LETTERS FROM THE SOL: I CRIED

***I KNOW THAT I'VE HAD A LOT OF LETTERS FROM THE SOL LATELY BUT THATS JUST BEEN HOW ITS BEEN, CALL ME A COWARD FOR NOT TELLIN THESE PEOPLE TO THEIR FACE BUT THIS WAY IS JUST EASIER***


DEAR,


I CRIED INSIDE MYSELF, AS SOON AS I HEARD YOUR VOICE. I DID A GOOD JOB OF NOT DOING IT THE WHOLE TIME WE TALKED..... I KNEW SOMETHING WASN'T RIGHT. I COULD SENSE IT.


AND AS THE CONVERSATION WENT ON YOUR WORDS WERE DROWNED OUT BY THE STORM INSIDE ME AND I LOST MY VOICE.


YEAH I KNOW THAT I WAS TOO CONTENT TO GET OFF THE PHONE.... AND AS SOON AS I DID THEY BEGAN TO FALL INSIDE OUT. IT JUST HURT WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY.

ANOTHER SET OF BROKEN EXPECTATIONS AND PROMISES.... AND A FEW MORE TEARS FELL


AND NO MATTER HOW TIGHT I GRIPPED MY BLANKET OR BURRIED MY FACE IN MY PILLOW IT DIDN'T HELP.


AND AS I FELL ASLEEP TO THE SOUND OF TEARS HITTING MY PILLOW I CRIED IN MY DREAMS....


WHEN I WOKE UP I THOUGHT IT HAD BEEN JUST A BAD DREAM.... THEN I SAT DOWN TO LISTEN TO SOME MUSIC AND THOUGHT......


I CRIED.....

I CRIED OVER YOU......

I DON'T KNOW WHY I EXPECTED MORE BUT I CRIED.....

AND I PUT MY MASK BACK ON AND SIMPLY VOWED TO NEVER SAY AGAIN THAT I CRIED....


SO THANK YOU..... BECAUSE I OFFICIALLY DON'T BELIEVE ANYMORE.... EVER SINCE I CRIED


A.MARIE