SO I HEARD FROM COWARD YESTERDAY.... AMAZINGLY ENOUGH IT WAS AS MUCH LIBERATING AS IT WAS AMUSING... AND EVEN MORE SO CHECKED THE FLARE.
SENDING OTHER PEOPLE TO DO YOUR DIRTY WORK BECAUSE YOU'RE TOO WEAK TO DO FACE THEM YOURSELVES.... OR IS IT HIS OWN SCREW UP, DEMON, AND KNOWING YOU WERE WRONG. ITS PATHETIC... AND HUMOROUS ALL IN THE SAME BREATH. I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT IT REALLY GAVE ME PLEASURE TO WATCH HIS SNAIL ATTEMPT TO HOLD HER GROUND. EVEN MORE HILARIOUS WAS WHEN SHE GOT SO MAD AT THE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD MAKE HIM OWN UP TO HER ACTIONS FOR HIMSELF.....
AGAIN THE ONLY TWO WORDS THAT I CAN SAY ARE PATHETIC AND HILARIOUS.
COWARD ONLY STUTTERED AND FUMBLED TO CONVEY WHAT I DID SO SMOOTHLY. CONFLICTS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE UNNERVING BUT FOR THE OTHER PARTY NOT FOR YOURSELF STUPID. IT TRULY TOOK AS MUCH POWER NOT TO LAUGH AS IT DID NOT TO JUST TELL HIM THE TRUTH ABOUT HIMSELF...
AND AS MUCH AS I'M SURE BOTH OF THEM WERE HOPING THAT THE LITTLE VOICE INSIDE THAT WANTED TO FLARE AND VERBALLY TEAR THEM BOTH LIMB FROM LIMB WAS GOING TO COME OUT IT WOULD OVER POWER MY HEAVENLY JUDGEMENT BUT IT WAS IN A SOUND PROOF BOX THAT ONLY HAD CLOSED CAPTIONING. LUCKY FOR THEM THO... I HIGHLY DOUBT A SNAIL COULD MATCH A COBRA OR A COWARD FACE A TIGER.
AND CONTROLLING THE CONVERSATION WAS BETTER THAN DARK CHOCOLATE AFTER SEX MEDIUM RARE SEX. I WAS CALM AND HE WAS OFF GUARD. YOU SEE COWARDS DON'T LIKE WHEN THEIR PROTECTORS MAKE THEM FACE THEIR PROBLEMS. AND SNAILS ARE TOO SLOW MINDED TO TO UNDERSTAND I HAD BEAT HER BY CALLING AND NOT LYING DOWN IN HER SLIME.
AFTER THE CALL WAS DONE I COULD FEEL MYSELF START TO BOIL OVER AND LOSE CONTROL... AND BECOME HELL BENT.... BUT SOMETHING IN ME SMILED AND SPOKE THAT HADN'T IN MANY MANY CORNSTALKS.
"CONTINUE DOWN THE PATH MORE DILIGENTLY THAN EVER AND WATCH THEM FALL INTO THEIR OWN FECAL MATTER AND REGRET." IT WAS SUCH A SOFT WHISPER THAT IT WAS ALMOST LOST IN THE FLASHES OFF AN APPEARANCE. "WAIT... SIMPLY WAIT.... THERE IS NO WAY THAT YOU CAN DO MORE DAMAGE THAN GOD SO WAIT."
AS COMFORTED BY THAT AS I WAS I COULDN'T HELP BUT FEEL MYSELF CHANGING... LIKE I SAID MANY CORNSTALKS HAD IT BEEN SINCE I HAD BEEN IN TOUCH WITH THAT SIDE OF ME.... THE CALM WAS OVERWHELMING... CLEARING IN THE MOST MIND BLOWING WAY.... AND IN THE QUIETEST POINT OF THE CALM I COULD FEEL AND HEAR TOO WELL. OBVIOUSLY I HAD DIED YET AGAIN AND WAS BEING REBORN BUT THIS SIDE WAS STRONG NOW.... AND RISING AT THIS POINT WILL BE EITHER THE GREATEST HELP TO MY ULTIMATE GOAL OR THE NUCLEUS FOR MANY.
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
TEMPTATION
I'M TRYING TO RESIST BUT I FEEL MYSELF SLIPPING FURTHER AND FURTHER INTO TEMPTATION... IT JUST SEEMS SOO SWEET AND SO COMFORTING. I'M SITTING HERE DAY DREAMING ABOUT GIVING IN KNOWING HOW WRONG I WOULD BE AND YET I STILL CAN'T SEEM TO CARE. SHE WANTS ME TO GIVE IN BECAUSE OF THE SATISFACTION AND I KNOW THAT YOU DO TOO. BUT ON THE PATH THAT I HAVE EMBARKED ON IT IS THE LAST THING THAT I NEED.
FOCUS.... FOCUS.... FOCUS... I KEEP SCREAMING AT MYSELF FROM ALL DIRECTIONS. DESIGN, CREATE, INVENT, WHATEVER ITS GOING TO TAKE JUST DON'T LET YOU R MIND WANDER RIGHT NOW IT WONT BE GOOD IN THE END.
BUT I STILL FEEL YOUR PULL EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOUR ON THE OTHER SIDE... AND LIKE A RIP CURRENT I'M STARTING TO BE PULLED UNDER.
THE ONLY QUESTION LEFT IS DO I LEFT MYSELF BE CAUGHT IN IT AND THROWN OUT NATURALLY OR CONTINUE TO FIGHT AGAINST IT AND HOPE THAT I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GET AWAY FROM TEMPTATION
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FOCUS.... FOCUS.... FOCUS... I KEEP SCREAMING AT MYSELF FROM ALL DIRECTIONS. DESIGN, CREATE, INVENT, WHATEVER ITS GOING TO TAKE JUST DON'T LET YOU R MIND WANDER RIGHT NOW IT WONT BE GOOD IN THE END.
BUT I STILL FEEL YOUR PULL EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOUR ON THE OTHER SIDE... AND LIKE A RIP CURRENT I'M STARTING TO BE PULLED UNDER.
THE ONLY QUESTION LEFT IS DO I LEFT MYSELF BE CAUGHT IN IT AND THROWN OUT NATURALLY OR CONTINUE TO FIGHT AGAINST IT AND HOPE THAT I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GET AWAY FROM TEMPTATION
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Monday, September 29, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHT 4
PEOPOLE JUST DON'T GET IT IM NOT CALLED ANN COUNTING FOR ANY REASON ACCEPT BECAUSE NOT ONLY DO I KEEP THEM BUT THEY KEEP COMMING THATS WHY ITS ANN COUNTING 5 AND COUNTING HOW EVER MANY AND COUNTING....
NOT JUST WITH GUYS BUT WITH WHATEVER I MOVE FROM ONE THING TO ANOTHER ANN COUNTING
I GET IT GOT IT GOOD
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NOT JUST WITH GUYS BUT WITH WHATEVER I MOVE FROM ONE THING TO ANOTHER ANN COUNTING
I GET IT GOT IT GOOD
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SOL FOOD 3 9/29
BEFORE WE CAN BE FORGIVEN WE MUST ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. BEFORE WE CAN ACCEPT THE FORGIVENESS OF OTHERS WE MUST BE ABLE TO FORGIVE OURSELVES.
THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP I REALIZED THAT I DEMANDED FORGIVENESS FROM A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT I NEVER FORGAVE. PEOPLE WHO HURT ME IN WAYS THAT ONLY I KNEW AND WAS WILLING TO ADMIT WHEN I WAS AT MY DARKEST. IRONICALLY TO THESE SAME PEOPLE I WOULD SMILE AND CONTINUE TO JUST BE POLITE AND BE FRIENDLY, BUT INSIDE WOULD HARBOR ILL WILL BECAUSE I WAS STILL HURT. EVEN MORE SURPRISINGLY I WOULD GET MAD WHEN ANYONE WOULD THINK THAT I NEEDED TO BE APOLOGETIC OR CARE THAT I HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG BECAUSE ALL THAT I CARED ABOUT WAS MY HURT. BUT THIS MORNING I REALIZED THAT I WAS BEING HELD BACK BY MY UNFORGIVING HEART.
SO WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING I SENT A FEW PEOPLE A TEXT... APOLOGIZING FOR ANY WAY THAT I HAD BEEN WRONG TO THEM IN THE PAST. A FEW WROTE BACK BUT MOST JUST LET IT BE ANOTHER TEXT IN THEIR INBOX.... BUT I STILL FELT SO FREE WALKING INTO WORK KNOWING THAT I HAD TAKEN THAT FIRST STEP.... THEN WALKING INTO THE DOOR I TOOK THE SECOND, AND JUST FORGAVE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING AND FOCUSING ON WHAT IT IS THAT I NEED TO DO TO BE BETTER... CUZ THERE IS NO REASON WHY THIS TIME NEXT YEAR I SHOULD BE WHERE I AM... I SHOULD BE HIGHER AND FURTHER....
AFTER ALL WHEN A PHOENIX IS REBORN ITS NOT SMALLER OR THE SAME SIZE BUT LARGER AND GRANDER THAN BEFORE.
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THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP I REALIZED THAT I DEMANDED FORGIVENESS FROM A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT I NEVER FORGAVE. PEOPLE WHO HURT ME IN WAYS THAT ONLY I KNEW AND WAS WILLING TO ADMIT WHEN I WAS AT MY DARKEST. IRONICALLY TO THESE SAME PEOPLE I WOULD SMILE AND CONTINUE TO JUST BE POLITE AND BE FRIENDLY, BUT INSIDE WOULD HARBOR ILL WILL BECAUSE I WAS STILL HURT. EVEN MORE SURPRISINGLY I WOULD GET MAD WHEN ANYONE WOULD THINK THAT I NEEDED TO BE APOLOGETIC OR CARE THAT I HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG BECAUSE ALL THAT I CARED ABOUT WAS MY HURT. BUT THIS MORNING I REALIZED THAT I WAS BEING HELD BACK BY MY UNFORGIVING HEART.
SO WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING I SENT A FEW PEOPLE A TEXT... APOLOGIZING FOR ANY WAY THAT I HAD BEEN WRONG TO THEM IN THE PAST. A FEW WROTE BACK BUT MOST JUST LET IT BE ANOTHER TEXT IN THEIR INBOX.... BUT I STILL FELT SO FREE WALKING INTO WORK KNOWING THAT I HAD TAKEN THAT FIRST STEP.... THEN WALKING INTO THE DOOR I TOOK THE SECOND, AND JUST FORGAVE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING AND FOCUSING ON WHAT IT IS THAT I NEED TO DO TO BE BETTER... CUZ THERE IS NO REASON WHY THIS TIME NEXT YEAR I SHOULD BE WHERE I AM... I SHOULD BE HIGHER AND FURTHER....
AFTER ALL WHEN A PHOENIX IS REBORN ITS NOT SMALLER OR THE SAME SIZE BUT LARGER AND GRANDER THAN BEFORE.
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Sunday, September 28, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHT 4
I LOVE MY PIERCINGS...... I THINK THAT THEY ARE TOO CUTE AND AWESOME... THEY MAKE ME FEEL GREAT ABOUT MYSELF CUZ IM NOT PLAIN JANE AND PERFECTLY FIT WHO I AM..... NO MORE FOR MY FACE ACCEPT DOUBLES IN MY EARS AND A SOLO AT THE TOP OF MY EAR BUT MAYBE THE BELLY BOUTON SOON AND MY CHARM TATTS SOON.
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RANDOM THOUGHT 3
IM JUST NOW WAKING UP AND WISHING NOW THAT I HAD GOTTEN UP WHEN MY MOM ORIGINALLY DID SO THAT I COULD HAVE WENT TO CHURCH..... BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I REALLY WANT TO SAY SOME THING TO CERTAIN PEOPLE BUT NO I SHOULDN'T.... I GUESS SOME QUICK ITALIAN STUDY AND SVU SHOULD TAKE MY MIND OFF OF THINGS....
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Saturday, September 27, 2008
SOL FOOOD 2 9/27
WHEN OUR BODIES ARE AT OUR WEAKEST WE MUST MAKE IT UP IN OUR MINDS TO PUSH NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES. BY GIVING UP WE RISK SO MUCH MORE THAN WE INTENDED TO.
I MAY FEEL WEAK BUT I MUST PUSH PAST MY WEAKNESS TO MY STRENGTH THAT I WAS BLESSED WITH. ITS NOT
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I MAY FEEL WEAK BUT I MUST PUSH PAST MY WEAKNESS TO MY STRENGTH THAT I WAS BLESSED WITH. ITS NOT
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Friday, September 26, 2008
SOL VIEW: 1ST PRESIDENTIAL DEBATE
I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE MCCAIN-OBAMA DEBATE ONLINE LIVE. MANY OF YOU KNOW THAT I AM AN AVID OBAMA SUPPORTER AND DEMOCRAT. I WALKED INTO TONIGHT'S DEBATE EAGER TO HEAR SENATOR OBAMA DEBATE AND PRESENT HIS AND THE PARTIES PLATFORM. THE FOLLOWING BLOG IS MY VIEW NOT JUST ON THE DEBATE, BUT ON WHAT WAS SAID, NOT SAID, AND WHAT NEEDED TO BE SAID. THE OBVIOUS PREVAILING TOPIC OF THE NIGHT WAS THE ECONOMY AND THE STRATEGIES TO REPAIR IT AS WELL AS THE THINGS STRESSING THEM. IN THE TIMES THAT WE ARE IN OBVIOUSLY IT IS CRITICAL AND IMPARATIVE THAT WE HAVE A LEADER THAT CAN DO BOTH. NATURALLY APART OF THIS SAME DISCUSSION COMES THE TOPICS OF TAX CUTS, AND GOVERNMENT SPENDING. TRUE TO HISTORY THE PARTIES TOOK THEIR OPPOSITE ENDS AT THE SPECTRUM... REPUBLICAN CUT BACKS ON GOVERNMENT SPENDING OUTSIDE OF DEFENSE AND TAX CUTS FOR THE HIGHER CLASS OR MORE "CHOICE FRIENDLY TAX OPTIONS. DEMOCRATS PROPOSING BIG GOVERRNMENT PROGRAMS AND TAX CUTS THAT ARE IN FAVOR OF THE AVERAGE AND MIDDLE CLASS AMERICANS THAT POPULATE THE MAJORITY OF THE COUNTRY I MUST SAY THAT OBAMA HELD A STRONG GROUND ON THIS SUBJECT INSISTING THAT WE NOT SACRAFICE GOVERNMENT EXPEDITURES IN NEW ENERGY MEANS, MEDICAL INURANCE, AND COLLEGE OPTIONS BUT HONESTLY DID NOT MAKE IT ASSERTIVE ENOUGH.... WHILE REITERATING HIS POINT THAT THE GOVERNMENT MUST TAKE THE LEAD IN NEW ENERGY OPTIONS AND BEING ABLE TO PROVIDE MEDICAL COVERAGE FOR THOSE WHOSE JOB DOESN'T HE STILL DID NOT ANSWER THE QUESTION.... WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO SACRAFICE IN LIGHT OF THIS FINIANCIAL RESCUE SYSTEM THAT HAS BEEN ADOPTED BY OUR GOVERNMENT. DESPITE MY DISAPPOINTMENT THAT SENATOR OBAMA DIDN'T DIRECTLY ATTACK THIS QUESTION I FEEL THAT SENATOR MCCAIN'S ANSWER TO THIS WAS NOT A TRUE SOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM... ( FREEZING GOVERNMENT SPENDING ON EVERYTHING BUT VETERANS BENEFITS AND PROGRAMS, DEFENSE SPENDING, AND ENTITLEMENTS). WHILE VETERANS BENEFITS AND PROGRAMS DON'T COMPRISE A LARGE AMOUNT OF THE DEBT WITH THE GROWING NUMBER OF YOUNG AMERICA ROTATING OUT OF THE MILITARY WHO HAVE SERVED THE NEED TO INCREASE SPENDING IN THAT ARENA IS GOING TO BECOME HIGH. THAT COMPOUNDED WITH THE TWO BIGGEST SPENDING ELEMENTS OF OUR BUDGET CREATES AN UNDENIABLE RECIEPE FOR DISASTER. THE NOTION THAT YOU WOULD NOT PUT ANY TYPE OF LIMIT ON DEFENSE SPENDING AND MERELY CONTINUE TO LET IT RISE UNCHECKED IS LUDACRIS... THIS IN CONJUNCTION WITH TRYING TO BRING ENTITLEMENTS INTO CHECK WOULD RESULT IN STILL INCREASED SPENDING COUPLED WITH MCCAIN'S AGENDA TO EXPAND DEFENSE IN IRAQ AND ABROAD. THE SECOND POINT OF A TWO DIFFERENT TAX CODES PROPOSSED BY MCCAIN CAN APPEAR INTRIGUING BUT IS BOUND TO HAVE RED TAPE UPON LOOPHOLES FOR INCREASED TAXRES FOR NOT SELECTING THE "PREFERED" CODE OF THE ADMINISTRATION. I REALLY DO APPRECIATE THE COMMENT THAT SENATOR OBAMA MADE REGARDING NOT CLOSING A LOOP BY ADDING TOO IT BUT BY ENDING IT. EVEN BETTER THE RESONATING THEME THAT 'IF WE ARE SPENDING MONEY ON TAX CUTS ON PEOPLE WHO DON'T NEED THEM AND LEAVING OUT COVERAGE FOR HEALTH CARE, WHO ARE WE SERVICING IN THE LONG RUN'.... SPEAKS MORE VOLUMES ON THE SUCJECT THAN ONE COULD HOPE TO HAVE ACCOMPLISHED WHILE AGAIN I DON'T AGREE AT ALL WITH SENATOR MCCAIN'S PLANS FOR A FREEZE I STILL DON'T FEEL THAT OBAMA'S SINGLE STRATEGY OF CUTTING SPENDING IN IRAQ WILL SIMPLY DO THE JOB. MORE IMPORTANTLY I WANT TO MAKE THE POINT THAT WHILE THE FINANCIAL BAIL OUTS IN THE LONG RUN ONLY HURT THE DEMOCRAT AGENDA WHICH IS DRIVEN BY BIG GOVERNMENT SPENDING TO STIMULATE TEH PEOPLE AND THE ECONOMY AND ONLY FURTHER ILLUSTRATE THE REPUBLICAN'S POINT THAT GOVERNMENT NEEDS TAKE CARE OF ITSELF AND LET BUISNESSES AND PEOPLE DO THE SAME....
ONE POINT THAT I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE IN TRANSITION TO DEFENSE POLITICS IS THAT WE ARE IN DEBIT TO A COUNTRY THAT FUNDS DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY THE TERRORIST INTRESTS WE ARE BORROWING MONEY TO FIGHT... AND WE CAN NO LONGER DO SO.WITH THE ECONOMY TAKING UP HALF OF THE DEBATE OBIVIOUSLY THE WAR AND DEFENSE EFFORTS AND SPENDING TOOK UP THE OTHER HALF OF THE DEBATE. WITH MCCAI'NS ARROGANT AND SNIPPET REMARKS ABOUT HIS EXPERIENCE AND CAPABILITIES I HAVE TO WONDER.... IF THOSE ARE THE THINGS THAT QUALIFY HIM FOR THE PRESIDENCY WHY DID THEY NOT QUALIFY HIM BEFORE NOW AND WHY DID HE HAVE TO SHIFT HIS AGENDA AND VIEWS TO BECOME THE CANADTE FOR HIS PARTY. WE ALL CAN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THE SURGE WORKED... AND THAT AS A TACTIC IT DID WORK BUT IT IS NOT A STRATEGY ( LONG TERM ). FURTHERMORE SIMPLY CHOSING TO JUST STAY IN CASE THERE IS AN ISSUE IS NOT GOING TO WORK. THE IRAQI GOVERNMENT AND MILITARY WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO BE FULLY FUNCTIONING WHILE USING US NOT ONLY AS A CRUTCH BUT AS AN EXOSKELETON. OBAMA KILLED MCCAIN WITH THE POINT THAT THAT THE WAR DID NOT BEGIN IN 2007 AND THAT WE CAN NOT JUDGE THE SUCCESS OF THIS WAR MERELY ON THE RECENT SUCESSES BUT ON THE TOTAL HISTORY AND RESULTS SINCE 2002. WE CANNOT ONLY THINK ABOUT THE FINNANCIAL CAPITAL THAT WE ARE SPENDING IN THIS WAR BUT THE HUMAN AND MORAL CAPITOL THAT WE ARE LOSING AND EXPENDING. I AM A HUGE SUPPORTER OF OUR TROOPS HAVING DATED PEOPLE IN THE MILITARY AND HAVING EVEN BEEN ENGAGED TO SOMEONE WHO HAS NOW SERVED TWO SEPERATE TERMS IN IRAQ. WHILE I AM PROUD OF THE WORK THAT THEY ARE DOING I CANNOT DENY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL EFFECTS THAT IT HAS ON MY GENERATION. FOR THAT REASON, AS WITH MY CONTINUING VIEW THAT BEFORE WE CAN BE A WORLD POWER THAT RENDERS JUDGEMENT WE MUST LEAD BY JUST EXAMPLE, I DO SUPPORT A PLAND THAT WOULD PHASE TROOPS OUT OF IRAQ TO MUCH LOWER LEVELS WITHIN 6 MONTHS AND AN INCREASED INTERNATIONAL PEACE KEEPING PRESENCE THERE NOT JUST OUR OWN. I WANT OUR TROOPS TO BE TAKEN CARE OF WHEN THEY GET BACK AND TO BE GIVEN THE CARE THAT THEY NEED. THEY CAN'T GET THAT IF 6 MONTHS AFTER GETTING BACK THEY HAVE TO RETURN. ALSO, I AGREE WITH THE POINT THAT THE WAR ON TERROR BEGAN IN AFGHANISTAN AND NEEDS TO END THERE. WE NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT ALQUEDA AND THE TALIBAN DO NOT REGAN CONTROL IN THAT AREA AND ARE ABLE TO PERPTUATE ANOTHER ATTACK. BOTH CANNADITES AND I AGREE THAT WHILE WE ARE SAFER NOW THAN WE WERE PREVIOUSLY THAT WE ARE STILL NOT SAFE... ENSURING THAT SAFETY IS NOT GOING TO BE MERELY BY STAYING IN IRAQ BUT BY TAKING NOTE OF THE OTHER COUNTRIES THAT POSE A THREAT TO US, TRULY REBUILDING AFGHANISTAN, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY LEADING BY EXAMPLE AS TO INFLUENCE OTHER SUPER POWERS LIKE RUSSIA TO TAKE LEADERSHIP ROLES NOT OVERLY AGGRESSIVLEY MAN HANDLE THE REST OF THE WORLD.
BOTTOM LINE IS THAT WE AREN'T GOING TO BE ANY GOOD TO THE REST OF THE WORLD IF WE PUT OURSELVES IN DEBT TRYING TO PLAY MIDDLE SCHOOL HALL MONITOR.
IN THE DISCUSSIONS ON DEFENSE POLICIES AND ON THE ECONOMY THE SUBJECT OF ENERGY AND OIL SURFACED MANY DIFFERENT TIMES. AS MUCH AS I WOULD LOVE TO SAY THAT WE CAN SLEY SOLVE THE US OIL PROBLEMS BY GIVING ENCENTIVES TO PEOPLE AND COMPANIES FOR ALTERNATIVE FUEL SORCES I KNOW THAT IT IS NOT THE ONLY SOLUTION. THE ONLY PERSON IN THAT DEBATE WHO I SAW WH WAS WILLING TO GIVE AND TAKE ON THIS SUBJECT THAT BOTH UNILATERALLY EFFECTS THE ECONOMY AND THE WAR THAT WE ARE IN IS SENATOR OBAMA. HE UNDERSTANDS THAT WHILE OFF SHORE DRILLING IS NOT IDEAL THAT IN A SMALL WAY IT WILL BE NECESSARY. BUT WE MUST ALSO BUT TECHNOLOGY AND RESOURCES TO CLEANER FORMS OF FUEL, SOLAR ENERGY, WIND ENERGY AND YES NUCLEAR ENERGY.
SENATOR OBAMA MENTIONED THIS FACT WE CONSUME 25% OF THE WORLD'S OIL BUT WE ONLY HAVE 3%. DRILLING TOO MUCH TOO SOON CAN AND WILL DEPLEAT WHAT LITTLE WE HAVE AND NOT GIVE US ANY FOR ANY DIRE TIMES WHERE IT MAY BE NESSCARY.
OVERALL THE DEBATE GAVE ME HOPE THAT SENATOR OBAMA IS SPREADING HIS PRESIDENTIAL WINGS. HE UNDERSTANDS THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS BUT IS SMART ENOUGHT TO SURROND HIMSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO CAN TEACH HIM NOT JUST ANSWER FOR HIM. HE MAY NOT BE A VETERAN BUT HE UNDERSTANDS THAT IN ORDER TO HELP VETERANS YOU HAVE TO HAVE MONEY TO HELP THEM WITH AND PROGRAMS THAT CAN SUPPORT NOT ONLY THEM BUT THERE FAMILIES. I RESONATES THE POINT THAT FIGHTING A WAR AGAINST TERRORISM IS FIGHTING A CONCEPT NOT JUST A GROUP OF PEOPLE AND THAT TO DO SO WE MUST MAKE THE WORLD HAVE FAITH IN US AGAIN AS A WORLD LEADER AND A WORLD POWER.
ON A LIGHTER NOT BEFORE I GIVE MY CONCLUDING THOUGHTS THE DEBATE DID HAVE SOME HUMOR. BETWEEN SENATOR OBAMA "MISTAKENLY" CALLING SENATOR MCCAIN TOM (REFERING TO UNCLE TOM) AND JIM (JIM CROW) AND A CORNY BUT CHUVKLE WORTHY IMAGE OF SENATOR MCCAIN STARRING INTO PUTIN'S EYES AND SEEING A " K A G AND A B". THE AWARD FOR MOST COLORFUL VOCABULARY FOR THE NIGHT GOES TO SENATOR MCCAIN FOR THE WORDS "FESTUNEND" AND "PARSING". BUT THE ALL TIME FUNNIEST MOMENT WAS THE LOOK OF CONSTIPATION ON SENATOR MCCAIN'S FACE WHEN HE HAD TO SHAKE SENATOR MCCAIN'S HAND AT THE END OF THE DEBATE.
OVERALL I NOTICED THAT BOTH CANNIDATES ARE VERY STUBORN AND HOLD FAST TO THEIR VIEWS BUT I DO SEE AN ARROGANCE IN MCCAIN REMINISANT OF W. THAT SCARES ME.... THE FACT THAT HE CAN SO ARROGANTLY BOAST ABOUT NOT NEEDING ON THE JOB TRAINING IS SCARRY. BUSH THOUGHT THAT HE DIDN'T NEED TRAINING AND WAS SO FIXATED ON BEING RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT HE ENDED UP DRIVING US DEEPER INTO DARK SPIRAL THAN EVER BEFORE. IT ONLY MAKES ME PRAY THAT THE MESSAGE OF CHANGE AND HOPE THAT SENATOR OBAMA BRINGS WILL INSPIRE MORE PEOPLE AND LEAD HIM RIGHT TO THE WHITE HOUSE.
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ONE POINT THAT I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE IN TRANSITION TO DEFENSE POLITICS IS THAT WE ARE IN DEBIT TO A COUNTRY THAT FUNDS DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY THE TERRORIST INTRESTS WE ARE BORROWING MONEY TO FIGHT... AND WE CAN NO LONGER DO SO.WITH THE ECONOMY TAKING UP HALF OF THE DEBATE OBIVIOUSLY THE WAR AND DEFENSE EFFORTS AND SPENDING TOOK UP THE OTHER HALF OF THE DEBATE. WITH MCCAI'NS ARROGANT AND SNIPPET REMARKS ABOUT HIS EXPERIENCE AND CAPABILITIES I HAVE TO WONDER.... IF THOSE ARE THE THINGS THAT QUALIFY HIM FOR THE PRESIDENCY WHY DID THEY NOT QUALIFY HIM BEFORE NOW AND WHY DID HE HAVE TO SHIFT HIS AGENDA AND VIEWS TO BECOME THE CANADTE FOR HIS PARTY. WE ALL CAN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THE SURGE WORKED... AND THAT AS A TACTIC IT DID WORK BUT IT IS NOT A STRATEGY ( LONG TERM ). FURTHERMORE SIMPLY CHOSING TO JUST STAY IN CASE THERE IS AN ISSUE IS NOT GOING TO WORK. THE IRAQI GOVERNMENT AND MILITARY WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO BE FULLY FUNCTIONING WHILE USING US NOT ONLY AS A CRUTCH BUT AS AN EXOSKELETON. OBAMA KILLED MCCAIN WITH THE POINT THAT THAT THE WAR DID NOT BEGIN IN 2007 AND THAT WE CAN NOT JUDGE THE SUCCESS OF THIS WAR MERELY ON THE RECENT SUCESSES BUT ON THE TOTAL HISTORY AND RESULTS SINCE 2002. WE CANNOT ONLY THINK ABOUT THE FINNANCIAL CAPITAL THAT WE ARE SPENDING IN THIS WAR BUT THE HUMAN AND MORAL CAPITOL THAT WE ARE LOSING AND EXPENDING. I AM A HUGE SUPPORTER OF OUR TROOPS HAVING DATED PEOPLE IN THE MILITARY AND HAVING EVEN BEEN ENGAGED TO SOMEONE WHO HAS NOW SERVED TWO SEPERATE TERMS IN IRAQ. WHILE I AM PROUD OF THE WORK THAT THEY ARE DOING I CANNOT DENY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL EFFECTS THAT IT HAS ON MY GENERATION. FOR THAT REASON, AS WITH MY CONTINUING VIEW THAT BEFORE WE CAN BE A WORLD POWER THAT RENDERS JUDGEMENT WE MUST LEAD BY JUST EXAMPLE, I DO SUPPORT A PLAND THAT WOULD PHASE TROOPS OUT OF IRAQ TO MUCH LOWER LEVELS WITHIN 6 MONTHS AND AN INCREASED INTERNATIONAL PEACE KEEPING PRESENCE THERE NOT JUST OUR OWN. I WANT OUR TROOPS TO BE TAKEN CARE OF WHEN THEY GET BACK AND TO BE GIVEN THE CARE THAT THEY NEED. THEY CAN'T GET THAT IF 6 MONTHS AFTER GETTING BACK THEY HAVE TO RETURN. ALSO, I AGREE WITH THE POINT THAT THE WAR ON TERROR BEGAN IN AFGHANISTAN AND NEEDS TO END THERE. WE NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT ALQUEDA AND THE TALIBAN DO NOT REGAN CONTROL IN THAT AREA AND ARE ABLE TO PERPTUATE ANOTHER ATTACK. BOTH CANNADITES AND I AGREE THAT WHILE WE ARE SAFER NOW THAN WE WERE PREVIOUSLY THAT WE ARE STILL NOT SAFE... ENSURING THAT SAFETY IS NOT GOING TO BE MERELY BY STAYING IN IRAQ BUT BY TAKING NOTE OF THE OTHER COUNTRIES THAT POSE A THREAT TO US, TRULY REBUILDING AFGHANISTAN, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY LEADING BY EXAMPLE AS TO INFLUENCE OTHER SUPER POWERS LIKE RUSSIA TO TAKE LEADERSHIP ROLES NOT OVERLY AGGRESSIVLEY MAN HANDLE THE REST OF THE WORLD.
BOTTOM LINE IS THAT WE AREN'T GOING TO BE ANY GOOD TO THE REST OF THE WORLD IF WE PUT OURSELVES IN DEBT TRYING TO PLAY MIDDLE SCHOOL HALL MONITOR.
IN THE DISCUSSIONS ON DEFENSE POLICIES AND ON THE ECONOMY THE SUBJECT OF ENERGY AND OIL SURFACED MANY DIFFERENT TIMES. AS MUCH AS I WOULD LOVE TO SAY THAT WE CAN SLEY SOLVE THE US OIL PROBLEMS BY GIVING ENCENTIVES TO PEOPLE AND COMPANIES FOR ALTERNATIVE FUEL SORCES I KNOW THAT IT IS NOT THE ONLY SOLUTION. THE ONLY PERSON IN THAT DEBATE WHO I SAW WH WAS WILLING TO GIVE AND TAKE ON THIS SUBJECT THAT BOTH UNILATERALLY EFFECTS THE ECONOMY AND THE WAR THAT WE ARE IN IS SENATOR OBAMA. HE UNDERSTANDS THAT WHILE OFF SHORE DRILLING IS NOT IDEAL THAT IN A SMALL WAY IT WILL BE NECESSARY. BUT WE MUST ALSO BUT TECHNOLOGY AND RESOURCES TO CLEANER FORMS OF FUEL, SOLAR ENERGY, WIND ENERGY AND YES NUCLEAR ENERGY.
SENATOR OBAMA MENTIONED THIS FACT WE CONSUME 25% OF THE WORLD'S OIL BUT WE ONLY HAVE 3%. DRILLING TOO MUCH TOO SOON CAN AND WILL DEPLEAT WHAT LITTLE WE HAVE AND NOT GIVE US ANY FOR ANY DIRE TIMES WHERE IT MAY BE NESSCARY.
OVERALL THE DEBATE GAVE ME HOPE THAT SENATOR OBAMA IS SPREADING HIS PRESIDENTIAL WINGS. HE UNDERSTANDS THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS BUT IS SMART ENOUGHT TO SURROND HIMSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO CAN TEACH HIM NOT JUST ANSWER FOR HIM. HE MAY NOT BE A VETERAN BUT HE UNDERSTANDS THAT IN ORDER TO HELP VETERANS YOU HAVE TO HAVE MONEY TO HELP THEM WITH AND PROGRAMS THAT CAN SUPPORT NOT ONLY THEM BUT THERE FAMILIES. I RESONATES THE POINT THAT FIGHTING A WAR AGAINST TERRORISM IS FIGHTING A CONCEPT NOT JUST A GROUP OF PEOPLE AND THAT TO DO SO WE MUST MAKE THE WORLD HAVE FAITH IN US AGAIN AS A WORLD LEADER AND A WORLD POWER.
ON A LIGHTER NOT BEFORE I GIVE MY CONCLUDING THOUGHTS THE DEBATE DID HAVE SOME HUMOR. BETWEEN SENATOR OBAMA "MISTAKENLY" CALLING SENATOR MCCAIN TOM (REFERING TO UNCLE TOM) AND JIM (JIM CROW) AND A CORNY BUT CHUVKLE WORTHY IMAGE OF SENATOR MCCAIN STARRING INTO PUTIN'S EYES AND SEEING A " K A G AND A B". THE AWARD FOR MOST COLORFUL VOCABULARY FOR THE NIGHT GOES TO SENATOR MCCAIN FOR THE WORDS "FESTUNEND" AND "PARSING". BUT THE ALL TIME FUNNIEST MOMENT WAS THE LOOK OF CONSTIPATION ON SENATOR MCCAIN'S FACE WHEN HE HAD TO SHAKE SENATOR MCCAIN'S HAND AT THE END OF THE DEBATE.
OVERALL I NOTICED THAT BOTH CANNIDATES ARE VERY STUBORN AND HOLD FAST TO THEIR VIEWS BUT I DO SEE AN ARROGANCE IN MCCAIN REMINISANT OF W. THAT SCARES ME.... THE FACT THAT HE CAN SO ARROGANTLY BOAST ABOUT NOT NEEDING ON THE JOB TRAINING IS SCARRY. BUSH THOUGHT THAT HE DIDN'T NEED TRAINING AND WAS SO FIXATED ON BEING RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT HE ENDED UP DRIVING US DEEPER INTO DARK SPIRAL THAN EVER BEFORE. IT ONLY MAKES ME PRAY THAT THE MESSAGE OF CHANGE AND HOPE THAT SENATOR OBAMA BRINGS WILL INSPIRE MORE PEOPLE AND LEAD HIM RIGHT TO THE WHITE HOUSE.
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WHAT k GAVE ME
SO I WAS SENDING OUT PROMOTIONAL TEXTS TODAY FOR MY CLUB AND REALIZED SOMETHING... I HADN'T TALKED TO k SINCE COMING BACK HOME SUNDAY... AND REALLY HADN'T CARED WHETHER I HAD OR HADN'T. HE JUST DIDN'T EXIST ANYMORE.... NOT ONLY DID HE JUST NOW EXIST ANYMORE IT JUST STOPPED HURTING.
THE ONLY THING THAT I FEAR IS THAT IN THE PROCESS I STOPPED CARING ABOUT WANTING SOME ONE TO MAKE ME HAPPY OR BE WITH ME.... TO ME THERE REALLY IS JUST NO POINT... AND AT THE END OF THE DAY WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT I REALLY AM JUST TOOO BUSY AND TOO DRIVEN TO DO OTHER THINGS TO BE ABLE TO THINK ABOUT HAVING SOMEONE ELSE AND REALLY BEING ABLE TO PUT THE TIME INTO AND ENJOY A RELATIONSHIP.
ITS FUNNY BECAUSE I WAS SOOOOO PISSED THAT ONCE AGAIN ANOTHER GUY HAD LET ME DOWN AND JUST DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME AND NOW I JUST WANT TO GO BACK AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ALL OF MY TALENTS AND GIFTS AND LIVE FULLY WITHOUT HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT HAVING ANYONE.
SOME OF YOU READING THIS MIGHT SAY THAT IT'S ME GIVING UP.... BUT I'M NOT I'M JUST REALIZING THAT AT THIS STAGE IN MY LIFE I NEED TO FINISH DEVELOPING MY INNER SELF AND MY GIFTS AS MUCH AS I CAN AND THAT EVENTUALLY MAYBE SOMEBODY WILL TAKE NOTE OF THAT AND THINK THAT IT IS SPECIAL ENOUGH TO PURSUE.
AND k IF YOU ARE READING THIS.... I REALLY DID PUT MY TRUST IN YOU AND WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT YOU BEING A GOOD AND REAL PERSON. YOU LEAD ME OUT ON THE CLIFF SAYING TRUST YOU AND ITS OK AND THEN PUSHED ME OFF AND TURNED YOUR BACK.... YOU ASKED ME TO LIE TO ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS WHEN WE BOTH KNEW IT WAS WRONG. YOU USED ME FOR YOUR OWN PLEASURE AND GAIN AND HONESTLY I'M GLAD YOU GOT TO SEE HOW A REAL WOMAN TREATS A REAL MAN BUT EVEN HAPPIER THAT YOU NEVER FULLY GOT YOURS. EVEN MORE I REALIZED THAT YOU TURNED ME ON MYSELF ALL JUST FOR POINTLESSNESS AND FOOLISHNESS. BUT STILL I THANK YOU. I THANK YOU THAT YOU GAVE ME BACK ME BY DESTROYING ME. YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT SO I COULD REMEMBER THE THINGS THAT GAVE ME LIFE AND THAT DIDN'T REQUIRE YOU OR ANYONE ELSE FOR. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME BACK MY MUSIC, MY LOVE OF THE GAME, ME CREATIVE EYE, MY YEARNING FOR THE PERFECT SHOT, AND MOST OF ALL THAT SENSE THAT NOTHING CAN STOP ME AS LONG AS I STAY TRUE TO MYSELF.
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THE ONLY THING THAT I FEAR IS THAT IN THE PROCESS I STOPPED CARING ABOUT WANTING SOME ONE TO MAKE ME HAPPY OR BE WITH ME.... TO ME THERE REALLY IS JUST NO POINT... AND AT THE END OF THE DAY WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT I REALLY AM JUST TOOO BUSY AND TOO DRIVEN TO DO OTHER THINGS TO BE ABLE TO THINK ABOUT HAVING SOMEONE ELSE AND REALLY BEING ABLE TO PUT THE TIME INTO AND ENJOY A RELATIONSHIP.
ITS FUNNY BECAUSE I WAS SOOOOO PISSED THAT ONCE AGAIN ANOTHER GUY HAD LET ME DOWN AND JUST DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME AND NOW I JUST WANT TO GO BACK AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ALL OF MY TALENTS AND GIFTS AND LIVE FULLY WITHOUT HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT HAVING ANYONE.
SOME OF YOU READING THIS MIGHT SAY THAT IT'S ME GIVING UP.... BUT I'M NOT I'M JUST REALIZING THAT AT THIS STAGE IN MY LIFE I NEED TO FINISH DEVELOPING MY INNER SELF AND MY GIFTS AS MUCH AS I CAN AND THAT EVENTUALLY MAYBE SOMEBODY WILL TAKE NOTE OF THAT AND THINK THAT IT IS SPECIAL ENOUGH TO PURSUE.
AND k IF YOU ARE READING THIS.... I REALLY DID PUT MY TRUST IN YOU AND WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT YOU BEING A GOOD AND REAL PERSON. YOU LEAD ME OUT ON THE CLIFF SAYING TRUST YOU AND ITS OK AND THEN PUSHED ME OFF AND TURNED YOUR BACK.... YOU ASKED ME TO LIE TO ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS WHEN WE BOTH KNEW IT WAS WRONG. YOU USED ME FOR YOUR OWN PLEASURE AND GAIN AND HONESTLY I'M GLAD YOU GOT TO SEE HOW A REAL WOMAN TREATS A REAL MAN BUT EVEN HAPPIER THAT YOU NEVER FULLY GOT YOURS. EVEN MORE I REALIZED THAT YOU TURNED ME ON MYSELF ALL JUST FOR POINTLESSNESS AND FOOLISHNESS. BUT STILL I THANK YOU. I THANK YOU THAT YOU GAVE ME BACK ME BY DESTROYING ME. YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT SO I COULD REMEMBER THE THINGS THAT GAVE ME LIFE AND THAT DIDN'T REQUIRE YOU OR ANYONE ELSE FOR. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME BACK MY MUSIC, MY LOVE OF THE GAME, ME CREATIVE EYE, MY YEARNING FOR THE PERFECT SHOT, AND MOST OF ALL THAT SENSE THAT NOTHING CAN STOP ME AS LONG AS I STAY TRUE TO MYSELF.
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
SOL FOOD 1 9/25
WE ARE NOT DEFINED BY THE CIRCUMSTANCES THAT WE ARE IN OR BY THE CRITIQUES OF OTHERS BUT BY OUR RESPONSES TO THOSE CIRCUMSTANCES AND CRITIQUES.
EVEN WHEN WE CREATE THE MESS THAT WE ARE IN... WHAT SPEAKS MORE TO OUR CHARACTER IS OUR ABILITY TO TO RESPONSIBILITY AND BE ACCOUNTABLE FOR THEM AND TO EFFECTIVELY TAKE ACTION TO BETTER THEM....
THE WORDS OF OTHERS ARE VOID UNTIL WE GIVE THEM POWER AND MEANING WE HAVE IT NOT ONLY WITHIN OURSELVES BUT OUR SITUATIONS TO MAKE PEOPLE THINK, SEE, AND TREAT US DIFFERENTLY BY THE WAY THAT WE PERSISTENTLY CARRY OURSELVES AND ACT FOR AND ON OUR BEHALF. IT IS OUR CHARACTER NOT ANTHER'S CHARACTERIZATION OF US.
WHEN I HEAR THE TERM CAN'T, I THINK " I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST" AND "GREAT IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD"... WHEN I AM TOLD THAT I AM WORTHLESS I REMEMBER THAT IF IT WAS TRUE I WOULD NOT BE ALIVE TODAY. WHEN I AM AT MY DARKEST I REMEMBER THAT DARKNESS IS AT IT'S PEAK BEFORE THE DAWN AND THAT IT IS IN THE MIDNIGHT HOUR THAT GOD'S GREATEST AND MOST PROFOUND MIRACLES ARE REVEALED.
IT IS ALL ABOUT HOW I ACT, WHAT I SAY, AND WHAT I THINK. IF I BECOME NEGATIVE MY SITUATION WILL STAY NEGATIVE... AND ANY CHANCE OF SOLUTION BECOMES LOST IN THAT NEGATIVITY. WITHOUT FAITH IN NOT JUST GOD BUT IN EVERYTHING HE HAS PLACED IN ME WHY SHOULD I EXPECT OTHERS TO HAVE FAITH IN ME.
RISE ABOVE THE SITUATION, THE FEELINGS, AND THE TALK TO SHOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND MORE IMPORTANTLY SHOW HOW FAR YOU ARE FROM THEM.
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EVEN WHEN WE CREATE THE MESS THAT WE ARE IN... WHAT SPEAKS MORE TO OUR CHARACTER IS OUR ABILITY TO TO RESPONSIBILITY AND BE ACCOUNTABLE FOR THEM AND TO EFFECTIVELY TAKE ACTION TO BETTER THEM....
THE WORDS OF OTHERS ARE VOID UNTIL WE GIVE THEM POWER AND MEANING WE HAVE IT NOT ONLY WITHIN OURSELVES BUT OUR SITUATIONS TO MAKE PEOPLE THINK, SEE, AND TREAT US DIFFERENTLY BY THE WAY THAT WE PERSISTENTLY CARRY OURSELVES AND ACT FOR AND ON OUR BEHALF. IT IS OUR CHARACTER NOT ANTHER'S CHARACTERIZATION OF US.
WHEN I HEAR THE TERM CAN'T, I THINK " I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST" AND "GREAT IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD"... WHEN I AM TOLD THAT I AM WORTHLESS I REMEMBER THAT IF IT WAS TRUE I WOULD NOT BE ALIVE TODAY. WHEN I AM AT MY DARKEST I REMEMBER THAT DARKNESS IS AT IT'S PEAK BEFORE THE DAWN AND THAT IT IS IN THE MIDNIGHT HOUR THAT GOD'S GREATEST AND MOST PROFOUND MIRACLES ARE REVEALED.
IT IS ALL ABOUT HOW I ACT, WHAT I SAY, AND WHAT I THINK. IF I BECOME NEGATIVE MY SITUATION WILL STAY NEGATIVE... AND ANY CHANCE OF SOLUTION BECOMES LOST IN THAT NEGATIVITY. WITHOUT FAITH IN NOT JUST GOD BUT IN EVERYTHING HE HAS PLACED IN ME WHY SHOULD I EXPECT OTHERS TO HAVE FAITH IN ME.
RISE ABOVE THE SITUATION, THE FEELINGS, AND THE TALK TO SHOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND MORE IMPORTANTLY SHOW HOW FAR YOU ARE FROM THEM.
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
SOL VIEW: TRUEBLOOD
OMG SO I WAS WATCHING HBO ON DEMAND LAST NIGHT (HOPING THAT I COULD CATCH A SNEAK PEAK OF THE NEW CHRIS ROCK COMEDY SPECIAL) AND STARTED WATCHING THE NEW SERIES "TRUEBLOOD" AND I'M ADDICTED
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MORE OF THIS SHOW... I WATCHED EPISODES 1 THRU 3 LAST NIGHT ON DEMAND AND WAS GLUED TO THE SCREEN THE WHOLE TIME. THE SHOW IS GRIPPING AND INTENSE. I WAS ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT WATCHING THE INTERATICTION BETWEEN MAIN CHARACTER SUKI AND VAMPIRE BILL.
FURTHERMORE I LIKED THE SOCIAL ISSUES THAT THE SHOW BROUGHT UP... IT WAS A NEW TWIST ON VAMPIRE CULTURE THAT I HAD NEVER SCENE BEFORE... THE CONCEPT OF VAMPIRE RIGHTS. IT WAS CLOSE TO GOING INTO A BLAST FROM THE PAST AND LOOKING AT CIVIL RIGHTS FROM THE 50S AND 60S. WATCHING POLITICAL AS WELL AS INTERPERSONAL DIALOUGE ON THE SUBJECT OF VAMPIRE RIGHTS AS WELL AS WHETER OR NOT THEY WERE "REAL PEOPLE" WAS INTRIGUING. I LIKED THAT THEY DID SOMETHING MORE WITH THE SUBJECT THAN JUST HAVING VAMPIRES BEING OPEN ABOUT THEIR EXISTENCE... THEY CREATED A SUB-PLOT THAT GAVE DEPTH AND DIMENSION TO THE SHOW.
DOING EVEN MORE WAS THE EROTIC UNDERTONES... NEEDLESS TO SAY YOUNG PEOPLE SHOULD NOT WATCH THIS... THE SEXUAL UNDERTONES ARE CRAZY AND THE SEX SCENES ARE IMPRESSIVE AND YES I WILL ADMIT STIMULATING...
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MORE AND MORE OF THE SHOW AND YES EXPECT TO HEAR MORE ABOUT THIS SHOW IN ANJLIKSOL
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I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MORE OF THIS SHOW... I WATCHED EPISODES 1 THRU 3 LAST NIGHT ON DEMAND AND WAS GLUED TO THE SCREEN THE WHOLE TIME. THE SHOW IS GRIPPING AND INTENSE. I WAS ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT WATCHING THE INTERATICTION BETWEEN MAIN CHARACTER SUKI AND VAMPIRE BILL.
FURTHERMORE I LIKED THE SOCIAL ISSUES THAT THE SHOW BROUGHT UP... IT WAS A NEW TWIST ON VAMPIRE CULTURE THAT I HAD NEVER SCENE BEFORE... THE CONCEPT OF VAMPIRE RIGHTS. IT WAS CLOSE TO GOING INTO A BLAST FROM THE PAST AND LOOKING AT CIVIL RIGHTS FROM THE 50S AND 60S. WATCHING POLITICAL AS WELL AS INTERPERSONAL DIALOUGE ON THE SUBJECT OF VAMPIRE RIGHTS AS WELL AS WHETER OR NOT THEY WERE "REAL PEOPLE" WAS INTRIGUING. I LIKED THAT THEY DID SOMETHING MORE WITH THE SUBJECT THAN JUST HAVING VAMPIRES BEING OPEN ABOUT THEIR EXISTENCE... THEY CREATED A SUB-PLOT THAT GAVE DEPTH AND DIMENSION TO THE SHOW.
DOING EVEN MORE WAS THE EROTIC UNDERTONES... NEEDLESS TO SAY YOUNG PEOPLE SHOULD NOT WATCH THIS... THE SEXUAL UNDERTONES ARE CRAZY AND THE SEX SCENES ARE IMPRESSIVE AND YES I WILL ADMIT STIMULATING...
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MORE AND MORE OF THE SHOW AND YES EXPECT TO HEAR MORE ABOUT THIS SHOW IN ANJLIKSOL
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RANDOM THOUGHT 2
"I want to be with you ... there's nothing more to say" (Mandy More)
THAT SONG KEEPS PLAYING OVER AND OVER IN MY HEAD BUT I CAN'T GET MYSELF TO PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL YOU.... BECAUSE MY PRIDE KEEPS ME FROM WANTING TO GO BACK DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE AND MY HEAD CAN ONLY SEE THE TRUTH.
SO IM JUST CONTENT TO SIT HERE AND BE IN WANT WITHOUT YOU.... AND MAYBE ONE DAY IT WILL BE TRUE THAT I'LL WAKE UP AND NOT WANT WATS BAD FOR ME.....
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THAT SONG KEEPS PLAYING OVER AND OVER IN MY HEAD BUT I CAN'T GET MYSELF TO PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL YOU.... BECAUSE MY PRIDE KEEPS ME FROM WANTING TO GO BACK DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE AND MY HEAD CAN ONLY SEE THE TRUTH.
SO IM JUST CONTENT TO SIT HERE AND BE IN WANT WITHOUT YOU.... AND MAYBE ONE DAY IT WILL BE TRUE THAT I'LL WAKE UP AND NOT WANT WATS BAD FOR ME.....
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Monday, September 22, 2008
DISNEYLAND!!!!!!
SO YESTERDAY I SPENT MY DAY AT ONE OF MY FAVORITE PLACES IN THE ENTIRE WORLD....
DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT REALLY WAS A TREAT FOR ME IN SO MANY WAYS AND WAS CRAZED. FIRST OF ALL ITS DISNEYLAND A PLACE WHERE I SWEAR MAGIC HAPPENS ALL THE TIME. SECOND YOU CAN SAY THAT I WAS KINDA ON A DATE (EEEK I KNOW) AND IT WAS TOOO FUN AND CUTE TO BE WALK AROUND ALL CUTSEY PIED UP WITH SOMEONE (ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING THE DIASTER THAT WAS k).
SO IT WAS GREAT WATCHING THE LITTLE PRINCE ENJOY HIMSELF IN THE PARK AND WATCHING THE PARADE OF DREAMS. I GOT A PICTURE WITH JASMINE AND ALADIN ON OUR WAY TO CALIFORNIA ADVENTURE WHICH LOOKS SOOOOO CUTE!!!!
MOST IMPORTANTLY I GOT TO RIDE MY FAVORITE RIDE OF ALL TIME SPACE MOUNTAIN!!!!!! I FELT LIKE A LITTLE KID AGAIN BUT IT WAS GREAT... AND EVEN BETTER IT WAS A GREAT DISTRACTION FROM ALL THE SADDNESS THAT k HAD BEEN PUTTING ME THROUGH AND THE STRESS OF MOVIN.
SO AFTER THAT WE WENT TO CALIFORNIA ADVENTURE AND ATE AND ROAD ON SOME OF THE KIDDIE RIDES WITH LIL PRINCE WHICH WAS TOOOO CUTE!!!!! THEN MADE WAY TO THE TOWER OF TERROR WHERE I TRULY WAS TERROIZED... BUT EVEN STILL I LOVED IT!!!!
IT WAS EVEN GREAT BEING HARRASSED ABOUT MY WHITEWASHEDNESS AND WHAT NOT BY geyz... BEING PULLED BY MY HAIR HOWEVER WAS NOT CUTE.... BUT HEY ALL IN ALL IT WAS A GREAT WAY TO END A KINDA SHITTY WEEK.
IT AMAZES ME THAT SOMETHING SO CHILDLIKE AND YOUNG CAN SOLVE ADULT PROBLEMS.... I MEAN SERIOUSLY I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT EVRYTHING THAT HAD BEEN GOING ON... I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT ALL THE BS FROM FRIDAY NIGHT AND WITH the one AND k ALL THAT MATTERED WAS THAT I WAS HAPPY AND HACVING SOO MUCH FUN IT WAS RIDICULOUS!!!! BEING WITH A CUTE GUY HELPED TOOO... (BUT WE SHALL SEE HOW LONG geyz LASTS!!)
CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK
THANKS t!!!!!!!!!!!!
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DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT REALLY WAS A TREAT FOR ME IN SO MANY WAYS AND WAS CRAZED. FIRST OF ALL ITS DISNEYLAND A PLACE WHERE I SWEAR MAGIC HAPPENS ALL THE TIME. SECOND YOU CAN SAY THAT I WAS KINDA ON A DATE (EEEK I KNOW) AND IT WAS TOOO FUN AND CUTE TO BE WALK AROUND ALL CUTSEY PIED UP WITH SOMEONE (ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING THE DIASTER THAT WAS k).
SO IT WAS GREAT WATCHING THE LITTLE PRINCE ENJOY HIMSELF IN THE PARK AND WATCHING THE PARADE OF DREAMS. I GOT A PICTURE WITH JASMINE AND ALADIN ON OUR WAY TO CALIFORNIA ADVENTURE WHICH LOOKS SOOOOO CUTE!!!!
MOST IMPORTANTLY I GOT TO RIDE MY FAVORITE RIDE OF ALL TIME SPACE MOUNTAIN!!!!!! I FELT LIKE A LITTLE KID AGAIN BUT IT WAS GREAT... AND EVEN BETTER IT WAS A GREAT DISTRACTION FROM ALL THE SADDNESS THAT k HAD BEEN PUTTING ME THROUGH AND THE STRESS OF MOVIN.
SO AFTER THAT WE WENT TO CALIFORNIA ADVENTURE AND ATE AND ROAD ON SOME OF THE KIDDIE RIDES WITH LIL PRINCE WHICH WAS TOOOO CUTE!!!!! THEN MADE WAY TO THE TOWER OF TERROR WHERE I TRULY WAS TERROIZED... BUT EVEN STILL I LOVED IT!!!!
IT WAS EVEN GREAT BEING HARRASSED ABOUT MY WHITEWASHEDNESS AND WHAT NOT BY geyz... BEING PULLED BY MY HAIR HOWEVER WAS NOT CUTE.... BUT HEY ALL IN ALL IT WAS A GREAT WAY TO END A KINDA SHITTY WEEK.
IT AMAZES ME THAT SOMETHING SO CHILDLIKE AND YOUNG CAN SOLVE ADULT PROBLEMS.... I MEAN SERIOUSLY I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT EVRYTHING THAT HAD BEEN GOING ON... I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT ALL THE BS FROM FRIDAY NIGHT AND WITH the one AND k ALL THAT MATTERED WAS THAT I WAS HAPPY AND HACVING SOO MUCH FUN IT WAS RIDICULOUS!!!! BEING WITH A CUTE GUY HELPED TOOO... (BUT WE SHALL SEE HOW LONG geyz LASTS!!)
CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK
THANKS t!!!!!!!!!!!!
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carrie YOU DISAPPOINT ME
FROM SATURDAY 20,2008 (4AM)
YOU LEARN A LOT ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN YOU ARE THROWN INTO WEIRD AND EXTENUATING CIRCUMSTANCES WITH THEM......
PEOPLE YOU THOUGHT KNEW YOU DON'T, COURTESIES YOU GIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AREN'T GIVEN TO YOU.... ITS CRAZY. BUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE DETAILS OF THE NIGHT READ NSL THIS IS ABOUT ME....
SOOO... IN THE MIDST OF MY STUPOR I REALIZED YOU CAN'T JUST FORGET ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.... BE THEM ANGER LOVE PASSION OR ANYTHING ELSE...... I WISH THAT I COULD SOME TIMES BUT I CAN'T
WHAT SUCKS EVEN MORE IS THAT WHEN I WAS BEING CONSUMMED WITH ALL THE FEELINGS THAT I HAD TRIED TO REPRESS IT WAS INTERESTING TO ME HOW ALLL carrie COULD CARE ABOUT WAS HERSELF AND THE FALSEHOODS AND HYPOCRISIES OF HER INNER CIRCLE. I UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO FACE THINGS ON OUR OWN BUT WHEN YOU REACH OUT FOR HUMAN CONTACT AND EMPATHY ESPECIALLY FROM THOSE WHO YOU NEED IT MOST FROM YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET IT..... WHEN YOU JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TRUST AND BELIEVE IN YOU IT SHOULD BE ABLE TO COME.
I LEARNED A LOT TONIGHT.... HYPOCRITS ARE MANY IN MY WORLD AND THEIR FOLLOWERS AND APEASERS NUMBER EVEN MORE. YOU CANNOT EVEN TRUST THOSE WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSSED TO BECAUSE THEY ARE CONTAMINATED BY THE HYPOCITS AND THEIR FOLLOWERS. THOSE WHO YOU CAN TRUST AND COUNT ON ARE THE ONES YOU LEAST EXCPECT. AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL YOU CAN NEVER THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT A SITUATION OR ABOUT PEOPLE.
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YOU LEARN A LOT ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN YOU ARE THROWN INTO WEIRD AND EXTENUATING CIRCUMSTANCES WITH THEM......
PEOPLE YOU THOUGHT KNEW YOU DON'T, COURTESIES YOU GIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AREN'T GIVEN TO YOU.... ITS CRAZY. BUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE DETAILS OF THE NIGHT READ NSL THIS IS ABOUT ME....
SOOO... IN THE MIDST OF MY STUPOR I REALIZED YOU CAN'T JUST FORGET ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.... BE THEM ANGER LOVE PASSION OR ANYTHING ELSE...... I WISH THAT I COULD SOME TIMES BUT I CAN'T
WHAT SUCKS EVEN MORE IS THAT WHEN I WAS BEING CONSUMMED WITH ALL THE FEELINGS THAT I HAD TRIED TO REPRESS IT WAS INTERESTING TO ME HOW ALLL carrie COULD CARE ABOUT WAS HERSELF AND THE FALSEHOODS AND HYPOCRISIES OF HER INNER CIRCLE. I UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO FACE THINGS ON OUR OWN BUT WHEN YOU REACH OUT FOR HUMAN CONTACT AND EMPATHY ESPECIALLY FROM THOSE WHO YOU NEED IT MOST FROM YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET IT..... WHEN YOU JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TRUST AND BELIEVE IN YOU IT SHOULD BE ABLE TO COME.
I LEARNED A LOT TONIGHT.... HYPOCRITS ARE MANY IN MY WORLD AND THEIR FOLLOWERS AND APEASERS NUMBER EVEN MORE. YOU CANNOT EVEN TRUST THOSE WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSSED TO BECAUSE THEY ARE CONTAMINATED BY THE HYPOCITS AND THEIR FOLLOWERS. THOSE WHO YOU CAN TRUST AND COUNT ON ARE THE ONES YOU LEAST EXCPECT. AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL YOU CAN NEVER THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT A SITUATION OR ABOUT PEOPLE.
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Nervous (09/19/09)
From Friday, September 19, 2008:
For the first time in a minute im nervous going into my element.... I'm hopping that tonight I don't see K tonight.... I'm hopping that I don't because I'm still hurting like hell from the way that he did me and I really don't want todeal with him right now.... It has been a rough enough week as it is with out having to see him... but we shalll see
REAGAL CHIK OUT
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For the first time in a minute im nervous going into my element.... I'm hopping that tonight I don't see K tonight.... I'm hopping that I don't because I'm still hurting like hell from the way that he did me and I really don't want todeal with him right now.... It has been a rough enough week as it is with out having to see him... but we shalll see
REAGAL CHIK OUT
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHT 1
HERE'S A RANDOM THOUGHT......
THE PEOPLE WHO PULL AND DRAGG YOU TO BE THERE FOR THEM IN THEIR TIMES OF NEED IN THE MOST DESPERATE OF WAYS ARE THE ONES WHO ARE NEVER THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED THEM.
YESTERDAY I PROVED THAT.
AND IT HURT TO KNOW THAT I WAS THERE FOR k AND BENT OVER BACKWARDS TO DO SO THAT THEY WEREN'T THERE FOR ME....
AND NOW ALL THAT REMAINS IS TO FIGURE OUT HOW IM GOING TO ACT WHEN I RUN INTO k ... BE RUDE??? RUN AND CRY OR JUST SIMPLY DO WHAT TRULY IS IN MY HEART.... SMILE AND ASK WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP YOU TODAY?
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THE PEOPLE WHO PULL AND DRAGG YOU TO BE THERE FOR THEM IN THEIR TIMES OF NEED IN THE MOST DESPERATE OF WAYS ARE THE ONES WHO ARE NEVER THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED THEM.
YESTERDAY I PROVED THAT.
AND IT HURT TO KNOW THAT I WAS THERE FOR k AND BENT OVER BACKWARDS TO DO SO THAT THEY WEREN'T THERE FOR ME....
AND NOW ALL THAT REMAINS IS TO FIGURE OUT HOW IM GOING TO ACT WHEN I RUN INTO k ... BE RUDE??? RUN AND CRY OR JUST SIMPLY DO WHAT TRULY IS IN MY HEART.... SMILE AND ASK WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP YOU TODAY?
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into anothers soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
EQUILIBRIUM
SO SITTING HERE AT WORK FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS HAS MADE ME THINK....
I REALLY MISS THE WAY THAT I USED TO BE,
SO MUCH THE TOMBOY AND THE MUSIC JUNKY... NERDY... CUTE BUT NOT SUPER SEXY. DON'T GET ME WRONG MODELING IS GREAT... AND BEING A CLUB PROMOTER IS MORE FUN THAN YOU COULD IMAGINE... BUT THERE ARE DAYS THAT I JUST WANT TO GO STUDY, PLAY BALL FOR 4 HOURS WRITE A COUPLE SONGS AND GO TO SLEEP TO GO TO SCHOOL THE NEXT DAY.
IT WAS A PERIOD WHERE GUYS DIDN'T MATTER AND WHERE I WAS CONTENT TO JUST LIKE PEOPLE FROM SAFE DISTANCES AND GO UNNOTICED... RELATIONSHIPS WERE A JOKE TO ME, SEX WAS GROSS AND DISGUSTING... AND THE ONLY THING THAT GUYS WERE GOOD FOR WAS AS FRIENDS AND BASKETBALL. LOL
IDK MAYBE THINGS WILL BE ABLE TO GO BACK O THE WAY THEY WERE AND STILL HAVE SOME OF THE EXCITEMENT THAT LIFE HAS FOR ME RIGHT NOW. BUT FOR RIGHT THIS SECOND I JUST WANT TO READ A GOOD BOOK, HIT A CLUTCH THREE-POINT SHOT AND WRITE A SONG THAT'S GRAMMY WORTHY.
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into anothers soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
I REALLY MISS THE WAY THAT I USED TO BE,
SO MUCH THE TOMBOY AND THE MUSIC JUNKY... NERDY... CUTE BUT NOT SUPER SEXY. DON'T GET ME WRONG MODELING IS GREAT... AND BEING A CLUB PROMOTER IS MORE FUN THAN YOU COULD IMAGINE... BUT THERE ARE DAYS THAT I JUST WANT TO GO STUDY, PLAY BALL FOR 4 HOURS WRITE A COUPLE SONGS AND GO TO SLEEP TO GO TO SCHOOL THE NEXT DAY.
IT WAS A PERIOD WHERE GUYS DIDN'T MATTER AND WHERE I WAS CONTENT TO JUST LIKE PEOPLE FROM SAFE DISTANCES AND GO UNNOTICED... RELATIONSHIPS WERE A JOKE TO ME, SEX WAS GROSS AND DISGUSTING... AND THE ONLY THING THAT GUYS WERE GOOD FOR WAS AS FRIENDS AND BASKETBALL. LOL
IDK MAYBE THINGS WILL BE ABLE TO GO BACK O THE WAY THEY WERE AND STILL HAVE SOME OF THE EXCITEMENT THAT LIFE HAS FOR ME RIGHT NOW. BUT FOR RIGHT THIS SECOND I JUST WANT TO READ A GOOD BOOK, HIT A CLUTCH THREE-POINT SHOT AND WRITE A SONG THAT'S GRAMMY WORTHY.
One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into anothers soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it gong forth in repetition we spread this Anjlik Sol.....
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