE TALKS ABOUT THE REALITY OF HER LIFE AND HONESTLY IT MADE ME RESPECT AND ADORE HER MORE THAN HATE HER.

EVEN THE PHOTOS, AS TRASHY AS THEY LOOKED WERE ACTUALLY A BREATH OF FRESH AIR TO ME. THEY SHOWED A GOREGOUS GIRL IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT THAT MADE YOU WANT TO KEEP ON LOOKING.

NEEDLESS TO SAY IM ADDICTED TO THE ARTICLE...

TO VIEW IT:

http://www.complex.com/GIRLS/Cover-Girls/Aubrey-ODay

ADDICTED: GOLD DIGGER'S PASSION

I AIN'T SAYIN IM A GOLD DIGGER BUT.... I AIN'T LOOKIN FOR NO BROKE N*GGA LOL


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SOL FOOD 11/10

SLEEP TO REST YOUR BODY NOT AS A HOBBY.

YOU WON'T GET ANYWHERE JUST LAYIN AROUND THE HOUSE SLEEP, PLAYIN MADDEN OR WATCHIN TV. IF YOU WANT MONEY GET OUT THERE AND MAKE IT. WANT TO GO TO THAT NEXT LEVEL IN WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING YOU WON'T WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED AND DROOL COMMING OUTTA YOUR MOUTH.

MISADVENTRES: IN THE LIFE OF ANN COUNTING

SO IN MY QUEST SOMETIMES TO MAINTAIN A STACKED DECK I REALIZED FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT IM SO EAGER TO MOVE ON THAT I MIGHT MISS OUT ON SOMETHING GOOD....


SO LAST NIGHT I SPENT SOMETIME WITH biker boy A GUY WHO GAVE IT TO ME AND THEN SOME, WHOSE HEART I FOUND OUT I BROKE, AND WHO I NEVER REALLY GAVE A SHOT BECAUSE I HAD MY HEAD TO FAR UP MY ASS AND WAS TOO SCARED HE MIGHT REALLY BE A GOOD THING. (INHALE OK) SO.... TALK ABOUT IRONIC

HE PICKS ME UP IN A NEW JAGUAR

HIS APARTMENT (NOT HIS W/ROOMATES OR HIS MAMS) WAS IN ONE OF THE POSHEST AREAS IN TOWN

TALK ABOUT TECH TOYS THAT MADE OYOU SAY OO

HIS CLOTHING GAME WAS ON POINT... FUCK THAT HE WAS STRAIGHT WELL GROOMED

OWNS HIS OWN BUISNESS NOW PLUS THREE HOMES HE RENTS OUT AND IS GETTING A NEW PLACE IN LA LATER THIS MONTH


GREAT BODY SMILE, AN ACCENT (YOU KNOW I LOVE THOSE) AND EYES


HE'S A TOTAL SWEETHEART AND GENTLEMAN


AND DAMN I HAVE TO ADMIT HIS INTELLIGENCE WAS A HUGE ASS TURN ON.



(SO BY NOW ALL OF YOU ARE EITHER SAYIN YOU STUPID ASS BITCH OR OMG GET HIM ANN GET HIM)


AND THE IRONY IS THAT I PERSONALLY BELIVE THAT HE WANTED TO HANG OUT WITH ME JUST TO SHOW ME HOW WELL OFF HE WAS. BECAUSE THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE THAT HE ACTUALLY WANTED....

SERIOUSLY I GOT A HUG WHEN I SAW HIM, AND WE TALKED A LO TA T THE HOUSE AND THEN HE LAID HIS HEAD ON MY LAP AT ONE POINT WHILE I GAVE HIM A HEAD MASSAGE. WE WERE WATCHING THE NEWS AND SPORTS CENTER (WHO COULD FREAKIN WANT MORE). AND YEAH NOTHING

WHEN HE STOPPED TO GET GAS ON THE WAY TO TAKE ME HOME I GOT A SNEAK PEAK (YES A SNEAK PEAK I DIDN'T LOOK ON PURPOSE OR SNOOP ) AT HIS IPHONE DISPLAY. HE HAD HIS TEXT MESSAGES BROUGHT UP AND I SAW THE LAST MESSAGE I SENT TO HIM... IRONICALLY AGIAN MY NUMBER WASN'T SAVED TO HIS PHONE.

IT MADE ME THINK. FIRST I WAS HURT LIKE REALLY... YOU DON'T HAVE MY NUMBER SAVED???? (WELL PEOPLE CAN GET NEW PHONES AND HAVE NOT TRANSFERED NUMBERS... UMM NO THATS NOT THE CASE)... THEN I THOUGHT... U NEVER ACTUALLY INVITED ME TO GO OUT WITH YOU TONIGHT (THEN AGAIN ITS NOT LIKE YOU WERE DRESSED DORK). AND THEN IT HIT ME AS I GOT OUT OF THE CAR (REALIZING THAT I PROBABLY WOULDN'T SEE THIS PERSON AGAIN FOR A COOL MINUTE) I MADE A FUCKIN HUGE MISTAKE WITH biker boy.....

I COULD HAVE BEEN IN A GREAT SITUATION WITH A GREAT GUY IF I HAD JUST BEEN WILLING TO SETTLE DOWN AND JUST RELAX AND ENJOY SOMEONE. I WAS SO CONCERENED WITH NOT BEING TIED DOWN AND NOT LETTING MYSELF GET TOOK THAT I MISSED OUT ON SOMETHING THAT HONESTLY COULD HAVE BEEN THE ISH.


NOW LETS SEE IF FATE WAS JUST TRYING TO PROVE A POINT TO ME OR IF ITS GOING TO GIVE ME A SECOND GO.

RANDOM THOUGHT 14

HOW DO YOU KNOW WHO ARE YOUR TRUE FRIENDS????


ITS FUNNY CUZ EVERY DAY I THINK I MIGHT KNOW SOMETHING REMINDS ME THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY ALL YOU CAN DO IS LEAN ON YOUR OWN SHOULDER AND DRY YOUR OWN TEARS.


ITS FUNNY HOW EASY IT IS TO BE REPLACED. OR TOSSED ASIDE LIKE A RAGG DOLL.


I NEED A BREAK CUZ I REALLY AM GOING TO GO CRY NOW.

SOL FOOD 11/8

WITHOUT HARD WORK DETERMINATION IS LIFELESS.

IT'S ONE THING TO DREAM AND WANT TO DO GREAT THINGS BUT WITHOUT PUTTING IN THE WORK TO MAKE THEM COME ALIVE THEY ARE MERELY FLEETING THOUGHTS LIKE A THEIF IN THE NIGHT.

LETTERS FROM THE SOL: I WANT TO THANK YOU

DEAR

I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR LETTING HER GO SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LET YOU GO. NOW THAT YOU HAVE I DON'T FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE FOR LOSING YOU. JUST HEARING THAT IN THE END YOUR LOVE FOR ME WAS GREATER MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY I'LL FIND SOMEONE WHO NEVER WILL LEAVE TO COMEBACK.

EVEN WHILE THIS WOUND IS HEALING I CAN FEEL OTHERS HEALING... THE THREE BIGGEST SCARS ACROSS MY HEART ARE MENDING FASTER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE... ALMOST AS IF CLOSURE HAS FINALLY COME.





I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR NOT RUNNING AFTER ME SO I COULD FINALLY TURN THE PORCH LIGHT OFF. KNOWING THAT YOU DIDN'T I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO WAIT FOR YOU ANY LONGER, I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO FLY FREE. JUST KNOWING THAT IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT OR ANYTHING I DID OR WAS MADE MY TEARS STOP FALLING AND THE LAUGHTER RETURN TO MY VOICE.





EVEN THOUGH LOVE IS STILL THERE I FEEL IT AND THE OTHERS FADING TO NOTHING MORE THAN A WHISPER AT A CONCERT.... THREE TIMES THE LOVE LOST.... AND NOW THE PAIN IS FINALLY DEAF TO ME.



I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR BREAKING ME SO I COULD HAVE THE STRENGTH TO STAND FOR MYSELF. I AM STRONGER THAN BEFORE YOU AND DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK I NEVER NEEDED YOUR FAITH BUT FAITH IN MYSELF, FAITH THAT REAL LOVE WAS AND STILL IS WAITING FOR ME.


EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT AT FULL STRENGTH EVERY DAY THAT PASSES THE WEAKNESS BECOMES A MEMORY LOST FROM AGE... I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT AFTER FALLING WITH YOU, FOR YOU, AND FROM YOU, I AM READY FOR LOVE.

CALI LUV: HOW WE C THE WORLD

I SAW THIS AND HAD TO LAUGH... TELL ME HONESTLY IS THIS HOW PEOPLE REALLY THINK CALIFORNIANS THINK??? ALL MY PEEPS IN CALI... IS THIS HOW YOU REALLY THINK???

SOL FOOD 11/7

BEING POPULAR IS GREAT BUT BEING LOVED FOR WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND NOT SOME FAKE DOLL IS EVEN BETTER...

I MIGHT NOT RULE MYSPACE BUT AT LEAST THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME DO FOR ME NOT FOR SOME LAME GAY FAKE SHIT

ABOUT.COM'S 10 POP ARTISTS FOR THE TERMINALLY UNCOOL

1. BARRY MANILOW (CAN U SAY DO THE CARLTON!?!?!?!)
2. MICHEAL MC DONALD
3. PAULA ABDUL (YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK THAT I'LL TAKE BEING UNCOOL I LOVE PAULA!!!!)
4. NEIL DIAMOND (UMMM YEA)
5. PHIL COLINS (ELTON JOHN WOULD HAVE SUED THEM PROBABLY J/K ELTON IS CHILL)
6. BRYAN ADAMS
7. ASHLEE SIMPSON (AKA LIP SYNC QUEEN)
8. CELIENE DION (MY HEART WILL GO ON)
9. JAMES BLUNT (UMMM I ACTUALLY REALLY LIKE HIM)
10. BON JOVI (YEAH THEY'RE PRETTY GAY)

ADDICTED: PAULA ABDOUL SHUT UP AND DANCE

WHY DID THIS SERIOUSLY USED TO BE MY FAVORITE DANCE CD IN THE ENTIRE WORLD THRU MIDDLE SCHOOL!!!! IT'S GREAT TO DANCE AND BE SILLY TOO BUT EVEN BETTER TO WORK OUT TO... I SMELL I POD MUSIC!!!!!!

RANDOM THOUGHT 13

DAMN..... I GOTTA LOTTA BLOGS LOGGED FOR THIS MONTH ALREADY AND IM ONLY 7 DAYS INTO NOVEMBER.... GUESS IM JUST TIGHT LIKE THAT

RANDOM THOUGHT 12

OK SO THIS IS RANDOM BUT NOT SO RANDOM...... I HATE I REPEAT HATE!!!!!!! WHEN PEOPLE JUST PUT IMAGES UP ON LINE FROM MY PHOTOGRAPHY PAGE WITHOUT HAVING AUTHORIZATION!!!!!... SERIOUSLY.... ITS AN IRRITATION BECAUSE SOMETIMES ALBUMS ARE JUST FOR PRIVATE VIEWING SO THAT I CAN DO EDIT SELECTIONS AND PROCESS THE IMAGES.... AND UNTIL I GIVE OUT A DISK FOR A TF OR ANY OTHER PROJECT THEY AREN'T SUPPOSSED TO BE USED.... I GUESS IVE LEARNED A LESSON IN BUISNESS PHOTOGRAPHY THO RIGHT

THA SESSION NEWS

CHECK IT OUT YOUR GURL MAKES A CAMEO IN A COUPLE PLACES BUT PAY SPECIAL ATTENTION TO MY BIG HOMMIE LADY RUKUS WHO GETS OFF!!!!!. BIG UPS TO THE WHOLE D FAM AND THE BEAUTIFULL BRITT BRITT.

SEE YOU AT THE SESSION NOVEMBER 15TH

BEFORE THE HYPE: LABELMATES

I HAD TO COME OUT AND SHOW SOME LOVE TO THIS GROUP RIGHT HERE....

LABELMATES SUPPORTED ME IN THE INDUSTRY WHEN I FIRST CAME OUT IN SPRING OF 2006. BIG O AND THE GROUP REALLY PUSHED ME TO EXPAND MY HORIZONS AND GOT ME TO COME OUTTA MY SHELL AND I LOVE EM FOR THAT.

GO SUPPORT THEIR MUSIC AND GEAR BY VISITING THEIR SITE:

WWW.MYSPACE.COM/LABELMATESCEO

THE BATTLE IS COMMING

SO ONE WEEK FROM TOMORROW IS SCHEDULED TO BE MY FIRST FACE TO FACE WITH k SINCE THE WEEKEND OF HIS BIRTHDAY.... (WHICH BY THEN WILL BE 10 WEEKS AGO)


HONESTLY I DON'T KNOW WHY I CARE OR WHY IT HAS ME KINDA ON EDGE... I CAN ONLY ASUME THAT IT'S WITH THE THOUGHT THAT I REALLY HAVE NO CLUE WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN WHEN I SEE HIM OR WHAT IS GOING TO BE SAID.


I GUESS ALL ONE CAN DO IS STAY TUNED... WE'LL FIND OUT SOON ENOUGH.

GET THE NERDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ISS B THIS IS JUST FOR YOU!!!!!!

SOL VIEW: HALLOWEEN BASH AT CLUB FIX

WHO: STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT
WHERE: FACES NIGHT CLUB (5TH AVE IN THE GASLAMP)
WHEN: FRIDAY, OCTOBER 31, (HALLOWEEN) 2008
GENRE: HIP HOP & R&B
ATMOSPHERE: SWAGGERIFIC
DJ: BIRDY BIRD, DJ KALI, DJ MACK
MC: UNLEADED

THE GOOD:
FIX HAD A PACKED HOUSE THIS PAST FRIDAY NIGHT, EXCEEDING CAPACITY AND HAVING TO SHUT THE LINE DOWN FOR NEW ENTRIES, AND RE ENTRY. THE SMALL CLUB WAS CONSIDERED TO BE THE EXTREME UNDERDOG FRIDAY NIGHT GOING UP AGAINST EVERY MAJOR CLUB AND PROMOTER IN THE GASLAMP. HOWEVER IT EXCEEDED EXPECTATIONS WITH THE STEADY CONSISTENT TURNOUT ALL NIGHT LONG.

"AT 9:45 I LOOKED AND THERE WERE 5 GIRLS WAITING AT THE FRONT TO GET IN. WE DECIDED TO WAIT TILL 10:15 TO ACTUALLY LET PEOPLE INTO THE CLUB AND WHEN I LOOKED AT 10:10 THERE WAS A LINE PAST THE RESTAURANT" -KANANI DOTSON, STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT

A LONG LINE AND WAIT TO GET INTO THE CLUB DIDN'T STOP THEN EITHER AT ONE POINT IT WENT ALMOST TO THE END OF THE BLOCK WITH EVERYONE SEARCHING FOR SOMEONE WHO COULD GET THEM IN FASTER.

COSTUMES THAT NIGHT RANGED FROM FEMALE FREDDY'S, TO SNOW WHITE, TO A VERY CONVINCING LIL WAYNE LOOK ALIKE.

"THE LADIES LOOKED GOOD DRESSED UP... SO GOOD THAT MORE THEME PARTIES ARE COMING."- DJ BIRDY BIRD, STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT



THE BAD:
DESPITE CLAIMS THAT THERE WASN'T ANYTHING BAD ABOUT THE NIGHT I DID SEE ONE THING, THE VIP HAD POOR CROWD CONTROL.

THE POINT OF A VIP AREA IS THAT ITS EXCLUSIVE, EVERYBODY AND ANYBODY SHOULDN'T BE ABLE TO GET IN THERE, IT SHOULD BE THE PARTY THAT PAID, ITS MEMBERS AND PEOPLE THEY DESIGNATE. FRIDAY NIGHT I SAW A LOT OF PEOPLE ROAMING IN AND OUT OF VIP THAT WERE JUST THERE TO BE THERE AND ENJOYING FREE DRNKS AT OTHERS EXPENSE.

STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT'S PRESIDENT NATE DANCY HAD THESE ASSURANCES FOR THE FUTURE. "WE HAD A PACKED, SELL OUT CROWD FRIDAY NIGHT AND LITTLE SECURITY. WE ALREADY ARE TAKING MEASURES TO INCREASE THE NUMBER OF GUARDS FOR FRIDAY NIGHTS AND I HAVE BEEN DESIGNATED TO MANAGE THE VIP FRIDAY NIGHTS... (DIFFERENT) WRIST BANDS ARE GOING TO BE USED FOR VIP CUSTOMERS AND WILL BE REQUIRED IN ORDER TO ENTER THE AREA."


THE UGLY:
AT 1 AM THE CLUB WAS CLOSED FOR ENTRY AND RE-ENTRY.... A GREAT THING FOR THE PROMOTION STAFF BUT FOR A FEW DISGRUNTLED GUESTS IT SUCKED.

"GET THERE EARLY AND STAY IN THE CLUB... THEN YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT NOT BEING ALLOWED RE-ENTRY. HALLOWEEN IS THE NEW FIX FRIDAY MENTALITY NOT A FLUKE OR A ONE TIME THING. WE ARE ALREADY EXPECTING ANOTHER SELL OUT THIS FRIDAY (NOVEMBER 7, 2008) AND DON'T WANT ANYONE TO MISS ANY PART OF THE CLUB."- DJ BIRDY BIRD,



WHAT TO KNOW

AMAZINGLY ENOUGH SOME PEOPLE DIDN'T KNOW THAT FIX WENT DOWN EVERY FRIDAY NIGHT.... EVEN MORE AMAZINGLY ENOUGH PEOPLE DIDN'T KNOW THAT THE QUALITY OF THE MUSIC AND MIXING WAS REALLY AS HIGH AS IT WAS.

"WE DID GOOD KEEPING THE ENERGY UP IN THE CLUB... BIRD AND MARCUS (AKA UNLEADED) REALLY BROUGHT THAT FIRE AND THAT ENERGY ON THE TABLES AND ON THE MIKE THAT KEPT PEOPLE GOING THAT NIGHT."- DJ MACK

AND YES FIX DOES GO DOWN EVERY SINGLE FRIDAY NIGHT INSIDE OF FACES!!!!! YES IT IS THE ONLY SPOT FOR TRUE HIP HOP IN THE GASLAMP FRIDAY NIGHTS!!! YES IT HAS THE SAME ENERGY EVERY WEEK THAT IT DID FOR THE HALLOWEEN BASH.

"I HAD A LOT OF FUN AND IT FELT GOOD TO BE ABLE TO PARTY IT UP WITH MY BOYS AND HAVE FUN... I REALLY WAS TAKEN CARE OF."- BRANDON EVERRETT CLUB GOER AND A VIP AT FIX FOR HALLOWEEN.

MY TAKE:
I'VE BEEN BLESSED TO BE IN MY THIRD YEAR ON THE NIGHT SCENE IN SAN DIEGO. I'VE BEEN EVEN MORE BLESSED TO HAVE WORKED WITH SOME OF THE BEST OF THE BEST. BUT I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT AFTER FRIDAY NIGHT STAR-DOM ENT HAS PROVEN TO BE NOT ONLY ONE OF THE MOST HARD WORKING BUT MOLD BREAKING GROUPS I'VE BEEN APART OF. THIS PAST FRIDAY WAS THE FINAL NAIL IN THE COFFIN THAT ALL WE ARE ABOUT IS HOOD ENTERTAINMENT AND SKETCHY SITUATIONS. WE PROVED THAT NOT ONLY ARE OUR EVENTS POPPING FROM START TO FINISH BUT THAT WE ARE ABLE TO TAKE THE BAD TO GOOD, THE GOOD, TO GREAT, AND THE GREAT TO UNFORESEEABLE LEVELS OF HIGH QUALITY.

FRIDAY NIGHT WAS THE START OF A NEW ERA OF HEAVY HITTING ENTERTAINMENT... CHANGING FACES WAS JUST ONE THING IN A STREAM OF MANY TO COME FROM STAR-DOM ENTERTAINMENT.



BOTTOM LINE:
IF YOU DIDN'T COME LAST FRIDAY NIGHT YOU'RE A GAY DUCK SHARTING PLASTIC CHESTED OTTER FUCKER!! SO GET ON THE GUEST LIST FOR THIS FRIDAY AND FUTURE STAR-DOM EVENTS.

FOR GUEST LIST INFORMATION:

stardompromotions@gmail.com

http://www.myspace.com/stardompromo

COMING SOON THE OFFICIAL STAR-DOM ENT BLOGSPOT!!!

One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....

SOL FOOD 11/5

NOW THAT WE HAVE MADE HISTORY LET US NOT FORESAKE IT.... IT IS NOT THE JOB OF SIMPLY ONE MAN TO CHANGE THE TIDES OF OUR NATIONS PROGRESS BUT THE PEOPLES.... DO YOUR PART TO NOT ONLY CHANGE BUT AFFECT IT IN NEW WAYS IN AT TIME AS HISTORIC AS THIS

SOL VIEW: ASTI RISTORANTE

SO I AM ADDICTED TO ITALIAN FOOD... AND VERY VERY PICKY ABOUT ITALIAN FOOD MORE IMPORTANTLY.... AND ABOUT THREE WEEKS AGO I DECLARED A NEW FAVORITE RESTURANT.

ASTI RISTORNANTE IN DOWNTOWN SAN DIEGO IS THE EPTITOME OF EXQUISITE DINNING AND SERVICE. I WAS SO HEARTBROKEN THAT I HAD TO MISS THEIR WINE TASTING EVENT LAST NIGHT (DUE TO A HORRIBLE APPOINTMENT AT THE DENTIST) HAD TO DO A REVIEW ON THEM.

SO HERE'S THE SKINNY

CUISINE: ITALIAN

WHERE: SAN DIEGO, CA (728 5TH AVE)

ATMOSPHERE: RUSTIC ELEGANCE (YOU'LL LOVE THE MURALS ON THE WALLS AND THE QUAINT TABLE SETTINGS.)

BEST TIME TO GO: FRIDAY OR SATURDAY NIGHT RIGHT BEFORE YOU HIT THE CLUBS DOWNTOWN 8PM-10:30PM (TRY TO GET A SEAT OUTSIDE ON THE PATIO SO U CAN PEOPLE WATCH THE GASLAMP)

THE GOOD: HANDS DOWN THE FOOD.... WITH OUT ANY SHADOW OF A DOUBT THE FOOD AT THIS PLACE IS AN EXPLOSION OF DELIGHTS AND TEMPTATIONS FOR YOUR MOUTH. GO ONCE AND YOU'LL BE BACK AGAIN.

THE BAD & UGLY: THE SIZE OF THE RESTURANT... WHILE I LIKE THE SMALL ATMOSPHERE I PERSONALLY ONLY WANT IT BIGGER BECAUSE IS SO SHECK DE COOL.

THE FOOD: LIKE I SAID WHEN IT COMES TO ITALIAN FOOD I AM BEYOND PICKY BUT THE FOOD IS FILLING AND HAS MANY DIFFERENT LEVELS TO IT. THE LAST TIME I VISITED I HAD

Cavatelle Michelangelo 22.95

Homemade semolina and ricotta cheese dumpling pasta with sun dried tomatoes, brandy, diced chicken, light marinara sauce and a touch of cream

WHICH WAS SO FILLING AT THE TIME I REGRETTED NOT BEING ABLE TO BRING ANY HOME. THE CREAM SAUCE WAS PERFECT TEXTURE... NOT TOO THICK AND NOT EVEN CLOSE TO BEING WATERY. WE PAIRED IT WITH Pinot Grigio, Armani “Vigneto Corvara” - Val d’Adige WHICH REALLY BROUGHT OUT THE SWEETNESS IN THE MARINARA AND THE SULTRINESS OF THE SUNDRIED TOMATTOES. THE CHICKEN HAD GREAT CONSISTANCEY AND WASN'T CHEWY OR CHALKY TO THE TASTE.

DESSERT OF COURSE I HAD TO GO WITH TIRAMISU

WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW: GOING TO ASTI ISN'T JUST A PLACE FOR GOOD FOOD BUT IT'S ALSO A PLACE FOR GREAT SERVICE AS WELL.... THE OWNERS AND STAFF THEIR ARE NOT ONLY KNOWLEDGABLE ABOUT THE CUISINE THEY ARE BEYOND FRIENDLY AND ACCOMADATING. FOR ME I CAN SAY THAT THEY ARE FRIENDS YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THERE SERVICE PROBABLY MORE SO THAN THEIR FOOD JUST BECAUSE THEY DO GO THAT EXTRA MILE TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU ARE FAMILY NOT JUST A BILL. (ME PICTURED WITH THE OWNER WHILE STOPPING IN FOR A LATE DESSERT ON HALLOWEEN)

THE BOTTOM LINE: WHETHER YOU ARE LOOKING FOR ROMANCE OR A WARM SETTING ASTI IS YOUR BEST BET.

CIAO BELLA!!!

FOR RESERVATIONS PLEASE CALL

(619) 232-8844

SHAWTZ CLASSIC: FERRIS WHEEL

PROBABLY STILL ONE OF MY FAVORITE SHOTS FROM THAT SUMMER... GREAT COLOR AND JUST REALLY EYE CATCHING.

I HEART: GO DOG GO

OMG SO WHO REMEMBERS THIS BOOK???? IT STILL TO THIS DAY MY FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK... I'M GETTING ONE FOR MY GOD BROTHER ISIAH AND ALSO FOR GRADY NEXT WEEKEND.

I USED TO MAKE MY GRANDPARENTS READ THIS TO ME ALL THE TIME... IT'S CRAZY HOW MUCH I LOVE IT STILL... MATTER OF FACT I NEED A NEW ONE FOR MYSELF BECAUSE MY COPY IS SO TATTERED AND HONESTLY I DON'T KNOW WHERE IT IS LOL (TEARS).

ADDICTED: TMOBILE G1

SO OF COURSE ITS COMMING TO THE END OF THE YEAR AND IM STARTING TO MAKE MY WISH LIST OF THINGS THAT I WANT.... AND AS MUCH AS I LOVE THE IDEA OF GETTING A SIDEKICK LX IM DEBATING ON WHETHER OR NOT I WANT TO GET THE G1 OR AN iPHONE.....

TMOBILE G1 WITH GOOGLE

SUGGESTED RETAIL :$399.99

Basics
Size:
4.6 x 2.2 x 0.6 inches
Weight:
5.6 ounces
Included battery:
1150 mAh Lion
Talk time:
up to 5 hours
Standby time:
up to 5 days
Band (frequency):
850 MHz;900 MHz;1800 MHz;1900 MHz

Top Phone Features
Fun
Easy access to Google applications
IM/Text/Email*
3MP Camera
Video playback
Communication
Touch Screen
QWERTY keyboard
Bluetooth® wireless technology
Information
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Real web browsing capabilities*
3G Network and Wi-Fi access

WHY I LOVE IT

ITS A TMOBILE PHONE... AFTER ONLY DEALING WITH AT&T FOR ONE YEAR IM OVER THERE CRAP CUSTOMER SERVICE. AND I LIKE THE TOUCH SCREEN CAPABILITIES AND THE FULL KEYBOARD FEATURES ON THIS PHONE AS WELL (SIMILAR TO THE KICK LX).

WHY IM NOT CRAZY ABOUT IT:

IDK.... I'M SUCH A SIDEKICK GURL.... IF FEEL BAD GETTING A TMOBILE PHONE THAT ISN'T ONE