WHY BOTHER (secret SMILEZ)

I STARTED TO POST A LETTER I WROTE him UP HERE... AND HONESTLY STILL MIGHT...

BUT 4 TIMES A LADY CAME ON....

AND ALL I COULD DO WAS SMILE THINKING ABOUT YOU... I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT THE HURT ANYMORE CUZ I HAVE secret AND RIGHT NOW... IT MIGHT NOT BE EVERTHING
BUT ITS EXACTLY WAT WAS NEEDED TO REMIND ME THAT THERE IS JUST BETTER THAN him THERE ALWAYS WAS

SO WHY BOTHER TO PUT him OUT THERE JUST YET

TEMPTATION

I'M TRYING TO RESIST BUT I FEEL MYSELF SLIPPING FURTHER AND FURTHER INTO TEMPTATION... IT JUST SEEMS SOO SWEET AND SO COMFORTING. I'M SITTING HERE DAY DREAMING ABOUT GIVING IN KNOWING HOW WRONG I WOULD BE AND YET I STILL CAN'T SEEM TO CARE. SHE WANTS ME TO GIVE IN BECAUSE OF THE SATISFACTION AND I KNOW THAT YOU DO TOO. BUT ON THE PATH THAT I HAVE EMBARKED ON IT IS THE LAST THING THAT I NEED.


FOCUS.... FOCUS.... FOCUS... I KEEP SCREAMING AT MYSELF FROM ALL DIRECTIONS. DESIGN, CREATE, INVENT, WHATEVER ITS GOING TO TAKE JUST DON'T LET YOU R MIND WANDER RIGHT NOW IT WONT BE GOOD IN THE END.

BUT I STILL FEEL YOUR PULL EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOUR ON THE OTHER SIDE... AND LIKE A RIP CURRENT I'M STARTING TO BE PULLED UNDER.

THE ONLY QUESTION LEFT IS DO I LEFT MYSELF BE CAUGHT IN IT AND THROWN OUT NATURALLY OR CONTINUE TO FIGHT AGAINST IT AND HOPE THAT I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GET AWAY FROM TEMPTATION

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