LETTERS FROM THE SOL: 2 MY REAL FRIEND

DEAR

I JUST WANT TO TAKE A MOMENT OUT TO SAY HOW MUCH YOU REALLY MEAN TO ME.....

I KNOW WE GO BACK AND FORTH ALL THE TIME ABOUT BEING FRIENDS AND HOMIES, BUT IT GOES SO MUCH DEEPER THAN THAT FOR ME. CUZ YOU'RE MY INSPIRATION, MOTIVATION, AND HERO.


WATCHIN YOU GO THROUGH MAKES ME WANT TO BE BETTER SO THAT I CAN BE A BETTER FRIEND AND GIVE YOU EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT. REAL TALK WHEN YOU'RE SAD IT REALLY MAKES ME SAD. WHEN YOU'RE NOT DOING WELL IM NOT BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE IT BETTER. I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO YOU WHENEVER I WANT, I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE YOU ALL THE TIME.

I'LL ADMIT SOMETIMES I GET JEALOUS BECUASE I CAN'T SEE YOU AS MUCH AS OTHER PEOPLE DO. AND YEAH ITS GAY AND ITS LAME BUT THATS BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY YOU'RE ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE THAT I STILL FEEL LIKE I CAN TRUST IN THIS FUCKED UP WORLD AND IM SCARED ONE DAY IM GOING TO LOOK LEFT AND RIGHT AND YOU WON'T BE THERE WITH ME .


YOU'RE SOOO BEAUTIFUL DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE FOR ANY REASON. OUTSIDE AND INSIDE YOU RANK A MILLION ON THE SCALE OF 1 TO 10. YOU KEEP IT REALLY, MAKE ME LAUGH, AND COULD KICK MY ASS EVERY DAY OF THE WEEK. I KNOW THAT SOMETIMES IT HURTS... BUT YOU DESERVE THE BEST AND WE ALL KNOW THAT EVEN THO IT MIGHT NOT BE SHOWEN THE BEST HE REALLY IS THE BEST FOR YOU AND HE WOULD GIVE HIS SOUL TWICE OVER FOR YOU JUST TO SMILE.


I REMEMBER WHEN I FIRST MET YOU WE WERE TALKIN LIKE WE HAD BEEN FRIENDS FOR YEARS BUT WE WEREN'T. I NEVER WANTED YOU TO TEACH ME ANYTHING I JUST THOUGHT YOU WERE COOL... AND CHILL. BUT YOU DECIDED THAT YOU WOULD TEACH ME TO BE LIKE YOU... AND THAT WAS CRAZY TO ME BECAUSE I KNEW THAT WOULD MEAN I WOULD BECOME ONE OF THE BEST. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT MONTHS LATER I WOULD BE LOOKIN AT YOU TRIPPEN AT THE THOUGHT OF YOU NOT BEING AROUND.

YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME AND STILL ARE WILLING TO STICK AROUND AND BE REAL WHICH MEANS EVERYTHING... YOU LOOK OUT FOR ME EVEN WHEN IM TOO NAIVE TO SEE THAT YOU'RE RIGHT. IVE BEEN READY TO GIVE UP AND YOU KEEP ME GOING. I PROMISE THOSE WEEKENDS UP WITH YOU WERE THE BEST I HAD ALL YEAR BECAUSE I JUST GOT TO BE ME RAW, REAL AND UNCUT. I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE THE MODEL, THE PROMOTER, OR THE REGAL CHIK, I JUST GOT TO BE DORKY OL ME.


I NEVER THANKED YOU FOR BEING THAT SAVING GRACE FOR ME BEFORE AND I JUST NEEDED TO DO THAT .... AND TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE THAT REAL FRIEND THAT KEEPS ME SANE.