REDEDICATION

IN THE BLOG BEFORE THIS ONE I TALKED ABOUT HOW papa ruk SPOKE AND HOW HE DANCED. I PROMISED MORE SO HERE IT IS

SO SATURDAY NIGHT I WAS AT tha session. I HADN'T PLANNED ON GOING AND HONESTLY WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THERE. BUT I MADE IT UP THERE FOR VIXEN MOTIVES, ORIGINALLY.

MY is b, HER BFF, AND OUR COUSIN MADE THE TREK UP THERE AND LIKE I SAID I REALLY DID HAVE NO EXPECTATIONS OF ANYTHING BUT GOING TO CAUSE A SCENE
AND A COMMOTION.

HOW FUNNY IT WAS THEN THAT THE THE SCENE REALLY WAS ME.

papa ruk DANCED TO A SONG THAT I KNOW WELL...MATTER OF FACT IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF MY FAVORITE GOSPEL SONGS... "THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD". WATCHING HIM DANCE REMINDED ME WHY I KRUMP. I KRUMP BECAUSE IT GIVES ME THE CHANCE TO LET GOD USE ME... MORE IMPORTANTLY IT GIVES ME THE CHANCE TO SURRENDER MY BODY TO GOD TO DO WORK ON.

THEN papa ruk SHOWED A VIDEO OF HIMSELF MY AGE ON TV DANCING WITH mama ruk. AFTER THE VIDEO WAS OVER HE TALKED ABOUT HOW FAR HE HAD COME TO GET WHERE HE WAS AND BEGAN TO TESTIFY THAT IT IS ONLY BY THE GRACE OF GOD THAT HE IS HERE TODAY. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY IT IS BECAUSE GOD SAW WHAT HE WAS GOING TO BE DOING AND SAVED HIM FOR A TIME SUCH AS THIS.

HEARING HIM TESTIFY GAVE ME STRENGTH TO BREAK. I GO THROUGH SO MUCH, PHYSICALLY MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY AND HAVE FALLEN SO FAR FROM GRACE I NEEDED TO HEAR THAT THERE IS HOPE. I NEEDED TO HEAR THE MESSAGE THAT MANY ARE CALLED BUT FEW ARE CHOSEN AND THAT THOSE WHO ARE CHOSEN GOD CALLS OUT UNTO THEM FOR WHAT HE SEES IN THEM NOT WHAT WE SEE IN OURSELVES.

ALREADY I COULD CARELESS IF MY FRIENDS IN all star THOUGHT I WAS WEIRD FOR BEING INTO THE MESSAGE.... IT WAS WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR TO GET ME THROUGH WHAT I HAD BEEN GOING THROUGH FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS. I NEEDED TO NOW THAT I COULD BE FORGIVEN FOR MY SCREW UPS IF I SURRENDERED AND THAT GOD CHOSE ME STILL, IN SPITE, AND DESPITE MY CIRCUMSTANCES AND FLAWS.

AFTER HE WAS DONE SPEAKING papa ruk DANCED TO ONE MORE SONG, "KEEP ME IN YOUR REACH" WHICH IS WHAT MADE ME BREAK. I NEEDED TO KNOW THAT I WASN'T OUTSIDE OF GOD'S REACH. I NEEDED TO KNOW THAT THERE WAS NOTHING THAT HE COULDN'T HELP GUIDE ME THROUGH... NOTHING THAT HE COULDN'T HEAL OR FIX.

WHILE THE SONG WAS PLAYING AND HE WAS DANCING I BEGAN TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FOR MY SINS... BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY I BEGAN TO ASK GOD TO DO A WORK IN ME THAT WAS UNIQUE TO ME. I WASN'T ASKING FOR HEALING I WAS ASKING FOR HIM TO RESTORE MY HOPE AND MY FAITH THAT I COULD LIVE THE REST OF THIS LIFE. I JUST NEEDED TO KNOW THAT HE WAS GOING TO STILL WALK WITH ME AND BE THERE WITH ME.

WHEN THE TIME CAME FOR ALTER CALL I WENT UP WITHOUT HESITATION.... I NEEDED TO REDEDICATE MY LIFE TO CHRIST... I NEEDED TO REDEDICATE MY LIFE TO BEING THE PERSON THAT HE HAD CALLED AND CHOSEN ME TO BE. (SOMETHING I'M NOTICING I NEED TO DO DAILY) MOST IMPORTANTLY I NEEDED TO SHOW THAT I WANTED TO CHANGE.

I NEVER EXPECTED A MIRACLE.... I NEVER EXPECTED THE PROPHET TO BLESS ME AND HEAL MY BODY, MIND AND SOUL, I NEVER EXPECTED THAT IT WOULD FEEL SOO GOOD. MORE IMPORTANTLY I NEVER EXPECTED THAT JUST AS I WAS BRAVE ENOUGH TO STAND UP AND SHOW EVERYONE ELSE THAT I WANTED TO CHANGE GOD WANTED PUBLICLY SHOW THAT HE LOVED ME AND HAD ME NOT JUST IN HIS REACH BUT IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND.

EVEN THOUGH I HAVE ALREADY FALLEN I CAN GET BACK UP KNOWING THAT I'M NOT FAR FROM HIS REACH AND THAT HE HAS DONE MORE THAN A MIRACLE MORE THAN A GREAT THING HE HAS CHANGED ME. MY GOAL IN LIFE IS TO BE THAT PERSON THAT GOD TAKES PRIDE IN.... AND NO I DON'T ALWAYS DO IT RIGHT EVERY TIME BUT I KNOW THAT IF I GET BACK UP AGAIN AND STAND THAT HE WILL CARRY ME AND THAT I WILL GET THERE.

I HAVE FAITH THAT MY HEART HAS BEEN HEALED, MY MOUNTAINS MOVED, MY MIND PUT TO REST, AND MY BODY RESTORED. I KNOW THAT BY ME TAKING A STAND TO REDEDICATE THAT I COULDN'T HAVE GONE WRONG.

I JUST NEED YOU ALL TO KNOW THAT TOO AND THAT IF YOU JUST CRY OUT TO HIM THAT AND TRULY WANT TO BE CHANGED THAT HE WILL DO THAT FOR YOU JUST LIKE HE DID FOR ME. HE CAN HEAL YOU SOOTHE THE PAIN AND SOO MUCH MORE.

HE GAVE ME BACK ME... AND NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE THAT... I KNOW THAT THE TESTS ARE GOING TO COME BECAUSE THEY ALREADY HAVE SINCE SATURDAY NIGHT AND THAT EVEN THO THEY SAY THAT OLD HABITS DIE HARD THEY STILL DO DIE. IF I DON'T PASS THIS TEST I WILL PASS THE NEXT ONE AND THE ONE AFTER THAT AND SOON I WILL NOT EVEN FALL TO THE THINGS THAT I DID BEFORE I REDEDICATED MY LIFE TO YOU LORD.

One mind one heart one voice one soul. One person speaks a word that plants an idea into another's soul that blooms into a beautiful concept and reality that is seen and spread throughout the world. And by one speaking another listening and sharing and by it going