SO IN MY QUEST SOMETIMES TO MAINTAIN A STACKED DECK I REALIZED FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT IM SO EAGER TO MOVE ON THAT I MIGHT MISS OUT ON SOMETHING GOOD....
SO LAST NIGHT I SPENT SOMETIME WITH biker boy A GUY WHO GAVE IT TO ME AND THEN SOME, WHOSE HEART I FOUND OUT I BROKE, AND WHO I NEVER REALLY GAVE A SHOT BECAUSE I HAD MY HEAD TO FAR UP MY ASS AND WAS TOO SCARED HE MIGHT REALLY BE A GOOD THING. (INHALE OK) SO.... TALK ABOUT IRONIC
HE PICKS ME UP IN A NEW JAGUAR
HIS APARTMENT (NOT HIS W/ROOMATES OR HIS MAMS) WAS IN ONE OF THE POSHEST AREAS IN TOWN
TALK ABOUT TECH TOYS THAT MADE OYOU SAY OO
HIS CLOTHING GAME WAS ON POINT... FUCK THAT HE WAS STRAIGHT WELL GROOMED
OWNS HIS OWN BUISNESS NOW PLUS THREE HOMES HE RENTS OUT AND IS GETTING A NEW PLACE IN LA LATER THIS MONTH
GREAT BODY SMILE, AN ACCENT (YOU KNOW I LOVE THOSE) AND EYES
HE'S A TOTAL SWEETHEART AND GENTLEMAN
AND DAMN I HAVE TO ADMIT HIS INTELLIGENCE WAS A HUGE ASS TURN ON.
(SO BY NOW ALL OF YOU ARE EITHER SAYIN YOU STUPID ASS BITCH OR OMG GET HIM ANN GET HIM)
AND THE IRONY IS THAT I PERSONALLY BELIVE THAT HE WANTED TO HANG OUT WITH ME JUST TO SHOW ME HOW WELL OFF HE WAS. BECAUSE THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE THAT HE ACTUALLY WANTED....
SERIOUSLY I GOT A HUG WHEN I SAW HIM, AND WE TALKED A LO TA T THE HOUSE AND THEN HE LAID HIS HEAD ON MY LAP AT ONE POINT WHILE I GAVE HIM A HEAD MASSAGE. WE WERE WATCHING THE NEWS AND SPORTS CENTER (WHO COULD FREAKIN WANT MORE). AND YEAH NOTHING
WHEN HE STOPPED TO GET GAS ON THE WAY TO TAKE ME HOME I GOT A SNEAK PEAK (YES A SNEAK PEAK I DIDN'T LOOK ON PURPOSE OR SNOOP ) AT HIS IPHONE DISPLAY. HE HAD HIS TEXT MESSAGES BROUGHT UP AND I SAW THE LAST MESSAGE I SENT TO HIM... IRONICALLY AGIAN MY NUMBER WASN'T SAVED TO HIS PHONE.
IT MADE ME THINK. FIRST I WAS HURT LIKE REALLY... YOU DON'T HAVE MY NUMBER SAVED???? (WELL PEOPLE CAN GET NEW PHONES AND HAVE NOT TRANSFERED NUMBERS... UMM NO THATS NOT THE CASE)... THEN I THOUGHT... U NEVER ACTUALLY INVITED ME TO GO OUT WITH YOU TONIGHT (THEN AGAIN ITS NOT LIKE YOU WERE DRESSED DORK). AND THEN IT HIT ME AS I GOT OUT OF THE CAR (REALIZING THAT I PROBABLY WOULDN'T SEE THIS PERSON AGAIN FOR A COOL MINUTE) I MADE A FUCKIN HUGE MISTAKE WITH biker boy.....
I COULD HAVE BEEN IN A GREAT SITUATION WITH A GREAT GUY IF I HAD JUST BEEN WILLING TO SETTLE DOWN AND JUST RELAX AND ENJOY SOMEONE. I WAS SO CONCERENED WITH NOT BEING TIED DOWN AND NOT LETTING MYSELF GET TOOK THAT I MISSED OUT ON SOMETHING THAT HONESTLY COULD HAVE BEEN THE ISH.
NOW LETS SEE IF FATE WAS JUST TRYING TO PROVE A POINT TO ME OR IF ITS GOING TO GIVE ME A SECOND GO.
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