THE FIRST MEETING

SOO THE MOMENT THAT EVERYONE HAS BEEN WAITING FOR....



k AND I'S FIRST FACE TO FACE SINCE THE BREAK UP AND ALL THE DRAMA AND BULLSHIT.





I LOOKED F*IN AWESOME BY THE WAY TOTALLY ON MY RHIANNA STEEZ... (BLACK LEGGINGS PINK AND WHITE TANKS WITH A GRAY AND BLACK VEST, BLACK JACKET AND PINK SCARF) AND DESPITE THE FACT THAT HE LOOKED... NORMAL IT WAS HARD NOT TO LOOK AT HIM.



BEING WITH mr. b HELPED BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE I HAD AN EXCUSE TO JUST TREAT HIM LIKE AIR. BUT TOWARDS THE END OF THE NIGHT HE DID CORNER ME AT THE CONSESSION STAND AND GOT HIS HUG THAT HE WANTED AND THEN WE TALKED...





k: "DID YOU UNDERSTAND THE TEXT MESSAGES I SENT YOU?"



A: "HANG ON I REALLY NEED TO GET FOOD IN ME IM ABOUT TO GET CRANKY"



k:" BUT DID YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEANT"



A:" LET ME GET THIS AND THEN WE CAN TALK"





SO WE WENT OUTSIDE... WITH ME FEELING LIKE I WAS WALKING TO MY DEATH....



k:" I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU.... HONSETLY AND WITH GOD AS MY WITNESS THAT WAS THE LAST THING THAT I EVER WANTED TO DO TO YOU."



A:" I UNDERSTAND THAT.... THERE WAS JUST TOOO MUCH STUFF FROM TOOO MANY PEOPLE. YOU GOTTA UNDERSTAND... PEOPLE THAT DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WE WERE TALKIN LIKE THAT WERE TELLIN ME THE SHIT YOU WERE DOIN.'



k: "WHAT DO THEY KNOW... AND WHAT WERE YOU SPYIN OR KEEPIN TABS ON ME?"



A:"NOT EVEN"



k:" ITS WHAT I TOLD YOU... I WANTED TO AND TRIED TO GIVE YOU MY HEART WHEN IT WAS STILL FUCKED UP BEFORE LETTING IT HEAL. HONESTLY I WAS TORN BETWEEN YOU AND MY EX AND CHOSE HER AND HURT YOU AT THE SAME TIME... AND TRUST ME.. I PAYED FOR IT A HUNDRED FOLD."

A:"IM NOT EVEN TRIPPEN OFF THAT... IM TALKIN ABOUT YOU AND mini bug"

k:" I WASN'T WITH HER!"

A:" SO YOU HAVEN'T KICKED IT WITH HER OR ANYTHING? LOOK WE BOTH HAVE THAT ONE PERSON IN EACH OTHERS LIFE THAT SETS THE OTHER OFF IN MINE IT WAS coward IN YOURS IT WAS mini bug. AND REAL TALK ANYTIME I HEARD BOTH OF YOUR NAMES IN THE SAME BREATH IT DROVE ME UP A WALL."

k:" I'M SORRY I NEVER DID ANYTHING WITH HER WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER."

A:" OR MY SISTER?"

k:" NO I DIDN'T AND I REALLY STOPPED TALKING TO HER AFTER SHE SAID THAT. WE WERE COOL BUT WHEN I KNEW THAT I WANTED YOU THATS ALL THERE WAS FOR US.... I CAN UNDERSTAND IF YOU NEVER FOR GIVE ME... AND AM NOT ASKIN YOU TO I JUST NEEDED YOU TO KNOW THAT I WASN'T TRYING TO HURT YOU."

A:" FORGIVING IS HARD BECAUSE FOR ME IT REALLY DOES MEAN WIPING THE SLATE CLEAN. AND AFTER EVERYTHING AND SO MUCH BAD I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO FORGET IT."

k:" HE (coward) HURT YOU AND DIDN'T GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT IT.... I HATED KNOWING THAT I HAD HURT YOU AND THAT IT HAD TO FOLLOW HIS FUCK UP."

A:" WELL I DO FORGIVE YOU BECAUSE I CAN'T NOT"

k:" CAN I HAVE A HUG PLEASE?... AND YES I'VE BEEN LOW KEY CHECKIN YOU OUT ALL NIGHT."

A:" YEAH"

k:" I'M SORRY"

A: "I KNOW... I MISSED YOU."

k:" I'VE ALWAYS MISSED YOU... AND LOVED YOU."

A:" HUH?"


AND HE WENT BACK INSIDE BEFORE WE COULD FINISH. BUT YEAH.... NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS CONFUSED BEYOND MEASURE. AND SAD AS IT WAS... PART OF ME WANTED TO KISS HIM AND JUST LET THINGS BE.

BUT... THE NEXT DAY SURE AS SILVER... k GAVE ME EVEN MORE TO THINK ABOUT THAN HE HAD THAT NIGHT.




OH YEAH FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE WONDERING... YES I HAVE TOLD k THAT HE HAS BEEN GETTING BLASTED ON THIS BLOG. SO STOP ASKING